I don't think I ever let myself believe that it would be ok, but maybe just that I felt like I had a better chance this time cos I had soooo many symptoms. I was still a wreck, and started crying when I sat on the bed in the scan room and told the sonography why, which was actually a good thing as it meant as soon as she put the probe on me she said 'I can see baby, baby looks fine', so I didn't have to wait!
Found out where they do gender scanning at 16 weeks, it's where I went for my first ever scan with first pregnancy.....to book or not to book? I'm not gonna totally trust it until after sex is confirmed at 20 week. My mum was a little disappointed when I said we were gonna find out the sex, but then we said oh that's alright we won't tell you then, and she was like no I need to buy stuff! Haha, she's excited bless her.