Losing my mind

[Chris_25]

Those are all so true I like that thanks for sharing.
Im searching for Number 4

 

[aknqtpie]

I am in search of them all.. Number 5 is definitely one I need to work on.

Having a depressed day today. It is all those stupid commercials with cute little kids... I saw Breaking Dawn over the weekend.. and that made it worse... I want a little Renesme.. the little girl is so cute!

 

[sadangel777]

chris, good luck with the fs. love is right, you have to be very assertive, almost agressive, with them.

love, i hear u! my skin is all wonky too, but it always has been.

sold my fertility monitor today, and now im sad. havent used it since i saw the new fs and it obviously never got me my bfp, but now i feel like im giving up on my dream, even though i havent.

 

[s_love]

Awwww angel I'm sorry. Why'd you sell it?

I know that even though you aren't giving up the feeling that you are is awful. Just remember it's just a break, a much needed break, and you'll be back at it in no time. I wish I could help make the feeling go away.


I feel helpless today. I hate being at the mercy of other people. I'm scared that after my HSG on Thursday that they still won't give me the Clomid or other medicine to help me OV. I don't want December to be a bust too! I didn't OV in October and this whole month has been a waste because I don't have meds... That's 2 wasted months! It just makes me sick. I really hope everything goes well.

Which brings me to my next question... For the ladies who have done the HSG, how long did the procedure take? And also, how quickly do you get results? Do they explain everything right there or does a doctor call you later to discuss it?my husband asked for a day of leave so he could take me, even tho I told him he didnt have to. But he sd he wants me to take the Valium they provided so I won't be anxious. Did everyone get Valium and antibiotics?

 

[Conceive81]

Thanks, I feel numb I look like a zombie I'm sick to my stomach I'm torturing my body I'm falling apart! I'm going to the FS tomorrow even though he wanted me to do 3 cycles of the same medication first before seeing him but fuck that I'm going tomorrow and I want stronger shit.

I hear you. Are you only doing the oral meds or injectables? What about IUI?

Yes, only doing a low dose of oral meds and ovidrel to time ovulation. I did iui twice so far

Ah yes, sorry, should have read your siggy. After speaking with my RE, she seemed adamant about injectibles vs. oral meds. I'm with everyone else, push, push, push! Stand up for your right to be a mama!

 

[Conceive81]

Awwww angel I'm sorry. Why'd you sell it?

I know that even though you aren't giving up the feeling that you are is awful. Just remember it's just a break, a much needed break, and you'll be back at it in no time. I wish I could help make the feeling go away.


I feel helpless today. I hate being at the mercy of other people. I'm scared that after my HSG on Thursday that they still won't give me the Clomid or other medicine to help me OV. I don't want December to be a bust too! I didn't OV in October and this whole month has been a waste because I don't have meds... That's 2 wasted months! It just makes me sick. I really hope everything goes well.

Which brings me to my next question... For the ladies who have done the HSG, how long did the procedure take? And also, how quickly do you get results? Do they explain everything right there or does a doctor call you later to discuss it?my husband asked for a day of leave so he could take me, even tho I told him he didnt have to. But he sd he wants me to take the Valium they provided so I won't be anxious. Did everyone get Valium and antibiotics?

Hi Love, I know how you feel. Hopefully I can help with the HSG stuff. I had mine done a little over 2 months ago. The procedure lasted about 15 minutes. They walk you through the whole process. I only took tylenol and antibiotics. I didn't take the vicodin they had prescribed because I didn't want more drugs (I had been on back meds for months and it did a number on my liver). Anyway, it's not that it's painful but it's just like bad menstrual cramps and being around someone with your legs wide open during a bad menstrual cramp is just uncomfortable. It was over before I knew it and I got the results a few days later (I called though, to ask if they were in, the sheet I had told me that I had to wait a week or two).

Also, regarding your other posts, I had to be really pushy and borderline bitchy with my last ob gyn for clomid alone. I spent a lot of time finding my current specialist, and I really like her staff. I'm paying a pretty penny for everything as of January, since it isn't covered, but it's worth it for my comfort.

I wish you the best of luck, I know you have to jump through hoops because of the military system, but you will get there.

Oh and if you have valium, I would take it. It will just make the whole thing more bearable. If you think you can handle it without it, go for it. I was ok with just the tylenol.

 

[Conceive81]

chris, good luck with the fs. love is right, you have to be very assertive, almost agressive, with them.

love, i hear u! my skin is all wonky too, but it always has been.

sold my fertility monitor today, and now im sad. havent used it since i saw the new fs and it obviously never got me my bfp, but now i feel like im giving up on my dream, even though i havent.

It's only a break, but I'm sorry to see that you are sad...don't ever give up on your dream, it will happen.

 

[Chris_25]

Awwww angel I'm sorry. Why'd you sell it?

I know that even though you aren't giving up the feeling that you are is awful. Just remember it's just a break, a much needed break, and you'll be back at it in no time. I wish I could help make the feeling go away.


I feel helpless today. I hate being at the mercy of other people. I'm scared that after my HSG on Thursday that they still won't give me the Clomid or other medicine to help me OV. I don't want December to be a bust too! I didn't OV in October and this whole month has been a waste because I don't have meds... That's 2 wasted months! It just makes me sick. I really hope everything goes well.

Which brings me to my next question... For the ladies who have done the HSG, how long did the procedure take? And also, how quickly do you get results? Do they explain everything right there or does a doctor call you later to discuss it?my husband asked for a day of leave so he could take me, even tho I told him he didnt have to. But he sd he wants me to take the Valium they provided so I won't be anxious. Did everyone get Valium and antibiotics?

It wasn't as bad as everyone made it out to be which is why I was so petrified. Don't get me wrong it def wasn't pleasant and the part tht hurt the most was when they blow up the uterus I screamed for a second with that and my friend heard me from outside lol then the pain goes right away I took 3 Motrin before going in and I also took a klonopin to calm my nerves. The whole thing took about less than 5 minutes and the doctor told me everything was clear right there.

 

[Chris_25]

Thanks, I feel numb I look like a zombie I'm sick to my stomach I'm torturing my body I'm falling apart! I'm going to the FS tomorrow even though he wanted me to do 3 cycles of the same medication first before seeing him but fuck that I'm going tomorrow and I want stronger shit.

I hear you. Are you only doing the oral meds or injectables? What about IUI?

Yes, only doing a low dose of oral meds and ovidrel to time ovulation. I did iui twice so far

Ah yes, sorry, should have read your siggy. After speaking with my RE, she seemed adamant about injectibles vs. oral meds. I'm with everyone else, push, push, push! Stand up for your right to be a mama!

I'm so nervous to go today and see what he says! I have a few questions for him and hope I get to ask them all. Something is wrong I just know it plus I get a severe migraine during ovulation and a severe migraine the day before my period. That is how I know I'm out before gettig my period.

 

[Chris_25]

chris, good luck with the fs. love is right, you have to be very assertive, almost agressive, with them.

love, i hear u! my skin is all wonky too, but it always has been.

sold my fertility monitor today, and now im sad. havent used it since i saw the new fs and it obviously never got me my bfp, but now i feel like im giving up on my dream, even though i havent.

Thanks angel and as for you this break will be a good thing and I give u a lot of credit to have that strength! I need a break too

 

[Coolstar]

chris, good luck with the fs. love is right, you have to be very assertive, almost agressive, with them.

love, i hear u! my skin is all wonky too, but it always has been.

sold my fertility monitor today, and now im sad. havent used it since i saw the new fs and it obviously never got me my bfp, but now i feel like im giving up on my dream, even though i havent.

Aawww angel, just don't lose hope.I was chatting with one of bnb ladies, even she is suffering from very low progesterone.She said she tried for 3.5yrs before conceiving her first and now she is trying for her second.And she told me that when you hold the baby you feel ttc for so long and the pain was so worth.We are all in the same boat and here to help each other out when one is feeling low.Just relax your break!!I would be taking a break from Jan maybe 2 or 3 months (I know that's a long time but i guess i need it).

 

[Coolstar]

aknqtpie:I like 5 and 6.Thanks for sharing with us
Chris and love:All the best for your appointment with FS and HSG.Keep us posted .

 

[sadangel777]

Thanks, everyone. I think the break will help.

Love, my HSG only lasted a couple of minutes, and they gave me antibiotics but nothing for pain. I'd take the valium because it will help calm you down! They gave me the results right there; the doc said everything looked good, and I asked him if there were any blockages, and he said no. So don't be afraid to ask questions! They may not offer up any info unless you do.

 

[s_love]

Thank you for all the info ladies! I feel better knowing what I'm walking into. I really hope they give me the results right there and then the FS gives me something right away to get me OVing.

Well I woke up this morning and was sitting on the couch watching tv when I was motivated to work out. So I did and I just finished! I busted out an older set (from 3 years ago) of workout DVDs and did the first session. I lost about 30 lbs the last time I used them regularly (5 times a week) and watched what I ate. So I know they work if I'm dedicated to them. And 30 ls is pretty much exactly what I want to lose now, so I'm going for it. They aren't anything fancy like P90x, Insanity or any of those, but they are tried and true. They are called Shape Bikini Body Camp (like Shape Magazine). You can find them on eBay and Amazon for like $9. I highly suggest them. They do cardio, light weights and use the workout bands. Lol sorry for rambling about working out, Im just motivated and still pumped from my workout. It feels good to sweat!

 

[aknqtpie]

I always feel so much better after I workout.. maybe I should do that lol

 

[Chris_25]

Working out always helps but to er my ass to do it is the issue lol

Ok so I went to the FS today and he basically gave me a choice if I want to have a laporoscopy but he doubts they will find anything. He also mentioned ivf but he said he can tell I'm not ready for that just yet. Which I pretty much am not but I told him I want injectables and he didn't really want to give me them he said there's a high chance of multiples especially because I have good egg reserve and high AMH. So he agreed and said he will give me the gonal f but a very low dose. I don't care give me 10 eggs at this point! So now I've been on the phone with the insurance company because its not covered by pharmacy but it's under medical and the doctors office has to send a form for authorization and hopefully will be covered! I almost fell on the floor when the pharmacist told me its $3500 for 4 injections! Anyway so I would use that along with ovidrel and he gave me a script for progesterone suppositories and I'm not sure why but I noticed it after I left. I have to start the injections by Thursday and I'm praying they ship me the medication on time!

Angel- how did you get the gonal?

 

[s_love]

Holy shit balls! $3500!? I hope it gets taken care of! I'm glad things went well for you. So what do you think about having multiples? Honestly I'd be stoked to have twins.

 

[aknqtpie]

You could be the next octomom! j/k! I am glad that the FS is doing what you want.. and I hope you get your BFP!!

AFM - I haven't bled at all today!! Yay!! I had a little brownish tinged CM.. but otherwise.. so far so good! I had more blood taken, so I will know my exact numbers tomorrow. I POAS, and it was an extremely faint line... and since it was a cheapy with blue dye.. it could very well of been an evap line. Hopefully I can give you all the BFPs and I can take a BFN from one of you!!

Honestly, as long as my HCG is around 5ish... and I am not bleeding (going to give myself another 2 days before doing anything).. I am going to try right away!

I think 2013 is our year

 

[Chris_25]

Holy shit balls! $3500!? I hope it gets taken care of! I'm glad things went well for you. So what do you think about having multiples? Honestly I'd be stoked to have twins.

I almost had heart failure in cvs when they told me the price lol
I would love twins lol

 

[Chris_25]

You could be the next octomom! j/k! I am glad that the FS is doing what you want.. and I hope you get your BFP!!

AFM - I haven't bled at all today!! Yay!! I had a little brownish tinged CM.. but otherwise.. so far so good! I had more blood taken, so I will know my exact numbers tomorrow. I POAS, and it was an extremely faint line... and since it was a cheapy with blue dye.. it could very well of been an evap line. Hopefully I can give you all the BFPs and I can take a BFN from one of you!!

Honestly, as long as my HCG is around 5ish... and I am not bleeding (going to give myself another 2 days before doing anything).. I am going to try right away!

I think 2013 is our year

Lolol that's what the doctor said to me you don't want to be on tv lol
I really hope it's stopped now and u can go move on! BFN coming your way following it with a bfp!