MAY we all be blessed with baby! May 2013 and beyond (BFFs Seeking BFPs)

[ClandestineTX]

I'm weirdly OK today - got my blood drawn and my "official" BFN notification. Seeing RE on Tuesday and Doc on Friday. I think if we decide to go with IVF, it will be in Dec, due to EDD and my summer work schedule. We still very much want our own kids, hoping giving my most recent thyroid medication change a chance to settle down (dropped one this month due to excess free T3 on last blood work) and just a chance to work on our house. I promise to stick around to keep up with all you lovely ladies! We are going to be as chill about trying without putting too much into it until Dec, unless the RE or Doc has another idea for the interim.

@momwithbabies: the breakdown was totally unexpected for me. I think I was more upset about losing that pregnancy a year after the cycle started than I was when I knew for sure it wasn't going to make it. I've always been a bit off like that. I just cannot believe that was really the one and only shot I would have at having a baby... so we carry on...

 

[pathos]

hi all!

 

[momwithbabies]

AF hit me this morning. Back to feeling like crap for a day or two. This cycle was 31 days, which is good for me.

 

[newbie2013]

Clandestine, I'm sorry about your BFN. I hope that you can enjoy a break from TTC stress for a while. Please stick around and let us know how you're going. I would be very interested to hear about your lead up to IVF, if you decide to go that way, because that would be our next step if IUI doesn't work (like you, if we decide to go that way).

momwithbabies, sorry about AF and not feeling well. Big yay for the 31 day cycle! Hope this one is the one for you.

AFM, I'm sitting here on CD28, so I'm super relieved. My cycles have been shorter, so for me, every day over 25-26 is a little jump for joy. My longest one in the last year was 29 days, so I'm hoping to match that. I'm not even going to consider the possibility of testing until I get to AT LEAST 31-32 days. We had very little opportunities this month to dtd and it was a stressful time for us. No iui, no meds, so almost 0 chance.

Hopeful and profwife, how are you both?

 

[newbie2013]

Ugh... Just found out that my sister in law is pregnant. Unplanned. For the second time. Who has two unplanned pregnancies? Happy for her, just wish she knew that it is a struggle for some.

 

[ClandestineTX]

I see the RE tomorrow to talk next steps and regular Doc on Friday. I'm honestly hoping getting my thyroid issues stabilized (again, as I thought they were stable) fixes things so I don't need to end up doing IVF. Not holding my breath, of course, but a girl can dream!

momwithbabies and newbie. I can't even deal with other people's pregnancies anymore. Thankfully, none of my friends I see regularly are having babies right now!

KMFX that Hopeful has to break out a test in a few days!

 

[ProfWife]

Just broke the news to my in laws that we still aren't and that we are likely going to need more intervention. We are going to likely stay on this protocol this month then see if my re will approve a few cycles of iui, just so we can say we tried it. From there, unless I can convince our insurance to approve mini-ivf for diagnostic purposes, we will likely take a few months off through the end of the year then do traditional ivf January/February.

In laws were very supportive. They tried for nearly 5 years before my husband (dad has a disorder that docs thought would render him sterile, but they managed to get his count up to 5 million when they finally had my husband). So, she knows the pain of waiting and watching everyone get pregnant around you.

Just waiting for af to kick in so I can report day 1 to start this cycle. All tests have been negative so far.

 

[newbie2013]

ProfWife, it is great that your in laws are supportive. My MIL is the LAST person I would be able to talk to about this (even if I spoke her language fluently or vice versa).

Clandestine, hope you get your thyroid sorted out quickly.

AFM, sitting here on CD29 with no sign of AF. No spotting on CM check yesterday, which is unusual for me. My question to you is, should I bother testing or am I just fooling myself? My last 29 day cycle was back in March and before that, it was May 2014, then January 2014. Only had 2 cycles of 30 and one 31 since I started tracking in June 2013 (wow... two years of tracking...). Maybe I should give it another couple of days - I don't keep test in the house, so I'd need to go and buy one. The chances are so slim, so it is likely a waste of time and money

 

[ProfWife]

If you bd-ed within 3 days of ovulation, it's not that far fetched. You may want to consider waiting until the day after your longest cycle to maximize it being clear.

 

[newbie2013]

Yep, we did cd12, 14 & 15, and I think all the travel I did between cd12 and cd14 could have delayed o.

I didn't buy a test today and won't get a chance tomorrow, so I guess I will be waiting until af shows or until after my longest cycle. Keep your fingers crossed for me but I won't be surprised if af comes.

 

[ClandestineTX]

@newbie: If you are really anti-testing, I'd give it a week past when you expect a cycle to start.

@Profwife: I can't imagine my now-deceased in-laws being people I would ever talk to about things like fertility. You are extremely fortunate to have ones that are understanding!

AFM... RE says to call his office once my thyroid labs show that things are back in normal range and if the cyst from last cycle is disrupting things (unlikely as it's CD 3 in this house), he can jump start a new cycle for me to do a few more rounds of FSH/ IUI. He said it would be totally different if we were unexplained, but since I have good ole fashioned ovulation dysfunction, he believes FSH/ IUI is all it's going to take... so going to enjoy my cycle "off" get my labs rechecked in about 4 weeks and then see where we're at. Surprisingly OK with this plan. Hope you are well well!

 

[ProfWife]

My in-laws are really amazing. They're both very open and want to be involved to the extent we let them...My MIL's comment was "I don't care how you get them in the family...I just want to spoil them to pieces once they're here." My parents are just as supportive in that way, but my mom is very anti-ivf. It kills me, but unless they come around, I may not be able to involve her at all if we go to IVF.

We now have an updated plan. Whenever I start (should have been today, but hasn't happened yet), I'll call in my CD1 so I can get on the rounds for my baseline scan. I'm going to have the nurse ask our doctor if we can get into the schedule this month for iui (if we can't okay, but we want to start them next month). We want to try 2-3 iui cycles, just so we can guarantee that the sperm are actually available to fertilize an egg. I've always been skeptical that the boys aren't actually getting through the cervix. If those don't work after 3 MAX, we're going to take November/December (or just December) completely off - no meds, no procedures in preparation to do full (not mini) IVF January/February. That's our current plan anyway.

 

[newbie2013]

Woohoo! Cd30!! Longest cycle since early last year. Even if it comes to nothing, I'm happy with a longer cycle.

I also just booked flights to see my family at christmas time, so I have something to look forward to. I haven't seen them at christmas for so many years...

 

[ProfWife]

Glad you were able to book your flight!

I started spotting - so, just waiting on full flow now. I am 2 days late...let my hopes get up...now I want ice cream. ;-)

 

[newbie2013]

I'm sorry about the spotting, ProfWife. Have some ice cream and try not to give up hope just yet. It isn't over until AF is here!

To be honest, I've had a little bit of watery, coloured discharge a couple of times when I've wiped over the last couple of days, but not to the point where I'd say it was spotting. Every time I go to the bathroom, I expect to wipe and have it heavier, but am shocked to discover nothing at all. DH is now tracking my days. He asked me this morning if af had arrived, and I said it hadn't and he was like "wow, day 31". He asked if he should go for the new SA test today or not and I told him he might as well hold off until Saturday now. If he goes early Saturday, I hope the tests will be back the same day and we can go to the doc that night (cd1, 2 or 3, depending if af starts today or not, so not too late to start a protocol for the cycle). At the latest, i can go on Sunday during the day. Alternatively... I could go to the doc for another reason Haven't had a 31 day cycle since August 2013 (wow). Still trying to keep my hopes under control and realistic (but even if o was delayed until day 16 or 17, I'm still 14 or 15 dpo and my longest lp when I was temping was 14 days, latest day I oed was 17 - that was my 31 day cycle - sometimes I think too much data is too much knowledge).

 

[ClandestineTX]

@ProfWife: I found out my mom was anti-IVF due to comments she made when my stepsister went through it. Hers was an extreme case (she's more than 400 pounds) and was older than I am now, but she's not the only person I know who did IVF and stopped with no success. Other than accidentally opening my box of FSH injections, my mom technically knows nothing - and she hasn't said anything about the package she opened, other than to say it said refrigerate upon receipt and was in my refrigerator (almost over the humiliation). I know she would be a fantastic super-involved grandparent. Just never been a good emotional support for me, ever. Your plan sounds solid, though, and if I do 3-4 more FSH/ IUI cycles this fall, we will either be bump buddies or IVF buddies!

@newbie: I think we've all been at this too long to throw some hope out there, but suffice to say I am sitting here, ever so patiently waiting for you to get to a point where you are comfortable testing. I have everything crossed than I can cross for you.

AFM... CD 5-ish... and not even temping! No meds! No doctor appointments! No transvaginal monitoring ultrasounds! Conference this week, going to enjoy free booze without paranoia or guilt! Then two weeks of work, then a legit vacation!

 

[newbie2013]

Have an awesome week, clandestine! Enjoy yourself!

I'm comfortable testing in Saturday. Dh wants me to wait until cd36 since his "research" today suggest a "normal" cycle can be up to 35 days. Totally ignored my statements about my average cycle length over 27 cycles being 27 days and no cycle over 31 days. Wonder if I might just sneak a test in one day when he's at work...

 

[ProfWife]

Clandestine - Enjoy the final push and then a WELL deserved vacation. (And whether it's through meds, iui or ivf, I'd consider it an honor to go through the process with you.)

Talked to my doc today, we're on track to start iui in September. I agreed to sub during the time I'd need to do it this go around. It will give us time to make sure we can cover it without freaking out over our budget. I picked up a side job at my old school doing files for the accreditation cycle. Doesn't pay anywhere near my old per hour, but it's a little extra income. Plus my university class will be starting soon. I'm prepping for that tonight. Another couple grand for this adjunct. Every little bit counts.

Newbie - I hope it stays away entirely. AFM, CD1.

 

[newbie2013]

Mixed emotions. Happy with a 31 day cycle, but could have done without my body playing tricks on me. I knew it was too good to be true. Cd1.

 

[ProfWife]

:-/

I went in for my baseline check to get approved for my new round of meds. Tech said my lining looked abnormally thick - especially since I reported having a REALLY heavy first day compared to the last 3 months (where I probably only needed a pad for like a day and a half). So, they made me do a pregnancy blood draw. They FINALLY called - negative. I figured as much. The nurse calling sounded so happy on the phone when I answered, I actually allowed myself to get my hopes up. Oh well. I figured as much.

They got my appointment straightened out (the girl accidentally put me on CD9 rather than CD10 for my follicle check). So...next Saturday I'll go in to see if I've got any follicles sprouting.

In the meantime, I've got a routine to choreograph, an exercise routine to get back into, a university class to start prepping for, a new Scantron replacement to test out for the school and "permanent files" to deal with for the school. Yeah...I quit my full-time job...remember?!

OH! And my replacement just let the new department chair know she's about 2.5 months pregnant. She got pregnant almost immediately after finding out she had my job...due in Feb. I like her so much, though, I'm a bit jealous but hardly upset. She told the chair that she was afraid to tell me because she knows I left school in order to focus more on reducing stress and being healthy in order to end our struggle to conceive. She's such a sweet girl...and a great mommy to the 2 year old they have already.

Anyway...woo...there we are for today.