littlemansmum
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Had my appt on Friday, was meant to be with the consultant but ended up seeing reg, when i got there waited half hour and no-one even asked for my wee so i asked and was told i had delivered so would not be seen. Wtf?! Told them definintely had not delivered, and went for scan, he looked perfect, just hb too fast, although sonographer thinks my hind waters are leaking as they are only just on the right side of normal, but reg said whole lot had not gone so guess thats ok.
Reg said that she feels a reasonable goal for me is to get to 34 weeks without my littlest man going into heart failure, if we can get that far then she feels he is better to arrive than to arrive at 35 or 36 weeks when he may have started to go into heart failure which worried me but thought least she's not saying he should come now.
Friday night i was sat reading posts on here and took my digoxin at 22.00, by 22.20 i was having major breathing problems, and blurred vision, hubby called the mat unit to get advice and was told if i was still having trouble in 15 mins to call labour ward and they would see me, so he called labour ward 15 after cos i was still having probs.
He spoke to mw for a few mins then she asked to speak to me, and asked if i was having chest pains, i said NO, she then speaks to reg and comes back and says they are sending an ambulance for me, and to bring my bag cos i am coming in to be delivered and theatre etc is on standby.
I then go into major panic, and when paramedics get here they say i seem stressed i explain what mw said and after doing a few checks he says he will phone labour ward and speak to reg as he agrees with me if my baby is to come i need to be in Bristol where they have a cardiac nicu section, he feels that an hour transfer in an incubator could be bad for baby and that if i need to be delivered which he disagrees with i should go to the best place.
Paramedic then has argument with reg, who then snaps at him that if i am not having chest pain then my problem is not baby related and i should go to the local a+e, which all seems really random, she is really put out that everyone feels my baby is better left in.
I then get transferred to local a and e who say could just be normal side effects or could be digoxin toxicity and that i should get my bloods checked in the morn, they are pissed at Taunton as didn't even have the good manners to phone and alert them they are dumping me there, and doc says some ob's are all to quick to pull babies out and that i should complain about the bitch who tried to bully me into a section 11 weeks early when my baby is not distressed and we are being treated.
Went into mat ward today and had bloods and ecg, which were fine, they still cant get a trace on baby as his heartbeat is still above the max the printer can do, BUT instead of being consistently 250+ he is now steady at 232-236, which is still mega high, but is a drop, mw and doc cannot say if its the meds helping, but i am hopeful, and i reckon each little beat he drops is one less bit of stress on his lil heart so am pleased.
Saw different reg today who said that whoever told me on Sat i was being delivered was out of order and apologised, she agreed 34 weeks seems a good goal, she said if need be will be delivered sooner at Bristol but failing that 34 weeks is a good target, will be at Bristol and have been advised to ask to book a tour of the nicu to prepare ourselves and to ask about the steroids as they could be useful, or at least having info if nothing else sould help me understand.
If i am being 100% honest i am not coping well with all this, keep a brave face on for my son during the day and then cry most of the night, am getting about 2 hours ish sleep a night as just cannot restand switch off, and feel like i am always one step from tears, i hate this.
I keep telling myself that i should feel luck that my lilest man will be ok if born at 34 weeks but they said will be at least 3 days before we can touch him, 2/3 weeks till we can hold him and 6-8 weeks before he comes home which at the moment seems like an eternity and heartbreaking to have to leave him there, also i will be a section so 4-5 days in hospital and then they may be able to offer me a room to stay with him for a few days but after that i will have to come home, hubby cannot afford time off, and i will be unable to drive for 6 weeks so will be screwed for seeing him cept Weds and Suns hubby day off, so feeling very sorry for myself right now, and wishing that instead of facing all this i was looking at being overdue.
I am off to see the specialists and the fetal cardiologist tomorrow so will update when i get back or get Serina to update if anything major occurs while there.
Sorry for rambling on again but i just had to get it off my chest before i went mad, you must all be sick of me by now, but thanks for reading xxx
Reg said that she feels a reasonable goal for me is to get to 34 weeks without my littlest man going into heart failure, if we can get that far then she feels he is better to arrive than to arrive at 35 or 36 weeks when he may have started to go into heart failure which worried me but thought least she's not saying he should come now.
Friday night i was sat reading posts on here and took my digoxin at 22.00, by 22.20 i was having major breathing problems, and blurred vision, hubby called the mat unit to get advice and was told if i was still having trouble in 15 mins to call labour ward and they would see me, so he called labour ward 15 after cos i was still having probs.
He spoke to mw for a few mins then she asked to speak to me, and asked if i was having chest pains, i said NO, she then speaks to reg and comes back and says they are sending an ambulance for me, and to bring my bag cos i am coming in to be delivered and theatre etc is on standby.
I then go into major panic, and when paramedics get here they say i seem stressed i explain what mw said and after doing a few checks he says he will phone labour ward and speak to reg as he agrees with me if my baby is to come i need to be in Bristol where they have a cardiac nicu section, he feels that an hour transfer in an incubator could be bad for baby and that if i need to be delivered which he disagrees with i should go to the best place.
Paramedic then has argument with reg, who then snaps at him that if i am not having chest pain then my problem is not baby related and i should go to the local a+e, which all seems really random, she is really put out that everyone feels my baby is better left in.
I then get transferred to local a and e who say could just be normal side effects or could be digoxin toxicity and that i should get my bloods checked in the morn, they are pissed at Taunton as didn't even have the good manners to phone and alert them they are dumping me there, and doc says some ob's are all to quick to pull babies out and that i should complain about the bitch who tried to bully me into a section 11 weeks early when my baby is not distressed and we are being treated.
Went into mat ward today and had bloods and ecg, which were fine, they still cant get a trace on baby as his heartbeat is still above the max the printer can do, BUT instead of being consistently 250+ he is now steady at 232-236, which is still mega high, but is a drop, mw and doc cannot say if its the meds helping, but i am hopeful, and i reckon each little beat he drops is one less bit of stress on his lil heart so am pleased.
Saw different reg today who said that whoever told me on Sat i was being delivered was out of order and apologised, she agreed 34 weeks seems a good goal, she said if need be will be delivered sooner at Bristol but failing that 34 weeks is a good target, will be at Bristol and have been advised to ask to book a tour of the nicu to prepare ourselves and to ask about the steroids as they could be useful, or at least having info if nothing else sould help me understand.
If i am being 100% honest i am not coping well with all this, keep a brave face on for my son during the day and then cry most of the night, am getting about 2 hours ish sleep a night as just cannot restand switch off, and feel like i am always one step from tears, i hate this.
I keep telling myself that i should feel luck that my lilest man will be ok if born at 34 weeks but they said will be at least 3 days before we can touch him, 2/3 weeks till we can hold him and 6-8 weeks before he comes home which at the moment seems like an eternity and heartbreaking to have to leave him there, also i will be a section so 4-5 days in hospital and then they may be able to offer me a room to stay with him for a few days but after that i will have to come home, hubby cannot afford time off, and i will be unable to drive for 6 weeks so will be screwed for seeing him cept Weds and Suns hubby day off, so feeling very sorry for myself right now, and wishing that instead of facing all this i was looking at being overdue.
I am off to see the specialists and the fetal cardiologist tomorrow so will update when i get back or get Serina to update if anything major occurs while there.
Sorry for rambling on again but i just had to get it off my chest before i went mad, you must all be sick of me by now, but thanks for reading xxx
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as I am in Somerset too (Bridgwater).
