Losing my mind

[s_love]

I just did some research on my cyst n seems IVF is the only way.I am so sad n depressed right now.

Theres nothing they can do... surgery? They are ovarian cysts but why is IVF the only way?


Dude is it awful when that lady wrote she got her BFP that I wanted to reply with "Congrats you greedy bitch." Lol I mean I didnt write that and I never woud but it would make me feel better if I could.

 

[Chris_25]

Cool- I get ovarian cysts all the time I even had one removed once. I'm sure there is something they can do to remove it.

Love- that's totally insane! I can't even deal!

I just had a meltdown I take all my frustrations out on my mother and I got into a fight with her. I can't take this anymore why the fuck am I being tortured so much? What the fuck did I do so bad in life? Or maybe that's the problem I have to be bad and a damn crackhead

 

[s_love]

Cool- I get ovarian cysts all the time I even had one removed once. I'm sure there is something they can do to remove it.

Love- that's totally insane! I can't even deal!

I just had a meltdown I take all my frustrations out on my mother and I got into a fight with her. I can't take this anymore why the fuck am I being tortured so much? What the fuck did I do so bad in life? Or maybe that's the problem I have to be bad and a damn crackhead

Girl I've had that same thought. Like I'm a good person, and I can't get 1 simple thing... Maybe if I start fucking up ill get what I want.

I seriously think I got so mad I made myself sick last night. I feel absolutely awful this morning... Still angry. Also knowing I have to POAS tomorrow and its not my choice is fueling my fire.

Watching the niners and falcons... First off, Zac Brown Band is one of my favorite bands so them doing the national anthem made me happy and second my hubby came walking out if the bathroom while they were singing and he had to snap to attention. It's so hilarious seeing him stand at attention in our house... In his underwear lol.

 

[Chris_25]

Cool- I get ovarian cysts all the time I even had one removed once. I'm sure there is something they can do to remove it.

Love- that's totally insane! I can't even deal!

I just had a meltdown I take all my frustrations out on my mother and I got into a fight with her. I can't take this anymore why the fuck am I being tortured so much? What the fuck did I do so bad in life? Or maybe that's the problem I have to be bad and a damn crackhead

Girl I've had that same thought. Like I'm a good person, and I can't get 1 simple thing... Maybe if I start fucking up ill get what I want.

I seriously think I got so mad I made myself sick last night. I feel absolutely awful this morning... Still angry. Also knowing I have to POAS tomorrow and its not my choice is fueling my fire.

Watching the niners and falcons... First off, Zac Brown Band is one of my favorite bands so them doing the national anthem made me happy and second my hubby came walking out if the bathroom while they were singing and he had to snap to attention. It's so hilarious seeing him stand at attention in our house... In his underwear lol.

Thanks for making me laugh lol that's so funny.

Wait why do u have to test again tomorrow?

 

[s_love]

Doctor wants me to test tomorrow. Except I thought he just wanted me to POAS and call, I registered to his message and he wants me to go in and do a pregnancy test so they can have it on file before he starts my next Clomid round at a higher dosage. So I actually have to go to the lab at the medical center tomorrow...

 

[Conceive81]

Doctor wants me to test tomorrow. Except I thought he just wanted me to POAS and call, I registered to his message and he wants me to go in and do a pregnancy test so they can have it on file before he starts my next Clomid round at a higher dosage. So I actually have to go to the lab at the medical center tomorrow...

Hmm, I don't see that as a bad thing though. Glad that he wants to follow you closely.

 

[s_love]

But I know AF is around the corner, not sure why I hate to test when she will be here in a couple days. It's like he wants me to get disappointed, even though he made it clear when he called about my progesterone tests results that it wasn't likely I'd get pregnant this month. And it's not like they monitor me closely during my cycle... They just give me the Clomid and I'm on my own until I have to call and ask for more.

 

[Conceive81]

But I know AF is around the corner, not sure why I hate to test when she will be here in a couple days. It's like he wants me to get disappointed, even though he made it clear when he called about my progesterone tests results that it wasn't likely I'd get pregnant this month. And it's not like they monitor me closely during my cycle... They just give me the Clomid and I'm on my own until I have to call and ask for more.

I hear you, but did he give you a reason? Maybe they need it on file for insurance reasons in order to move you forward to IUI?

 

[Conceive81]

I had my first injection today. I was all geared up to go with hubby and then as I flipped the needle towards my belly I couldn't do it! I had total anxiety! Hubby did it and I didn't feel a thing. It's so odd to point a needle to yourself. He'll be coming home from work early all week to do it for me. Thank GOD.

 

[aknqtpie]

Conceive - It is hard, but I used to have to give myself shots.. I did it in the thigh though, so that was better...

Love - WHY DID THE NINERS WIN?????? Sooo mad. lol... Stupid Harbowl... Imagining anyone snapping to attention in their skivvys sounds hilarious.

Waiting to O.. hoping I do..

 

[s_love]

But I know AF is around the corner, not sure why I hate to test when she will be here in a couple days. It's like he wants me to get disappointed, even though he made it clear when he called about my progesterone tests results that it wasn't likely I'd get pregnant this month. And it's not like they monitor me closely during my cycle... They just give me the Clomid and I'm on my own until I have to call and ask for more.

I hear you, but did he give you a reason? Maybe they need it on file for insurance reasons in order to move you forward to IUI?

Conceive- I honestly don't know what the reasoning is except that within this office I've seen 4 different doctors and 3 residents working under them. I think they each have a plan and don't coordinate. Tomorrow when I call with my negative results I'm going to ask, because I'm tired of this run around shit.

I think I might have anxiety too about sticking myself. I remember sometimes my brother in law would let me give him his diabetes insulin shot, I thought it was so cool! Lol

Aknqtpie- I know! I was so disappointed! Hubby wasulling for niners and rubbed it in my face! Lol but I am super excited the ravens stomped the pats! Guess I'm going for the ravens this Super Bowl! Lol I thought underpants standing at attention was awesome too. I tried to get a pic but he got mad lol.


So I threw my Xbox controller because I got pissed and broke it I'm an idiot lol. Also hubby and I are having movie night. We went to Redbox and we always pick out awful scary movies. So hubby went by himself and picked a movie called "The Devils Angel"... Never heard of it, didn't read the description. First scene is an infertility specialist talking about getting women pregnant and then her having a romantic night and peeing on a stick... What the hell are the odds of that!? It's like the universe saying "nope, you can't escape and stop thinking about it!"

 

[aknqtpie]

That sounds like some horrible horror movie.

Just watched this weeks Modern Family and they had their baby... I'm like I want a baby!!!!

 

[s_love]

That sounds like some horrible horror movie.

Just watched this weeks Modern Family and they had their baby... I'm like I want a baby!!!!

Did they!? I haven't watched the past few. Awww not fair, I want one!!

Yeah this movie, they are doing a cloning study and the doctor lady can't get pregnant so she stole one of the cloned embryos and apparently did an IVF procedure on herself in the bathroom and something went wrong with all the other fetuses/embryos or the babies didn't live after birth except hers... And then its flash forward 7 years its like a post apocalyptic world and her on has magic powers... It's absolutely awful. We couldn't even finish it.

 

[aknqtpie]

Did she give birth to the antichrist?? I hate horror movies... But especially hate horrible ones..

 

[s_love]

Did she give birth to the antichrist?? I hate horror movies... But especially hate horrible ones..

Oh we'll apparently they cloned Jesus.... She gave birth to another baby Jesus. I love horror movies, my favorite genre, lol and I don't care how horrible or cheesy it is I will give it a try. But really this one was awful. Just awful.

 

[Coolstar]

Cool- I get ovarian cysts all the time I even had one removed once. I'm sure there is something they can do to remove it.

Love- that's totally insane! I can't even deal!

I just had a meltdown I take all my frustrations out on my mother and I got into a fight with her. I can't take this anymore why the fuck am I being tortured so much? What the fuck did I do so bad in life? Or maybe that's the problem I have to be bad and a damn crackhead

After I get my blood report I need to go for a follow up.I did some research and many ladies wrote they had to do IVF after having endocyst.I m praying that I don't need IVF.What kind of cyst do u have? I exactly know what u r going through.I feel sad n miserable most of the time.why can't our life be little easier

 

[Coolstar]

I just did some research on my cyst n seems IVF is the only way.I am so sad n depressed right now.

Theres nothing they can do... surgery? They are ovarian cysts but why is IVF the only way?


Dude is it awful when that lady wrote she got her BFP that I wanted to reply with "Congrats you greedy bitch." Lol I mean I didnt write that and I never woud but it would make me feel better if I could.

I read that if the cyst is big then they have to remove the ovaries.I just pray that I don't have to remove my left ovary.

 

[s_love]

Cool- FXed for you that it doesn't come to that. How big is your cyst?

Well ladies I tested this morning, and guess what..... Yup, bfn as always. Surprise mother fucking surprise. Gotta call my doctor. I'll let y'all know what he says.

 

[aknqtpie]

Hopefully they will let you do iui this cycle.

 

[s_love]

Apparently the office is closed. I've been calling every 10 minutes for the past 2 hours. I fucking hate ppl.

On a happier note, going to the fun range with hubby.