Ooo Spidey we definitely want pictures of your hair once it is done and Yay for getting dressed up, I was the same last week I was delighted with myself having somewhere to go and get dressed up for a change, I even went all out and got my hair put up as a trial for the wedding and did my toes and fake tan and I felt so good once it was all done, mind you I had forgotten how much I hate doing it all and how time consuming it all is
Shiv and Cleck: Isn't it mad that in this day and age they dont can't do something to regulate blood pressure in pregnancy. Shiv it is no wonder you were so dizzy, you definitely mind yourself as it doesn't sound plesant at all and must be scary when it happens.
Shiv: so glad they found that hb, you must have stopped breathing yourself when she was trying to find it. Are they going to put you on iron for the anemia, that is probably why you have been feeling so tired. Eeek for the dinner with the other mums, I'm sure you will really enjoy it and it will give you a chance to really get to know them.
Well the hormones are a little better today, this morning was a disaster and I cried for most of it and ended up being late for work by the time I stopped looking like I was crying and put more make up on, but It started to lift this afternoon so I dont feel half as bad tonight. It really is mental how much they change me and more so since the mc but I'm wondering if it is something to do with my diet lately as my friend was telling me about this herbal remedy that she used to take called pms escape and I have been trying to locate it as she used to get it on special order from our local health food shop but they can't get it anymore, but finally today I found it online and from what I can see it is a complex carboyhdrate tonic with vitamins and minerals in it and from what I have read you need extra carbs to balance the serotonin levels that drop with pms and I have been on low carb or total food replacement for so long so I'm wondering if that is what is the problem or is it just to do with the mc. When I was a teenager I was put on anti depression tablets twice and it was only my mam figured out that when I was like that it was once a month so she made me put it in a diary and it was always half way to ten days before Af arrived and over the years it has gotten much better, but has hit me like a ton of bricks again the last few months - I'm presuming it is ov hormones but I'm not 100% sure as I dont pee on any sticks to check but it is always half way though my cycle and on the same day that I put up 2lb so I'm presuming that it is. Fingers crossed this pms escape helps as I know when I spoke to the consultant he said that there was stuff he could give me but not if we were going to ttc soon as it was either contra-indicated in pregnancy or basically birth control and being honest even after we have another baby I would prefer to treat it with something natural than shoving medicine or more hormones into my body.
My birthday will be fine though and I really don't care once DH and Natasha are around, which they always are :cloud: it is exactly what I thought would happen as everyone is under serious pressure here this year, I know was really looking forward to catching up with everyone as we all seem to have gotten so busy between children and some of them are working second jobs and I know myself I dont have that much time since Natasha was born and even when I'm off in the summer everyone is working, so we only get to speak on the phone every couple of days and see each other every couple of weeks, but sure there will be other times and it really isn't that much of a big deal, but yesterday I was like a big baby and thought it was the end of the world
i mean in fairness if that is all I have to cry about
but it is like all happyness switches off and I turn into a crying, depressed mess for at least a day each month where I think I have the weight of the world on my shoulders over absolutely nothing
I was feeling so sorry for myself this morning I was even going to cancel going out
- I do worry for my sanity sometimes
Now that my mind is a little clearer though i'm still going to go out and tonight my sister phoned and she has changed her work so her and her husband are coming, so there will be myself and Jim, my sister and her husband, one of my friends, my mam and one of my brothers going for the meal and then my mam will head home to take over looking after Natasha and the rest of my brothers are coming out for a few drinks and my brother from London is also hoping to arrive home that night as he is off for a few weeks so is heading home early for the wedding and one of my other friends that can't also phoned tonight and is coming down with her boyfriend this Monday which is actually my birthday and we are going to get a take away, she wanted to go for a meal that night but I dont want to leave Natasha with my mam another night and we really dont have the money either, so in the end I didn't even have anything to be upset about
but then I always find something when I'm like that. It is so stupid really as I just felt like nobody cared and I know how much they all care about me. Good job I didn't say it to any of them when I got the texts yesterday or I would be convinced there was extra coming now out of pity in the mood I have been in
- Poor DH though got the brunt of it all, I really dont know how he doesn't have me checked into a mental hospital when I'm like that
- but it is funny as he actually knows what is happening before I do most months and will actually say, check your calender I bet your periods are due in the next two weeks
On a brighter note I saved money on my car insurance last week so I have saved more and I treated myself to a slow cooker which arrived today so that cheered me up and I'm looking forward to using it.
Well I think I have rambled on enough and really should be in bed, but we did the weekly clean on the house tonight as all my classes are finishing next week so I will probably have to work extra days so I'm just going to relax with Natasha for the day. If I'm not in tomorrow which I probably will be have a good weekend everyone. xx