s_love, I'm with you. I'll drive myself crazy if it doesn't happen soon. I have been dying to smell that baby smell...and it's really starting to tick me off! I go through periods of being pissed off, then sad, then optimistic, then pissed, then sad. I hate it. Good on you for buying those ornaments, I know it's hard.
I thought I was into the holidays, because I've been listening to my Christmas music, but I just haven't had the heart to put up the tree. I'm so disappointed these days, in so many different things, it just doesn't seem fair. Why can't this just happen? If I ovulate, his sperm is fine, why isn't this happening? I'm sooo confused.
As far as weight goes, I don't know if it really plays a huge factor, honestly. I got pregnant over 10 years ago when I was not being very kind to my body. First time ever with unprotected sex and preggers. I was always dieting then and making sure I didn't gain a pound.
Now, I cut out coffee, eat very healthy, get in a good walk every day, don't smoke, barely drink and nothing. Not fair. I thought I was fine until today and I'm SO pissed all of a sudden, like I could punch a wall in. Everyone asked me when we are going to start trying on Thursday night and I just said that we would start in January, since that's when we are trying the IUI...it broke my heart. I also hate lying.
Why am I so damn hormonal today. It's the last day of AF, I shouldn't be so moody.
hopefully your FS hears you out and gives you what you want. Sometimes I feel like we have to be pushy and flat out tell them what we want otherwise we dont get it. They see so many people everyday I feel like we get lost in a crowd, and they will never know how bad we want this so they start us off slow and expect us to wait.
