Hi guys - thought I'd check in.
It's been 2 weeks now since my D&C procedure. I'm still spotting, and it's weird because sometimes it ALMOST stops and then it starts increasing again. But I guess this whole first cycle is going to be really weird. Just have to wait until my next AF before we can start ttc again, which if I'm lucky will bit in 2-3 weeks. But with my long cycles who knows. I'm temping again, and I'm not on Vitex or anything. Just a prenatal vitamin to prepare for when we are ttc again and hopefully get pregnant again. Plus it's good to get my vitamins
. I took a pregnancy test on Friday last week and there was still a very very faint line, but the one I took yesterday morning was completely stark white BFN. So that's awesome because my body is going back to normal. I guess some ladies still get a positive for a while, and often that means there was something left inside that would need another d&c. So looks like I'm all good. The kinda sucky think though is that I seemed to have developed some type of infection at my cervix because it got really itchy the last few days, and my back hurt a lot. After some convincing (they kept saying without a fever or smelly discharge I don't need antibiotics), I got some antibiotic gel to insert and after just 1 application it felt much better. The doctor said I may have reacted to some cleaner they used during my surgery/procedure. Did I tell you guys that it was like a full-on surgery with anesthesia and an IV and being rolled around in a hospital bed, and everything? The only other time in my life I'd been put to sleep for a procedure was to get my wisdom teeth out. So it was a little scary and felt like a big deal, even though once they actually started the procedure it took them less than 10 minutes. I'm glad I wasn't awake for it though. I'd be even more traumatized.
So anyway, I'm healing and emotionally getting a lot better. I still have my sad moments, and times when I want to tell everyone what happened because I feel so alone. And I look away when I see babies or kids in public, and I don't really want to see even my nieces and nephews at the moment. I know it's so common, but I haven't talked to anyone in real life who's gone through the same thing. My sister's good friend lost 2 and now has 2 adorable little boys, so I might talk to her. She lost one in a similar way that I did, but her other one she lost really far into the pregnancy so I feel bad having her relive any of that to comfort me. But my sister says she's totally open to talking about it, so I think I will. I'll also feel much better when I stop spotting and don't have to be reminded every time I use the bathroom! And when we start ttc again.
Today I'm meeting my friend who's 5 months pregnant. She was the one who was 2 months ahead of me, and we were so excited about going through this together. I wanted to get the meeting over with and I don't want her to feel guilty or not be able to be happy about her baby boy. She is the one who got pregnant on her first try though, so it's a little hard. She's pretty good about being understanding and saying comforting things though. But there's no way she understands fully. Fingers crossed I can be strong. I think it'll be fine though.
Anyway, thanks for reading. You ladies have supported me so much and I'm eager to join you again for ttc! I have a follow-up appointment with my doctor on Sept. 2 so depending on when AF shows, we should be back at it in September. Hope you're all doing well!
Aidensxmomma - FX you do ovulate soon! I'm glad it seems close and that would be awesome if you did so early.
. But now you're 7dpo, which is prime implantation time. FX you start getting some signs soon, or at least that you can distract yourself for a few more days. 
