LTTTC-after loss-TWW...

[nimbec]

Blimey Mowat you are 12 weeks!!!!!!! second tri whoop whoop where did that time go?!!!

 

[mowat]

I don't know where the time went---it has felt incredibly slow and fast all at the same time. Starting to relax a little, but I can't really relax until after my nuchal scan on Wednesday. Feeling movement most days now (well, I'm pretty sure it's movement) so that's nice. Still getting occasional nausea/lack of appetite.

We had the same debate Nimbec. I just decided it was worth it. Can you picture your life in five years if you don't do go ahead with IVF? I figured I had to try everything or I would just be angry in five years. The debt is a little scary, but it doesn't make me miserable like not having tried would.

 

[butterflywolf]

I'm trying to figure out what to say to you nimbec. I know I can't say I've been there but I would like to think I can get the point of view of it. It isn't an easy road and it will cause stress on some situations. I agree with what mowat said. In five years from now if you didn't go through it how would you feel? Best thing that I know about in at least my relationship with my husband is communication. No matter what you're feeling talk it over with your DH. I'm sure he has a lot of emotions that may just be quite similar to yours. *hugs* I really wish I knew more of what to say. I really do. Sorry I wasn't much help.


Anyway 15 DPO today and took a Clearblue Digital 2-3 weeks. So that's awesome. According to my calculations I'm 4 weeks 1 day. I'm actually finding myself looking forward to Tuesday's blood draw because I just know it'll be up high enough.

 

[nimbec]

Thanks ladies I know in my heart I want to try so the next few days will be a boy looking at how to finace it all. I'm also frustrated that it takes so long and the Xmas break screws it up for me grrrrr jan is 4 months away 4 whole months!! I will ask again if there is anyway around doing it sooner but I think it depends how quick af arrives!

Great news butterfly so nice to hear positive news for you fx for next weeks draw although I'm sure you won't need it! Yay on digi 2-3 great numbers!!

Hi everyone else hope you are all ok!

Am I the only non preggy lady now?! Hope you don't mind me still being here? X

 

[wannabemummyb]

Thanks ladies I know in my heart I want to try so the next few days will be a boy looking at how to finace it all. I'm also frustrated that it takes so long and the Xmas break screws it up for me grrrrr jan is 4 months away 4 whole months!! I will ask again if there is anyway around doing it sooner but I think it depends how quick af arrives!

Great news butterfly so nice to hear positive news for you fx for next weeks draw although I'm sure you won't need it! Yay on digi 2-3 great numbers!!

Hi everyone else hope you are all ok!

Am I the only non preggy lady now?! Hope you don't mind me still being here? X

I'm still here but lurking.

Great news butterfly.

Bec, i think you have to go for it. Would you regret it if you didn't? X

 

[barbikins]

Hey Butterfly - great to hear your numbers more than doubled WEE!
Fingers crossed it all works out this time around!

Becky, I agree with the other ladies - live with no regrets. Do what feel's right.
I was extremely determined for it to work out for us. And we did what we were capable financially too - knowing full well, we had limitations.

Wow, Mowat - well on your way. I totally understand the fast & slow thing. For me it was very slow at first because I wanted to be sure pregnancy would be sustain itself. And then it flew for a bit & now it's slowed down again. Friends of mine feel it's fast but when you have worries, discomforts, it cam seem like a LOT longer.

Erin, incredible - you're on the home stretch!

 

[butterflywolf]

In about 90 mins I get to go in for my next blood work. And then I wait...thankfully my mom, DD, and I are going to go to the Zoo today. So that should keep my mind busy this morning.

 

[barbikins]

What's your blood work result?!?!?!

 

[butterflywolf]

Finally got my results. Took longer cause my doctor still hasn't seen my results. He's been in surgery all afternoon. My nurse called though and they are 607 HCG at 18 DPO. She isn't sure if he'll want to do one more blood draw or just wait for a scan probably on the 24th.

 

[nimbec]

Great news Hun xx

 

[mowat]

Great news!

 

[wannabemummyb]

Great news congrats 😀

 

[butterflywolf]

First scan will be Oct 21st at 9am. By my dates I'm 6 weeks 4 days at that time and by LMP I would be 7 weeks 4 days. So hopefully at that time I will be able to see the heartbeat.

 

[barbikins]

That is so wonderful that things are progressing. Good on ya!

Well things on my end are OK but took for a stressful turn today. Stressful because of my history of premature delivery. My cervical measurement today was around 2cm (down from close to 4cm two weeks ago). It doesn't fall in the "norm" from what I see online but my doctor said that for my gestation it's normal however, because of my history - I have to go back again this Friday for another measurement. My stomach's just in knots. I'm scared of going into another situation where I deliver early. I just cannot, don't want to have another premature baby. My heart could not handle it.
I'm trying very hard to fixate on "normal" but I can't. It's a big drop in length. And of course, google is of no help because it seem contradictory to what my doctor said. I did read lots of woman who had thinner cervix than me & made to term but still - I just want to be more than normal. Like every other appointment where every thing looks 'great'.
My husband got to come with me finally. He hasn't been since I was around 13 weeks pregnant. And it was great fun to see the u/s but how awful that now he feels stressed about my situation. All in all, not an overall positive experience you know?
Ugh. I feel sick. I can't wait for Friday to turn up. I am hoping things don't change or maybe they improve. Fingers crossed so hard!

 

[butterflywolf]

One day at a time. It sucks and I am praying for the best for you Barb. Is your doctor going to put you on bed rest at all? Don't know if that would help but just wondering I guess.

 

[barbikins]

No bed rest or anything. She called it "normal" but b/c it did shorten, and my history of going into premature labor she's being cautious & bringing me in again Friday for a measurement. She just said to modify my activity a bit more and that's all.

 

[nimbec]

Oh Barbs i have everything crossed for you, hopefully like they say all will be ok and its better they are over cautious - also i guess they maybe where not aware last time until too late so now even if it is shortening they can do everything possible to help I'm sure you read all the time on google about premature labours and cervix length but just remember most people only post with bad news!! not normal news! ((((((hugs))))))

 

[barbikins]

Thanks Nimbec. Google is the enemy for sure.
But I read lots of good stuff too of women making it to term on modified bed rest.
I'll just have to hang on & hope Friday is good news OR better news. I don't know. It's just not sitting well with me. I really don't want a preemie.

 

[mowat]

Everything crossed for you Barb! Do they do a cerclage this late? Really hoping you don't need anything and you look fine on Friday.

 

[mowat]

Had a crazy day of rushing around to my appointments. Scan was first and everything was great! The tech was really nice and described everything she saw. Told me right away when things were normal. Even got some fabulous photos which I wasn't expecting. Then had to rush off to my doctor's appointment. Oh my goodness I want her to be my new best friend---she was so fun! She agreed with all of my concerns (cervical length, placenta accreta) and wrote a letter to my doctor's at home. She recommended monthly transvaginal u/s after 20 weeks. Is that what you're getting Barb?

Saw a couple of newborn twins on my way out of my appointment---nearly freaked out! Holy cow I might actually have twins this spring!