Hi sweetie
You know, your sister might be on to something about stress having an impact on fertility. If your job is stressful, is there anything you can do to make it less stressful? My job could be quite stressful, but my manager knew about my m/c and actually helped me to make some changes to my role to reduce the stress before I got my BFP. Always worth considering if this is possible. Saying that, if you're thinking you might not go back after bubba then maybe you're disinvesting already which could be the start of reducing stress!! I generally like my job and thought I'd be a lot happier about returning - but I really think I could happily be a SAHM. Sadly, we've looked closely at the finances and just can't afford it at the moment. Maybe in a few years, or if we had another one at some point... You never know!! That's reassuring to know about your relationship with your Mum. I think I have got a fear that Kia will feel abandoned and will struggle, but saying that Mr Leeze had her for 2 longish (2 hours or more) stretches over the weekend on his own and she was absolutely fine. So, hopefully she'll adjust ok to it all. And lots of friends have said to me it's actually good to get some time away from their LOs and having part-time work gives a bit of a balance. So, fingers crossed!!!
Great to hear that the tests showed nothing "too dodgy"! Sorry about the AMH levels, is there anything that can be done about that or is it something set in stone? Would you consider getting some eggs frozen, just in case? Bloody time, hey? How frustrating is that? Nature is so unkind, I think. For me, I didn't really feel ready to have children until about 35 and even then might have waited a bit longer if I hadn't been worried about my age. Saying that, I wouldn't have Kia now if we'd waited longer. So, you could try to see it as being an extra incentive to push you even closer to that BFP? I know I'd got to the point after a year of TTC and everyone around getting BFPs that I felt I would do everything I could to make it happen. Perhaps if you felt you had the luxury of lots of time you wouldn't be so focused on it, do you know what I mean? Totally understandable to be a bit panicky, but wait and see what the FS says on Weds (do you mean tomorrow). Let me know how it goes, I'm hoping for some optimistic news for you! Big hugs xxx (and hugs to Clanger and Soph if either of you are around - missing you both xxx)