Mother of God Cleck how can you walk after 5 times a week
- Twice a week is all we ever manage it and that is usually at the weekends
- Remember it only takes once to catch that eggy, so you would never know
I think you have done great on the weight now that the water has sorted itself out it realy is only 5lbs and that is great after being away and at so many family gatherings, so well done you
MJ and Shiv: None of the riots have moved near you have they, I only got to see a bit of sky news this evening and know it has moved further than central London, but didn't get to see much more. Hope you are both safe and well away from it. Scary stuff.
Spidey: I know I really do need to make a big checklist
- Well I'm not even sure who is coming yet, but we have invited both families and a few friends, but I'm still waiting on replies. I have bought the paper plates and some decorations and DH is getting her birthday presents during the week, and I have just ordered her birthday card, so not much to do really only organise the food and I can't do that until I have more idea on numbers. Not long left for you now, are you excited?
We have the plumbers in fitting the new stove, so myself and Natasha headed to town today and got her new shoes as she had grown out of her summer ones, so hopefully these will do for the last few weeks and then we called to my dad, who I think I told you all before is an alcoholic and had to have major surgery when I was pregnant on Natasha, but has been off the drink since (well so I thought), I have had my suspicions over the last month or so, but I didn't ask out straight as I decided when Natasha was born that I was going to stick my head in the sand as if the surgery that he went through couldn't stop him, I definitely couldn't and I had spent so many years stressing and worrying about it and didn't want that going on now that I had a child of my own to look after, but today when I called, when I had rang the bell with Natasha in the car in the drive as I didn't want to take her out if he wasn't it, so when I was taking her out of the car, all I could hear was the clank of bottles, so I said it out straight, what was all the clanking of bottles, hiding the evidence and he said yes
- I am so annoyed with him right now, I know how much of a battle it is to stay off of it, but he hasn't really tried really, he only went to aa once about 20 years ago and it was the local one here and there were only two others, so he has decided it is not for him, instead of trying again and going to one in the town that there are loads of people at and not two locals that he knows. I dont know how he can be so selfish and not at least try his hardest. I gave him a bit of an earful and said it was very unfair that Natasha loved her grandad to bits and could he not even try for her seeing as I obviously was never good enough to try for and he said, it was all fine that it was only a weekend thing and it wouldn't get out of control again - eh he was told that it would definitely kill him early as it has already done so much damage to his pancreas, ffs they took out of huge tumour already because of it, his theory is when your time is up, it is up and that the pain we will feel of his loss will be as bad if it is tomorrow or in 20 years, never mind the fact that my youngest brother hasn't even turned 21 or that Natasha is so young and should have years to love him. Grr it drives me nuts, anyway rant over and I'm going to try and put it to the back of my mind again now because the one thing I have learned is that he has to want to do it himself and I can't make him, so I really dont want to stress about it like I have in the past, but it does make me so mad and it does worry me to death.