--Lion Cubs - Mummy and Baby Group!-- We are all One Year Old!

[Boothh]

Thanks both of you, xx
they did both external and internal scans to check and I was measuring 6+5 no heartbeat, 3 of them checked and i've signed the forms for the operation and just waiting for them to tell ne when to come in.. Should be this week,
I just feel so numb don't know what to think, and the worst thing was seein Stuart cry, just totally broke me, sorry if I'm not around just need to get my head around everything xxx

 

[Pippin]

Awww hon that's horrid I'm so sorry. Again big sorry's to you both totally understand stepping back for a while. I hate seeing Simon cry as when he does it's a really big deal. Hurts so much. I feel for you hon. xxxx

 

[Boothh]

i know what you mean iv never once seen stuart even close to crying he just isnt that sort of person, i just feel so guilty cus i know he wanted this baby so much, you know jesse is the only thing thats got me through today i got back to my mums to pick him up and he did a big smile and threw his arms up to me, so innocent and oblivious to all of this, and hes got his first tooth today, i know its for the best really cus there must of been something wrong with little bean for this to happen but i just cant believe its happening to me, nobody should have to go through this, xx

 

[Pippin]

It's never fair hon but you are right, something must have been wrong with the little bean, natures way but never easy to face up to though. Don't feel guilty about anything, it's not your fault or anyone else's. Jesse knows something is up, he can sense his Mummy and Daddy's moods and what a gorgeous little boy for trying to cheer you both up. Give him lots of cuddles tonight. It's so hard but eventually you'll be ready to try again so hold on to that hope. xxx

 

[Boothh]

its annoying cus i want another baby, but not any baby i want that one and i bought him a little outfit and its in my wardrobe hanging up and hes never gonna get to wear it, just keep thinking about it and it guts me, jesse has the same sleepsuit and everytime he wears it im gunna get a lump in my throat, i just feel so shit, i feel like its a dream i keep hoping when i wake up tomorrow its a dream,

 

[Mary Jo]

awww, Booth, I'm so, so sorry.

 

[Pippin]

Don't know what to say hon to make you feel better, not anything I guess . When I had a scare when I was pregnant with Sam the over whelming fear is indescribable to anyone but yourself, I can go a little way to understand how you are feeling right now I think. I just hope in time the hurt heals, maybe for now put the outfit away and bring it out again when you feel ready. xxx

 

[cleckner04]

OMG Boothh!! I'm SOO sorry hun. It's so hard to go through I just want to give you huge hugs IRL right now! Remember that you WILL get through this. Nothing I say will be able to help right now but you can message me anytime. I had a D&C with mine and I'm glad I did to get it over with. Your heart will take longer to heal.

 

[tmr1234]

Boothh iam so sorry for youer loss hunny

 

[Vici]

O hun, i'm so sorry, massive hugs from all of us xxxxx

 

[Boothh]

really thankyou all of you, today my head feels a little better, yesterday seems so long ago to me now, i think as soon as i have been into hospital and it is all over with, we will be able to start to move forward, right now i just keep thinking how my baby is there inside me and i cant do anything to save it, and i hate it, i just want to get away from this week and start to clear my head, it means alot to have all of your support xxx

 

[Shiv]

Boothh, was thinking about you and Stuart lots yesterday and still am today.

 

[Aunty E]

Boothh, I'm so sorry about your LO

Hope you and Stuart can be strong for each other and lovely Jesse

 

[ShadowRat]

OMG Becki sweetheart, I am so very sorry to hear your news I know I haven't been around here much lately but if you ever need me, you know how to find me sweetie. Sending you so much love to get through this x x x x

 

[spidey]

Boothh, I just read about your LO. I'm so sorry I hope your surgery goes smoothly and your heart heals quickly

 

[Boothh]

Thanks again everybody, really helps to know that you all here for me,
I have my op tomorrow, so just asking for thoughts to be with my LO and Stuart, don't worry about me lol I have sedative and painkillers haha xx

 

[Mary Jo]

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow, lots of love to you all from me and Adam.

 

[tmr1234]

we will be thinking about you and your famly today hun hope it gose gose smooth for you.

 

[Aunty E]

Hi Boothh, hope yesterday was as gentle as possible for you. Give that little boy of yours a cuddle from me and Mog

 

[Boothh]

Came out this morning been prescribed some strong cocodamol for the pain, not in much pain though just uncomfortable and feeling a little fragile, very calm though because of the anti anxiety stuff they gave me, honestly could not have wished for better staff, honestly they were so so nice to me, Stuart bought me the most beautiful flowers that were waiting for me when I got back from theater, just gunna rest and take it easy, Jesse has 2teeth now which I keep forgetting to mention lol first came through Tuesday and second today, he's been with my mum on s little holiday in Blackpool, better this way cus we don't have to worry so much, think he will be back tomorrow or Monday depending how I'm feeling, only bad thing is iv started smoking again hope everyone is doing okay, xx