I am so very glad that you posted this. My husband and I have been ttc since January, and we had a miscarraige in July. Church is a very important part of our lives, but it seems like each month gets harder and I get more depressed. My father in law is the pastor of the church, and I often sing on the platform, and it just was getting so hard to sing my heart out to Jesus because of this trial. I have cried and begged for Jesus to heal me, but I have not yet allowed myself to let go of my negativity. There are two pregnant women in church and i would make a b line for the door once I saw either of them come try to talk to me. My husband had to sit me down the other night after church because my attitude is really showing through, and these people don't deserve that. I don't understand why God does what He does, but I sometimes forget that if I just leave it there for Him to fix, I will be a living testimony of what God has brought me through. I am just so stubborn sometimes and try to work out my own problems. Your story has reminded me that I won't get anywhere with a bad attitude. God don't like ugly. lol