MAY we all be blessed with baby! May 2013 and beyond (BFFs Seeking BFPs)

[momwithbabies]

ProfWife: Praying for your dad. Also praying for God to give you and your family strength during this time.

Hopeful: I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is breaking, especially knowing what you have gone through already. I'm praying for you.

 

[ClandestineTX]

Hopeful. I think you sound like you are trying the best you can to keep a clear head about all this (and it's hard). We are always here if you need to vent.

 

[ProfWife]

Hopeful - I am SO sorry. That's one of my fears. You are one of the strongest women I've ever met.


Update: Dad was extubed today, breathing on his own. Blood pressure is high, kidney function is reduced (possibly doing dialysis to support those), and the infection is still there but it is clearing. Not out of the woods, but he's able to speak, laugh, recognize all of us, and make some good sense.

 

[newbie2013]

Good news profwife. I hope he continues to improve.

 

[momwithbabies]

Yes, I hope he continues to improve.

 

[Lazydaisys]

Sorry to hear hopeful Im hoping for happier times ahead.

Glad dad is doing better prowife x

 

[athena87]

It's been a long time since I've been on here. Just wanted to stop in and say hi, baby boy just turned 1 last month and we've decided to start ttc #2. I'm terrified it will take as long as he did or longer, but I also know that I am blessed to have my baby boy, so I'm trying to keep that in mind. I've missed all of you ladies, hope you all are doing well.

Hopeful I'm so sorry for your loss, you will be in my prayers.

 

[kksy9b]

Best of luck Athena! Glad to hear that you are doing well!

 

[pathos]

Profwife congrats! I am so so so happy for you.

Hopeful, =( I am very sorry to hear your loss . I have no wise words to offer but you are a not a person who needs them.

Athena, gl with ttc. I cannot believe your baby boy is a year old now- time flies.

 

[momwithbabies]

Athena: Each journey is different. I'm praying your journey for #2 is a breeze. What a sweet boy you've got there! I'm so happy for you!

ProfWife: How is your dad? And how are you?

Hi, everyone. I have been on a TTC break since my miscarriage and looks like I'm not going anywhere. Some issues have come up with my daughter (7) that have been our focus for the last couple of weeks. She hasn't been eating very much and is losing weight. Please keep her in your prayers. She's afraid she will choke on her food. I know that sounds weird, but she's been having anxiety issues ever since she saw me bleeding everywhere with my miscarriage. Plus the added stress of seeing her mommy loaded up into an ambulance...not good. She has always had anxiety to a point, but I believe this triggered these episodes of not eating and other things. Please pray. I'm heartbroken. I don't know what to do. She saw her pediatrician because I just wanted to make sure it wasn't something physical that is keeping her from eating. The doctor thinks it's anxiety, so she will start seeing a therapist soon. It's so sad to see your child hungry, but they can't swallow their food.

I'm going on and on, but please just pray. I need all of the help possible. You do everything possible to do what's right for your kids and this happens. I feel like our family has been through one thing after the other. I know some of you ladies are feeling the same right now

 

[ProfWife]

That is so scary. I've heard of little ones with similar issues. Hopefully she'll have a breakthrough quickly so she can feel confident in herself and her surroundings again.

I'm tired, exhausted really. I've been driving back and forth from my home to my dad's hospital (1 hour each way) almost every day. He looked like he was going downhill, exhausted and ready to give up the fight (even called me over to tell me he loved me and that I better take care of the baby). But today we had some small improvements. We're praying that he keeps this fight in him and turns the corner soon. Today was day 16 in the hospital. :-/

Our first scan is on Wednesday. Praying we see a little bean in there with a strong heartbeat. I'm terrified it will be an empty sac or that there won't be a heartbeat...6 weeks and 6 days today.

 

[momwithbabies]

Praying for your dad and your scan. That's a lot to think about

My daughter goes back to the doctor tomorrow. I'm praying she's gained a little bit of weight.

 

[Hopeful2014]

@momwithbabies My thoughts are with your daughter. I'm sorry that she was traumatized by your loss and that she is struggling now. I know anxiety can be intensified by other things. I really hope she finds peace and some reassurance. It may not be the same at all, but just in case it can help, I felt an overwhelming amount of worry and anxiety after my loss. Of course it was a major shock for that to happen, but it was also a very close call for me. I was extremely terrified for weeks, and to a lesser extent for months and sometimes now, that something would happen to someone I care about and/or me. She may be afraid that something might happen to you and/or upset that it happened to the baby or even afraid that because this unexpected thing happened that it could mean something unexpected could happen to her. I know you're a great mother and will do everything you can to help her find her strength. I hope it's very soon.

@ProfWife I hope you had wonderful news at your scan and that your father is doing better.


How's everyone?


AFM I'll be heading back to the doctor for another hcg draw next week because it was still elevated at my last check. The doctor said there's nothing that suggests that the miscarriage was related to my past issues and that "statistically" my next pregnancy should go full term. We can only hope, right? We also checked my thyroid levels because I've always worried that there might be an issue, but she said they are normal. (ClandestineTX, I may message you to see if you agree with that). We have a preconception meeting with our maternal-fetal specialist at the end of the month to see what he thinks about all of it.

 

[momwithbabies]

Hopeful: Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. My daughter is doing better this week. She starts seeing a therapist next week, so I'm hoping we found a good one. Anxiety is tricky, and it's sad to see someone you love have to struggle through it. I'm hoping the therapist will help. I think she is going through exactly what you described. The other day, she totally freaked out because a bug got on her in the car. Her screaming and terror were so bad, my husband had to pull into a parking lot and take her out of the car. We stood outside the car for about 30 minutes pleading for her to get back in it so we could go home. She was that terrified of a little bug. She's never done that before.

I'm sorry those levels aren't back to normal. It took mine a long time, I know. I remember feeling frustrated. It's not fair everything you've been through, but I'm hoping the preconception meeting goes well. I hope those thyroid levels were as okay as they said they were.

 

[newbie2013]

Momwithbabies, I hope your daughter's anxiety improves.

Hopeful, I hope your meeting goes well next week.

Profwife, any news?

Claude, how are you?

I'm okay. Great, actually, in terms of cycle days - on 29 right now, which is great for me. Dh is slowly getting better and he's off to London this weekend even though he's terrified about how he'll cope with travelling alone. He's at his doc right now, so I hope she's giving him some coping strategies.

Thinking of you all.

 

[ClandestineTX]

@Hopeful: send me your thyroid levels, especially TSH and free T3 and free T4!

@Newbie: things sound calmer from your post, I hope things actually are and that life starts moving for you soon.

AFM... last cycle (first back on Femara) was totally normal, 28-days with ovulation on day 15. I had some questionable line action on 10/11 DPO (like there was a faint line, no question about it PM of 10 DPO, then 4 different tests over 2 days that got darker from test 1 to 2, then dropped off on tests 3 and 4 - I test every 12 hours when something is up), so back to totally negative by 12 DPO. I hate to say that's better than anything I've had in quite a while, but it is. Now CD 10 of subsequent cycle, hoping to get this ovulation thing out of the way by Friday of this coming week. My thyroid and cortisol levels are holding steady in optimal range with only one medication on board. So we are just sticking with Femara for now, trying to live as normal life as possible in the meantime. I think it's super weird that I seem to do better on Femara than on the FSH injections - but not complaining. I much prefer to take care of this as much in the privacy of my own home as possible. I hope we can get one that really sticks around (not like that other one from last year that wasn't viable from the start), before I feel desperate enough to try IVF. I think I'm over the idea of IUIs. If I am going to go through all that monitoring, I want much better odds.

And FX for ProfWife. I try to be super chill, but I am inherently a worrier. I very much hope everything is OK.

 

[ProfWife]

Sorry I went MIA. I was spending almost every day with my dad at the hospital recently. I was forced to take a day off by my mom (like she can talk, she's left his side for a shower 3-4 times in 3 weeks). I woke up with congestion; so, I would have had to stay away anyway. Even a common cold could put him back to pneumonia.

Dad is improving. We're down to about 4 liters oxygen in his nasal cannula (he was as high as 15 on the mask a few days ago). He's doing pretty well. He's lost over 15lbs since he was admitted 3 weeks ago, but we're slowly getting him to eat again. He's not able to feed himself yet (too weak), but we're working on that with some physical therapy. Last night he asked me to turn on a football game for him. So, we definitely are rounding a corner. We just need to get his stamina up.

As for us, we had our first ultrasound on the 14th and saw a 1 cm fetal pole and a little heart cranking away. We were able to hear the heartbeat - 150bpm. I cried so hard. I keep watching the video my husband took. I've been feeling sort of blech lately. I'm hungry but almost nothing sounds good...but if I don't find something to eat, then I get nauseated. Lots of food aversions - to the point of making me gag. I haven't done a whole lot of cooking since I've been going back and forth with my dad. I'm hoping that will all calm down soon. Stress does weird things to us. So, I'm hoping reducing stress levels now that Dad seems to be recovering will help everything normalize again.


Hope everyone's upcoming appointments go well. Thinking of you all.

 

[ClandestineTX]

Glad everything with your dad is improving and great news about your scan!

 

[athena87]

Congrats prowife I'm so happy for you and glad your dad is improving!

Momwithbabies that is so scary. I hope counseling will help her cope. It's not the same but after dh's brother passed I had a few different issues. One being actually seeing the spot where he passed, I still sometimes find it hard to walk through there without imagining it. The second was I was terrified something would happen to someone else close to me, especially dh. I still have flashes of it sometimes.

Clande hope you get a sticky bean very soon!

Hopeful hope you are doing well. I hope everything is figured out and you get your sticky bean!

Afm got a positive opk earlier so here's to hoping I ov on my own!

 

[ProfWife]

Yay for a positive opk! Get to work! ;-)

I was banned from the hospital today. I've been sick since Sunday, and Dad can't afford a virus on top of his pneumonia. By the way, we FINALLY have a name for what he had/has - - - - Psittacosis. So, he's now on an official medication for it. Since they're declining rehab, physical therapy has been asked to up their intensity as he has to be able to walk on his own power (with a walker is fine) before they'll discharge him. Today he did three laps around his hospital room with the therapist and his walker. He has yet to venture to the hallway - maybe tomorrow.

So, as for me, I have been sitting around smelling my Vicks vaporizer, crocheting and napping. Right now I'm not even up to making dinner...how sad for my poor hubs who has been working all day. He'll have to settle for soup and veggies...that's about all I can handle today.