LTTTC-after loss-TWW...

[butterflywolf]

I think I'm starting to get a cold -_- Sore throat isn't bad today at least. Claire seems a lot better too so that's a plus.

So just an FYI this baby LOVES to kick my bladder X_X That is the only spot (for the most part) that I feel this kid. My gosh...and some of them hurt! Claire was never like this.

Mowat, how exciting for a new home!

 

[butterflywolf]

Gah sorry I haven't been on really. Been sick here. Sore throats started Weds (Mike, myself, and Claire). Then sore throats where all gone by Friday. I started to get a cold mid-Friday. Mike has a very mild cold started Sat. Claire has managed to miss the cold so far. (How she has is beyond me!) Then I got a stomach bug late Saturday night. Sudden throw up over my side of the bed -_-

Then the next morning still couldn't eat but starving. Tried to eat a little threw that up and sorry if TMI but also had diarrhea and as I'm throwing up I knew I had to figure out what I wanted to do...what part wanted to make it to the toilet -_- So that was fun.

Started to feel better around 6 last night got a small meal in me. Otherwise was living off of water and ice pops. This morning I feel a lot better but I know I'm still dehydrated so need to try to keep drinking water (which is hard for me mainly for the fact Claire keeps taking my water bottle and hiding it on me).

I weighed myself this morning and I lost about 2 to 3 lbs -_- Thankfully I have a lot of fat reserves. I'm under what I started with this pregnancy at the moment. But what can you do when you can't eat.

Anyway Scan is on Friday woot! This time on Friday I'll be waiting to be called in.

How is everyone doing?

 

[Sis4Us]

I'm waiting to O I think strange indeed but I think thats the case ... Either that or still waiting for AF!!!
My temp is dropping like it O so idk really I'm still lost as I have been for months!!
We wil get in some BD just incase!!

Can't wait to hear about Friday and I hope u feel better!!

 

[butterflywolf]

I'm waiting to O I think strange indeed but I think thats the case ... Either that or still waiting for AF!!!
My temp is dropping like it O so idk really I'm still lost as I have been for months!!
We wil get in some BD just incase!!

Can't wait to hear about Friday and I hope u feel better!!

Hopefully you'll be O'ing real soon then! And doesn't hurt to get in the BD. Can only help XD I hope you are no longer lost soon though. I'd go nuts if I was in your shoes.

I'm feeling better today actually have some energy even. At least for now. And able to eat. I never knew how much I'd miss eating lol

 

[barbikins]

Gah sorry I haven't been on really. Been sick here. Sore throats started Weds (Mike, myself, and Claire). Then sore throats where all gone by Friday. I started to get a cold mid-Friday. Mike has a very mild cold started Sat. Claire has managed to miss the cold so far. (How she has is beyond me!) Then I got a stomach bug late Saturday night. Sudden throw up over my side of the bed -_-

Then the next morning still couldn't eat but starving. Tried to eat a little threw that up and sorry if TMI but also had diarrhea and as I'm throwing up I knew I had to figure out what I wanted to do...what part wanted to make it to the toilet -_- So that was fun.

Started to feel better around 6 last night got a small meal in me. Otherwise was living off of water and ice pops. This morning I feel a lot better but I know I'm still dehydrated so need to try to keep drinking water (which is hard for me mainly for the fact Claire keeps taking my water bottle and hiding it on me).

I weighed myself this morning and I lost about 2 to 3 lbs -_- Thankfully I have a lot of fat reserves. I'm under what I started with this pregnancy at the moment. But what can you do when you can't eat.

Anyway Scan is on Friday woot! This time on Friday I'll be waiting to be called in.

How is everyone doing?

OMG that sounds horrible I'm sorry you were so sick. That's just awful feeling. I'm glad you're better but yuck eh?

You're almost half way through your pregnancy!!!!

 

[mowat]

Oh my Butterfly, that sounds awful! I'm nauseous again almost every day, but I just can't seem to throw up. Guess that's a good thing?

Hope your temps explain what's going on with your body in the next couple of days Sis. I remember living in that unknown zone for months---it gets a little exhausting after awhile.

WEll, we're moved! Started on Friday and kept at it all weekend. Movers came for the big stuff today. Can barely move I'm so sore.

 

[Sis4Us]

Yay for a New Place!!! Now u can start on the Nursey u just have to find out gender to paint !!

 

[butterflywolf]

Yep almost half way woot! 2 days 23 hours until scan!

I'm feeling better besides a cold now. Claire still has soft stool but is better stool than yesterday. So that's good.

I got my new laptop...it'll be a love / hate relationship for awhile. I hate when I'm forced to change. (I'm kind of 'old school' when it comes to laptops). So having a touch screen and windows 8.1 is going to take sometime for me to learn to fully love.

Awesome on new house! And take today easy, mowat!

 

[Sis4Us]

Well I made my appointment for the New FS it's 1/22!! I was suppose to go 12/10 but was pregnant so I had to reschedule! I was afraid DH wouldnt want to go after another loss but he told me to make it so that made me smile!!

This Dr supposedly deals w Recurrent Loss so hopefully she will have a good game plan!!

I'm more determined than ever!!

 

[butterflywolf]

Sis that is GREAT and SO exciting!!! So happy for you! I hope this doctor will be able to help you and you'll have another little baby in your arms in no time!


Okay...sorry if this is a rant now but I think it has something to do with my scan coming up and I'm getting anxious just starting to. Worrying if everything will be all right with baby. Worrying if baby is measuring where he/she needs to. Worrying if it's another girl will I get disappointed again. So much starting to worry and it's only going to get worse the next 2 days. (today/tomorrow). No matter how much I try to just breathe and try to let things run it's course I can't. I'm so worried. And I've been doing a lot of thinking already today what if it isn't a boy. I want our little boy so bad and I thought I didn't want it this bad but the itch for a boy is back and I hate it. Which makes me feel bad about it and then I feel worse for feeling bad and it sucks!

 

[Sis4Us]

I was the same way w my 1st and 2nd BFP but then after losing them I felt so Guilty like they thought I didn't want them if it was a BOY now I just want a Baby yes I will be a Lil disappointed at first cuz I want a girl so Badly but I want a baby even More!!

Everything happens for a reason if it's a girl Her and Claire will be BFFS just think of both outcomes and 2 isn't too many u r young u can go for 3!!

When u us the Doppler what side do u hear the beat??!

 

[butterflywolf]

That's how I thought I would be with all of our losses as well but I'm not and it makes me feel so bad X_X No matter what I'm going to love this baby as much as I love Claire, I know that.

And it's hard to say if we have a girl if girl and Claire will get along XD I have seen so many different families. It goes down to who they are kind of thing. I have one friend who can't really stand her sister much and then I have another friend who loves her sister. Then there's me who loves my brother because he's my brother and still wishes him the best but that's it. And then there's a friend who loves her brother. So I'm not worried if they will be friends or not XD

And two is all we want. I use to think 3 but after having Claire and going through such a terrible hemorrhage where it was close to have my uterus taken out and life or death nearing I can't put my own selfish wants to have more than two kids now. Claire needs me and I already am trying not to think so much about labor and if it's going to be like that again. Not being able to hold Claire for almost two weeks because I was just too weak I can't. In life I know I was never going to be satisfied with only one so we are going for one more but that's it. It's better for me to be here than risk my life.

And the strongest heartbeat is heard on the left. I can hear the heartbeat in three spots XD One I know is the placenta, one the chest, and not sure the other assuming it's bouncing off of something.

That's another thing I can't wait for is to find out where the placenta is cause my guess is on the bottom and I'm praying so badly it isn't and I'm wrong cause I am terrified that it might be over cervix and if it is I'm terrified that I'll need a C-section so yea...

Guess all in all we can say I'm a worry wart when it comes to being pregnant. XD Not good for my mental health I'm sure. Most days are fine UNTIL I start thinking about everything. ^^;; I never worried this much with Claire, with her it was worry if she'll be healthy but the typical worries I think of pregnancy. Not all this other crap that has developed after having her.

wow didn't mean to type this much I'm sorry ^^;;

 

[Sis4Us]

No sorry needed u r worried and emotional right now and that is understandable!!

All u can do is take it one day at a time w DS1 the placenta was way down I'm pretty sure that why he came so early!!
But he's a healthy almost 18 yr old now about to graduate this year!!

Like I said one day at a time!!!

 

[Sis4Us]

GL W the scan Tomorrow !!!

 

[butterflywolf]

15 hours roughly XD We'll be busy for a few though since we have to move some furniture around and clean. New furniture comes tomorrow afternoon.

And I'm feeling 'better' for now. Not too concerned about scan but we shall see when I"m in that waiting room XD

 

[butterflywolf]

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baby measuring a week ahead still due June 11th! All went well!

 

[Sis4Us]

Yay so happy for U!!!

 

[mowat]

Amazing!

 

[butterflywolf]

Thanks ladies ^^ It's weird being this excited. I feel bad that I wasn't this excited last time though but at the same time I can't help but be excited XD It's finally sinking in that it's a boy XD

I saw the boy part briefly he moved so when she got it back I saw it again double and tripled checked that it was a penis and no three lines and then I quickly go, that's the penis right!? She chuckled and said yep. She was the best scanner ever. I loved her and she loves doing 3d so she kept sneaking pics of that lol

So happy he's doing well ^^

 

[Sis4Us]

So glad u can Relax and Enjoy now Momma!!