MAY we all be blessed with baby! May 2013 and beyond (BFFs Seeking BFPs)

[ProfWife]

In a much better mood today. Four days until break (and my doctor's appointment). A friend of mine who used the same doc until she moved away a few years back. He apparently has some other ideas regarding how to address the issues that I might be facing (cortisone for stress, other tests to check for for hostile environments, etc.). I'm going to push for more tests and answers to make sure that there isn't anything extra going on.

 

[athena87]

Thank you hopeful

I had the shittiest birthday ever. Af started, had to go to a cookie swap and a tacky sweater party. Was talking to a friend about my situation and she basically said it took us 4 years to get pregnant so suck it up, but she already had one child so it's not exactly the same. She's sweet, but she's what I like to call a one-upper, you tell a story and she's got to tell one better. Doesn't matter what it is or she's done everything you talk about or she will tell you how she did it better. I drank way too much even though it wasn't all that much, but when you haven't really drank in a while it hits you hard. When we came home I was really upset and dh held me while I cried and cried because I really thought this was our month and it's not and it just sucks. So I had a pity party and it didn't make me feel one lick better. I've really been struggling lately. I've tried to give it to God, but it's really hard.

 

[ProfWife]

@Athena - virtual hugs. I have been there completely. Let yourself grieve. In every story in Scripture where there are women struggling with infertility, they cried, too. Not a single tear goes unnoticed - even when we feel like our prayers are bouncing off the walls.

I hate that your birthday had to be like that. It does make it worse emotionally. I really wish all of us actually lived near each other. We could just show up on the door step with a good movie, a bottle of wine and some chocolates...and not even a word would need to be said as we understand each other completely.

 

[kksy9b]

So sorry to hear that things are rough for you athena. Its okay to take a moment to feel bad about the situation and to feel the way that you do. I hope that tomorrow is a better day for you.

 

[athena87]

Thanks ladies. I think I'm going to try progesterone cream this cycle does anyone have any suggestions for a good one?

 

[ProfWife]

athena, my natural family planning lady recommended me to go to this site and pick one they recommended if my doc wouldn't prescribe some (https://www.johnleemd.com/store/resource_progesterone.html)

I used the Emerita Pro-Gest one cycle. No ill effects, but not 100% convinced it changed anything significantly. However, my BBT was raised quite a bit.

I've since been put on bio-identical compounded progesterone suppositories by my doc. Those I noticed a difference the first night I used them.

 

[Kalush]

Profwife - about the reaction on a different thread. Like others have said, feel free to vent here. We're here for you. Glad you are feeling better today. It sounds like this Doctor could be just what you need. It's always good when they want to check out the whole picture. It'll be interesting to see if the progesterone stops your spotting at the end. I have about 3-4 days of light/spotting at the end, I assume I have low progesterone so it makes sense to me.

Lazydaisy - It sounds like you guys have a good plan in place. Hopefully all the scanning will lead to some answers.

Burgbrandy - Good luck trying to relax.

Athena - I'm so sorry you had such a horrible day. Sometimes a good cry can do wonders, other times it takes so much effort to keep moving and change your thoughts to positive ones. I hope this week is a better one for you.

 

[ProfWife]

@ Kalush - the lady ended up apologizing for jumping on me (she assumed that I was saying those who weren't temping, doing kits, etc. weren't actually trying or going through any pain). While that is not what I meant, I do think that if you aren't willing to help yourself, you are almost guaranteeing it will take longer - as that is generally what the stats say. Doesn't make it hurt any less, though.

As far as the tail end brown bleeding, I'm on Day 4 of my cycle today. Normally I'd be at the brown stage already. However, it hasn't happened yet. I'm really light though. I guess we'll see what doc thinks in 5 days.

 

[pathos]

i cannot be around so often. still busy with renovation and i think we will have to postpone moving to the end of jan

profwife, athena i am sorry to hear that you both had bad days. i hope you feel better by now.

 

[ProfWife]

Was good, but now not so much. Just found out one sister is going to be with her in-laws on Christmas Day...so she's going to be with my parents the day after Christmas. Now the other sister is debating on which day she wants to be with our parents. I can ONLY be there Christmas Eve and Christmas Day as we fly out the morning after Christmas (everyone knew this year was "on" year for a home Christmas months ago). So, I get to see only my parents on Christmas Day - which means no Christmas dinner and no need for any pictures.

Basically, Christmas is now a wash for me. At least both sisters have their children home. To have a Christmas at home is still happy for them...Christmas at home is yet another reminder of our childlessness. Yay. The only thing I was looking forward to taken away as well. (BTW - both sisters live 20-30 minutes from our parents...so it's not exactly a long trek. They could both be there both days without issue.)

Guess overall it shouldn't matter...just one more disappointment in an otherwise sad year for me.

 

[athena87]

We are making sure we can do what we can to rock this next cycle. I ordered my Clomid, going to take 100 mg this cycle. Ordered dh fertilaid. Ordered ov tests, assortment of pregnancy tests, something that is supposed to lower your stress hormone to help balance other hormones and I'm going to try progesterone cream this cycle. I'm really wondering if I'm having another chemical, it's been super clotty like last cycle and I started 11 dpo. Either that or it's a luteal phase defect and I'm hoping either way the progesterone will help.

 

[ProfWife]

What did you find that lowers stress hormones? I need some of that normally for the school year! ;-)

Just don't drive yourself crazy.

I've been super clotty every cycle for a number of years. I think it just happens for some.

Would your doc consider prescribing a progesterone supplement?

 

[athena87]

It's called rhodiola rosea.

I'm not too happy with my dr and may be finding a new one soon so idk about the progesterone.

The only other time besides the past 2 cycles I've had large clots was a cycle I took provera.

 

[athena87]

https://babyandbump.momtastic.com/trying-to-conceive/768567-rhodiola-rosea-arctic-root.html

 

[Hopeful2014]

@Lazydaisys I updated your testing date. I can understand the temptation to test on Christmas. I hope you get your BFP! I'm glad to see you are moving forward with the plan for January if needed. I think it will be a big step forward! What was the flyer about?

@burgbrandy I hope you are able to relax this cycle then. The holidays might help keep you busy and could be a fun distraction. How are you settling in? Good luck!

@ProfWife Four days until break!! I really hope you get more answers and support from the doctor. I'm glad he is open to looking into other options. I think it would be great if we all lived near each other too. You all are such a great support system and such kind ladies. I hope you get your Christmas plans worked out with everyone.

@athena87 I hate that af came and especially on your birthday and with all those events. That's the worst! I think it's a bad mindset to tell someone to suck it up and basically say it doesn't matter until it's taken you as long as her to get pregnant. That's not true. It's not a pity party either. It's completely understandable. I'm so glad your husband was there to comfort you. I do believe it will happen for you. I know the waiting hurts and I hope your wait is almost over.

@pathos I know building/renovation is tough and definitely takes a long time. It seems you get one thing finished only to start the next thing. It took us a while when we were building, putting in the septic/pipes/electricity, and finishing it all. It can definitely be stressful. I hope you're able to move as soon as possible.

 

[omgbaby]

nikkilucky77 - Happy belated Anniversary!! I just kind of skimmed through posts so did af end up coming for you or is she still away?

Hopeful2014 - OMG!! DID YOU WATCH OUAT!! I cried!! How can they do this to us! Lol March 9th is TOO FAR AWAY!!

ProfWife - I'm sorry that happened to you in the other thread. This is pretty much the only thread I read and reply to because everyone is so nice in here. And nobody judges anyone. Or if they do they don't voice their opinions. Yes, I'll come to Florida! Lol woke up to snow today

Lazydaisys - FX for you Christmas present BFP!

athena87 - Happy belated birthday! Sorry it went badly! My sister's boyfriend is a one-upper. I really dislike him! I hate one-uppers.

AFM - af still here. OH & I pulled an all nighter on Saturday which left me in bed til 3!! on Sunday! Lol actually OH woke me up, he thought I was already awake but then once he realized I wasn't he said he knew I wouldn't wake up unless he woke me! Lol I'm hoping af will be gone soon.

 

[athena87]

I am so irritated right now. A lady posted a test on ctp. It is obviously an old frer that the urine dried in the test line, I asked her if it was old and she tried to say her urine was extremely dark. I look at her other tests and she posted one a few days before that she is 6 weeks and on this test she posted she was 13 dpo. I got accused of being rude to her because her test is obviously positive. And this same person said I had been bothering the girl that posted the test for a while when I've never posted on her tests before.

 

[ProfWife]

So she's pregnant but just still posting tests? Weird!

Oooo.... T-3 days...I think I can make it...

 

[al335003]

Well I just started my Clomid for this cycle- time seems to be flying by... No time to be sad for me

I hope things turn around for you Athena and Profwife ((hugs)))

 

[athena87]

Profwife yea a week ago she was 6 weeks but now she is 4 weeks wth? So I look through her tests and she has posted hundreds her dpo always changes and then she says she had a miscarriage. -_-