MAY we all be blessed with baby! May 2013 and beyond (BFFs Seeking BFPs)

[pennymarie]

Prof wife: thank you!! And the dizzy spells and tiredness are really my only true symptom that's unusual. I don't check my bloodsugar, but I've felt hypoglycemic more than a couple times. Especially last week

 

[ProfWife]

PennyMarie...about how far along do you estimate you are? I know since you aren't keeping track you don't know dpo. Have you tried one of the digital tests that tell you approximate weeks?

I'm just curious because this is the first time it's been so intense on the dizziness side, but I'm only 7dpo (so I assume it can't be anything other than the meds I'm on).

 

[pennymarie]

There's a digital test that does that????????!

I estimate I'm 4 weeks. But the dizziness has been for a week or so. So since 7dpo ish. Since I'm 14dpo now ish

 

[pennymarie]

Omg omg omg I'm going to go get one of those tomorrow!!

 

[ALiKO]

profwife- dont worry 7dpo is not to early to start feeling symptoms. its actally right on time as the egg is either implanting or implanted and ready to give off hormones. in fact i felt my 1st symptoms at 7dpo and they were intense enough for me to notice.

 

[Hopeful2014]

@gabbygabz I hope the spotting doesn't turn into af.

@Lazydaisys I'm glad you're feeling better. I am so hopeful for you and I can't wait until you get your BFP!

@nikkilucky77 I hope it does bring more luck or at least some positivity and good energy! I'm still hopeful for you and that those times could be the times! Don't count yourself out yet!

@ProfWife I imagine it was quite scary especially on the ride home. I hope you start feeling better soon. Perhaps it's a good sign?! Fingers crossed. ALiKO could be right too. I started noticing how hungry I was around 8 dpo and had felt extra tired a few days before that.

@pennymarie There are digital tests that say pregnant and 1-2 weeks, 2-3 weeks, or 3+ weeks.

 

[pennymarie]

Would the 1-2 weeks mean 4 weeks?

 

[Hopeful2014]

Would the 1-2 weeks mean 4 weeks?

It supposedly measures the level of hCG to estimate how far along you are. Many people really like them. However, some don't think they are always accurate though. It may not be as accurate if there are multiples either. Here's the website for Clearblue for more information. It says that 1-2 means 3-4 weeks pregnant, 2-3 means 4-5 weeks pregnant, 3+ means 5+ weeks pregnant.

 

[pennymarie]

Thank you so much.

Right now I'm convinced I have a blighted ovum. That's the only way it could be that strong. Or molar pregnancy.

I can't aleep

 

[Hopeful2014]

@pennymarie I certainly understand being scared and nervous. I know you're worried about it, but I don't think it's too dark to be at your suspected dpo (meaning it doesn't point to blighted ovum or molar pregnancy just because of darkness). I promise for every bad story you will read online that there is a good story that came from the same initial question.

I'm not sure if you know about it, but here's a link to pregnancy results based on brand. You can look at the brand of test you used and see the sensitivity level and real responses based on dpo. Here's a link to a pregnancy test gallery where you can search for tests like your brand and dpo to see what others look like around the same time. I hope that eases your mind a little or that going in to the doctor does.

 

[omgbaby]

pennymarie - congrats!! I hope everything works out

Hopeful2014 - thank you! Happy 21 weeks! Girl your time is flying!

gabbygabz - hope you get a true bfp!

afm - yesterday OH & I broke up. I just needed a break. I couldn't take it anymore. I feel like I just need to focus on myself and get myself together before I can try to do the relationship again. I was so stressed for so long and I finally got the strength to walk away. But now he's begging me to give him another chance which really is only pushing me away. I feel so bad because he has nowhere to go. But that only makes me worry about him which I don't need to be doing. I told him I want him to go to his friends. His friend lives a hour and half away. I told him that's his best friend and I know that being with him he will stay busy and be having fun so he won't be worried about me and trying to talk to me all the time which will make me feel much better.
It's hard, I'm trying to be strong but I just feel so bad for him.. I don't know what to do. I want alone time and to just be alone for awhile but at the same time I don't want him being homeless. I won't be okay unless he goes to his best friends. Then that'll help me calm down and focus.

Being with my grandma this weekend at nursing home around the nurses and hospice aides it helped me realize that I want to help people like that. I want to be there for someone. Funny thing is a few weeks ago I applied for a receptionist position at a home health aide facility. They called me Monday morning for an interview!! My interview is tomorrow morning at 10 and then my grandma's funeral is at 1. I can't shake the feeling that she had something to do with it.

 

[OurLilFlu]

Wow omgbaby! Sorry you're going through some tough times emotionally! Sounds like you know wxactly what you want though so keep strong! I'm sure it impossible not to worry about him, hopefully he figures things out and stays with his friend for a bit. Also, congrats on the interview! Sounds like perfect timing, and maybe your grandma did have something to do with it! I really hope you get the job, it'll give you something to focus in, fresh start!

 

[newbie2013]

Omgbaby, what a tough time you're having! I agree with ourlilflu, you sound like you've got strength in your resolve and you know exactly what you want. Might be the best thing you've ever done, despite being hard. Good on you for being so strong. Good luck for the interview. I have no doubt your grandma is looking out for you.

Many years ago, I broke up with a man who I'd been with since I was 17. He had no family, very few friends and we both had to move. It took me the longest time to realise that worrying about how he'd survive without me was far less important than losing myself in an unhealthy relationship. Leaving him alone was the hardest thing I had done at the time, but definitely turned out to be the best thing I'd ever done for me. It was the catalyst for me fulfilling my dream of living outside Australia which led me to meeting DH. I can't imagine how different my life would be if I'd never had the courage to walk away from that relationship when I did.

I'm thinking about you and if it isn't too hard for you to stay with us here, I'm sure I can speak for all of us when I say we're here to support you regardless. We'd love to continue to hear about your interview and help keep you strong when it gets hard.

 

[pennymarie]

pennymarie - congrats!! I hope everything works out

Hopeful2014 - thank you! Happy 21 weeks! Girl your time is flying!

gabbygabz - hope you get a true bfp!

afm - yesterday OH & I broke up. I just needed a break. I couldn't take it anymore. I feel like I just need to focus on myself and get myself together before I can try to do the relationship again. I was so stressed for so long and I finally got the strength to walk away. But now he's begging me to give him another chance which really is only pushing me away. I feel so bad because he has nowhere to go. But that only makes me worry about him which I don't need to be doing. I told him I want him to go to his friends. His friend lives a hour and half away. I told him that's his best friend and I know that being with him he will stay busy and be having fun so he won't be worried about me and trying to talk to me all the time which will make me feel much better.
It's hard, I'm trying to be strong but I just feel so bad for him.. I don't know what to do. I want alone time and to just be alone for awhile but at the same time I don't want him being homeless. I won't be okay unless he goes to his best friends. Then that'll help me calm down and focus.

Being with my grandma this weekend at nursing home around the nurses and hospice aides it helped me realize that I want to help people like that. I want to be there for someone. Funny thing is a few weeks ago I applied for a receptionist position at a home health aide facility. They called me Monday morning for an interview!! My interview is tomorrow morning at 10 and then my grandma's funeral is at 1. I can't shake the feeling that she had something to do with it.

Me and mine almost divorced last year due to the stress. It's hard. It brings out sides of both of us, that it can be too much. For us we needed some space, me giving him space too.

But it's even more amazing when you realize something that will bring you happiness so good luck with the job!!! I'm on school to be a midwife, one year left, because I want to help women during these times. It should be happy and as stress free as possible. So I understand wanting to help others

 

[omgbaby]

OurLilFlu - Thank you.

newbie2013 - I love everything you said! Thank you so much!

pennymarie - Thank you.

Tonight I am going to take him to his friends. Well they are meeting us half way, he isn't as bad as he was yesterday as far as begging for me to give him a chance. Right now he's so scared that he'll be up there and I'll tell him I'm done then he'll be stranded up there. I feel bad because I'm just thinking what if I don't want to give it another chance I'll feel bad for hurting him but you're right newbie my health and wellbeing is more important than his. My aunt told me a quote she heard while going through her divorce years ago "I'd rather be healthy and alone then be sick with someone else"
I just hope that if I do make the decision to call it quits for good that he can understand that. As of right now everytime he asks I feel like I'm just telling him what he wants to hear since I don't really know.
His family has never really been there for him it's only ever been me and I think that's why he thinks that without me he can't survive but I know once he gets over me he'll be good to go. He told his grandma what happened and asked if he could stay with her she said yeah for a couple days. Like wtf! Who in their right mind would allow their grandson to go homeless!! I feel like his family just wants him to depend on me and they won't have to bother with him.

To be completely honest, this may sound really wrong but I'm hoping that maybe he goes to his friends and we slowly stop talking and not forget about each other but forget about him wanting the relationship still. Like he quits worrying about me and just lets it go. I just really don't know if I still want this or not but I know if I tell him that he'll start crying and begging me & it kills me to see him like that.

 

[Hopeful2014]

@omgbaby I'm so sorry to hear that things are so hard for you right now. I hope you make the decision that's right for you. Perhaps time and distance will make that easier. Once again I'm so sorry about your grandma too. I've felt like my grandma has helped me in ways too. I hope you get the position! Good luck at the interview.

@newbie2013 Isn't it crazy to think about how the decisions we make really can change our lives? I'm probably at a different place than I thought I would be at when I was younger, but there's no way I would change it.

@pennymarie I didn't know you were training to be a midwife. That's cool.

 

[ProfWife]

Yuck...temp was up again this am...but now I'm home sick. No fever. Dry heaves, sore neck, sore throat, headache, a smidge dizzy. This is NO fun!

 

[gabbygabz]

Good luck omgbaby, I know that process is so hard but agree with others who have said that in this case, what may feel like selfishness is really important for your personal health.

Profwife, feel better!

AFM: onward to IUI#2. AF inching in today and likely here in force tomorrow. Throwing acupuncture back into the mix this time around and trying to focus on just as much positive energy as possible. Fingers crossed!

 

[melann13]

Profwife, have you tested yet?

 

[ProfWife]

Negative. I wasn't planning on testing until Monday as I'm only 9dpo. Even if I am, there likely hasn't been enough time for the chemical to build up in my system.

I'm going to hold off now until Monday.

I had 15 students out sick on ONE day last week, and at least that many sporadically this week. I likely just caught whatever funk they've been spreading.

I'm just praying it's not a viral sinus infection. I'm already on Septra DS for my UTI (same med used for some sinus infections). So, if I have some resistant strain I'm going to be INCREDIBLY unhappy.

I got home around 9, fell asleep around 10, woke up around 12:30. Now eating lunch and waiting for an update on my in-law's flight here today.