Hi Ladies! Just spent the last two hours reading through this thread-and WOW, what an amazing roller coaster of emotions seeing you all progress through your cycles and TWW. Congrats to those that got their BFP and condolences to those who are out this cycle...and baby dust to those still in their wait or coming up on their wait!
As a first time TTC'er currently 8dpo in my first ever TWW, it's comforting to know that it is considered normal to be this neurotic about symptom spotting! My cycle is complicated with the fact that I ovulated via clomid-since I don't ovulate on my own due to PCOS. As I am solo and using a known donor, I have limited access to "the goods" and have to make every insemination count. I apparently am an obsessive symptom spotter and am really driving myself up the wall with what is likely false hope...but trying to be realistic-it's my first cycle and come on, how lucky can I be? I'll list my symptoms here, but will make the disclaimer that I don't know how much is related to clomid side effects post O, how much is related to PMS (of which I NEVER ordinarily suffer from), how much is just in my head and finally, if anything is actually related to early pregnancy.
O on cycle day 23, via positive OPKs and ovulation pains. 2 inseminations, one a few days before O and one the day of.
1dpo-woke up super bloated and gassy. Clearly I ovulated hard (clomid) and this is the high progesterone.
2dpo-5dpo-SAME, bloated and gassy. Post O progesterone continues. (I am on NO progesterone supplements)
6dpo-slighly less bloated, change in CM-tiny white cottage cheese like pieces (TMI sorry). Some twinges and ovary/uterine ache. One sided back/hip ache-new, never felt pain here before. Got up to pee at night which never happens.
7dpo-still slightly less bloated, twinges continue. Vivid breastfeeding dream-leaking milk everywhere. CM with white particles continues.
8dpo (today)-woke up super bloated again, blood tinged runny nose (nose attributed to allergies, has been going on since O, but blood is new)). Mouth has two sore places (weird!?). Woke up starving and had to eat before doing anything else, usually I can go a few hours without eating. Vivid dream last night about getting BFP. Twinges, aches in pelvis on and off all day. Never felt this before. CM continues with white particles. Skin clearer than usual.
I have had NO change in breasts. Do you see a theme though? I am getting MORE and MORE neurotic with symptom spotting as the days go by. Assuming it takes the full 6-12+mths to conceive, how will I survive this ridiculous obsession each month!?!?!? How!?!?!?
I will be testing each morning from here on out, fully expecting BFNs in these early days but getting more and more excited at the possibility of being first time lucky (but the realist in me is shaking her head, telling me that I should have thought of this cycle as a trial, to get my feet wet so to speak and to not expect so much). But it's my first ever cycle and I am so excited about the possibility of getting a BFP. I've just surrendered to the neurosis and am allowing myself to enjoy it. Just this one time.
Thoughts?
