Fletch I they can stay pos for up to 3 days in a row hun!!! Get bding hun!!!
Afm this def won't be ny month oh and I just had a blazing row,when we are away he wants his brother to sleep in our house and iv said no because I'm cleaning before we go and his brother will leave the house in a mess,eat all the food,leave the lights on,leave doors unlocked,sleep in our bed and he doesn't even was regularly so now im a bitch for saying no,I can't even be bothered to make up with him right now so no bding for us!!!!
Awwww shellie sorry your having a bad day hun xxxx
Sorry I didn't post anything yesterday. I was upset and wasn't in a good mood. Actually I'm still not in a good mood now, but I figure you all might help cheer me up. I haven't read back but I will try to once I don't feel like crying anymore.
So I wasn't supposed to do a preg test until today as it being 12 DPO for me and that's the length of my LP. But when I was at work yesterday they needed a volunteer who wouldnt mind having some blood drawn since they needed to make sure that samples that travel in the pneumatic air tube system were giving the same results as if the samples were simply walked to the lab and dropped off. I said sure, and they took my blood. After they were done with my blood i decided hell I'm at work, have blood, I can do a preg test on my blood. Surprise, surprise, BFN So upset. Didn't help that later on OH was pissed off at me for having forgotten the step stool in the kitchen (I'm 5'2'' I always need it!) and he kicked it and hurt his toe, but somehow he thinks because I'm a forgetful person it means I don't care about him or give a sh*t. As if I would try to do those things on purpose to hurt him!
Now this morning I have brown spotting. Which means by tonight or tomorrow morning AF will be here.
And to make it all worse I had two bad dreams. First one I was having another miscarriage . After I woke up, made OH's lunch for work & kissed him goodbye, I crawled back into bed and cried. I was thinking how we've just reached the one year mark on me stopping the pill. Also thought about how it looks like next cycle I'm going to be getting my period practically on our angel's due date . I really really really wanted to be pregnant before then. I donno how i'm even going to survive next month. And now this new cycle about to start is the last cycle where I could have a baby before our wedding. After that I'm either practically giving birth at the wedding or I'll have a giant belly. THis is assuming I can even get preggo again . I finally fell back asleep, only to have another dream. You may not want to read this next dream as it's disturbing, especially for those who are currently pregnant
I was pregnant and in labor lying on a steel table. I remember thinking that the pain wasn't as bad as I expected, and there were two ladies there. I don't know if they were medical staff as they were in normal clothing. I'm not even sure I was in a hospital. but no one else was there, I was alone. OH wasn't there. I never heard any crying once the baby came out. The lady who grabbed the babe when I delievered I thought was passing the baby to me, but then I see the umbilical cord going over my head as she passed the baby to the other lady. Then the first lady says "After all this work to get here, looks like your baby is just going to die" She then tells the lady holding the baby to try and save it, and so she stabs the baby in the abdomen with a scalpel and starts squeezing out what looks like puss . I still don't hear any crying, and then they take off with my baby, and I never know what happened
And my 20 year old cousin who my mom said she thought had I not lost the baby would have been due around the same time, just had her baby ...
And it looks like the weather is suiting my mood today, as there is a storm outside my window right now ...
I'm so so sorry Shellie for you BFN and just your overall crappy feeling and mood...i totally feel for you sweetie. you're allowed to feel this way. maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Just know that you will get past the due date of your angel baby and everything will be just fine because I did...it was hard but i got past it and just focused on trying again...we will get our forever babies one of these days, i just know it. i'm sending big hugs you way!!!
Cath I know what you mean, if I fell out with my oh I wouldn't be able to make up with him just for the sake of bd'ing, in fact I think we missed our month a few times because of that before I got pg before! I wouldn't want some sweaty relly sleeping in my bed either!
So the lube was ok then Fletch? I think it is really good but just used sparingly, and it's wierd you should say that about I always get it straight after o and didn't this month so what the heck does that mean?? Got em a bit now at 9dpo but who knows??
no...maybe i will this afternoon...i'm sure it will be negative. i've for sure learned my lesson with testing early. NEVER doing it again...if i hadn't of tested, i would never have known...and would just have been 2 days late on my period...but then that would have gotten my hopes up too thinking i was late because i was preggers...you just can't win with this ttc journey! it can be so stressful.
it is super hard. i got a positive 2 cycles ago and then my period and was heart broken. but for you to get a pos then a neg i cannot imagine how you felt
are your cycles irregular or normally a little late? or did you get your period already? xx
Aw Cath I wouldn't have that either, bad enough coming back from hols let alone coming back to loadsa cleaning etc! Don't lose heart, you've not ovd let just make sure you bd tomo night WHEN he's apologised!
Fletch -selfish posts? When? Not at all gun, were all guilty of them I occasionally but I don't think you've made one?
Lol Shelbysioux that made me laugh,his brother is q proper lazy sh*t aswell he annoys the life out of me,ah well never mind onto October now atleast ill be able to drink on holidays....
Shelbysioux I got a real good feeling about you hun,how many days till testing?
Aww ttcbaby I hope ypu can start ttc soon hun it'll take your kind off things as I bet your all over the place xxxxxxxxxxxx
it is super hard. i got a positive 2 cycles ago and then my period and was heart broken. but for you to get a pos then a neg i cannot imagine how you felt
are your cycles irregular or normally a little late? or did you get your period already? xx
my cycles are pretty regular...always b/w 28 and 31 days...yes, bleeding now...started Saturday night with spotting and full on Sunday...cramping SOOOOO bad.
it is super hard. i got a positive 2 cycles ago and then my period and was heart broken. but for you to get a pos then a neg i cannot imagine how you felt
are your cycles irregular or normally a little late? or did you get your period already? xx
my cycles are pretty regular...always b/w 28 and 31 days...yes, bleeding now...started Saturday night with spotting and full on Sunday...cramping SOOOOO bad.
Ha ha see they do surprise you sometimes! Get Cath!!
I only went and tested before :BFN: I don't even know why I did I had drunk loads of water all afternoon, it was a cheapy strip test from the corner shop, and its TOO EARLY!! Still managed tp pi** myself off though
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yeah we will be tonight and using the lube again 
i have such a great feeling about this month for us all 
thats okay i wasnt sure if anyone else is oing too. my posts have been pretty selfish lately. 
So upset. Didn't help that later on OH was pissed off at me for having forgotten the step stool in the kitchen (I'm 5'2'' I always need it!) and he kicked it and hurt his toe, but somehow he thinks because I'm a forgetful person it means I don't care about him or give a sh*t. As if I would try to do those things on purpose to hurt him! 
I always get it straight after o and didn't this month so what the heck does that mean?? Got em a bit now at 9dpo but who knows??
