Its perfectly normal! I think we all go through it, but no one likes to admit that they are angry at someone elses happiness. I know it makes me feel like Im a horrible person, but since Ive been on these boards, Ive learned so many women are the same way. Sometimes youre just tired of being sad and its so much easier to exchange it for anger. Anger, at least for me, doesnt make me feel helpless- like when Im sad. But honestly, this ttc has been harder for each and every one of us than we thought it would be when we decided to start trying. Its natural so dont feel bad.
And they are bitches! Who just calls to say "Oh my daughters pregnant, is yours?" Punch some pillows or scream!
This morning I almost went off on a girl on fb... every single one of her status updates since she found out she was pregnant is something like "being a pregnant women..." "well we are pregnant and...." pregnant, pregnant, pregnant! Its gotten even worse since she found out it was a girl and they gave her a name, Danielle. Now its oh Danielle this and Dani that.... yeah I just wanted to be like "I realize youre pregnant and happy, but this pregnancy doesnt define you... youve completely lost yourself and no one cares if Danielle wants a banana!!!" Lol see Im getting all worked up and angry too!
I would seriously do anything short of selling my soul to get a bfp this month and have a healthy pregnancy and baby... between the psychic and all my little gambling-superstitous things, Ive got my hopes way up for this month. I know I shouldnt but I cant help it. And seeing the way my husband reacted when he thought we had a positive has completely renewed me. Its not just about me, like suddenly I realized just how bad he wants this too and I want nothing more than to it to him.
Wowza... that went much longer than I intended/expected it to. Sorry!!