2. Rant (be warned). I'm stressed and it's not for a good reason. You're all going to think I'm shallow and crazy, maybe, because it seems like a stupid reason to stress out, I think. We are leaving next week for a week of camping with all my DH's family, and it's stressing me out. A is the 12th grandchild, and his family can be extremely judgemental and very very shallow. I am terrified they will judge me for absolutely everything (I've always felt like this around them - I never feel good enough), like that I haven't lost all my jelly belly yet (they're all itty bitty tiny and very critical of others' appearances and weight), or that I can't afford to colour my hair anymore, so it's now a boring brown colour (they all have lots of money and look done-up constantly), or my parenting of A, or the worst of all - that they will judge A because of her looks or development or compare her to her cousin who's 3 weeks older and of course reaches most milestones before A does, but they say things like "Oh, she doesn't do ____ yet? L has been doing it for a long time..." Thanks. Now I feel like my child isn't good enough for you. Ugh. Anyway, thanks for letting me rant - I know I sound silly, but I really want to be confident in myself and the way I look (always had body image issues and I want to hide those, as I really don't want A to hear me say negative things and eventually start having them herself as a result), and especially in my parenting and my amazing, beautiful, perfect little girl, but it's hard when you know you're going to spend time around people who are so critical and judgemental.