I lost a few pounds in first tri too. My doctor said she lost 10lbs! Now that I can eat lunch again I finally am up a pound, and I'm sure it will keep climbing. I really thought I would struggle mentally with getting bigger while pregnant, but I love my little bump so far and can't wait for it to get bigger. I am hoping to keep my weight gain healthy though, as I would like to lose what I can after if possible. I think that's my worst fear because of my mom. She just kept on putting on more and more weight after having babies.
I'm so sorry you went through that second! I've always been thin, but I've had body image issues forever (thanks mom). My mom constantly tells us that she was 5'7" and 115 before she went on hormone therapy to have me (she had endo and couldn't conceive without help). She is now (and has been) over 200lbs. By 16, I was 5'5" and 110 and she would still find little bulges and imperfections to point out. I stayed that weight until I was 26. I still have this clear memory of being in my dance costume for the super bowl half time show and my mom telling me to suck in my fat for a photo in our front yard. Funny what you remember right? In my 20s, she would constantly mention how her waist was thinner at my age, etc. It messes with your head. I never felt beautiful or thin. I creeped up to 126 after 26, started working out and dieting like crazy and dropped back down to 110 😬. I guess my roommate was actually worried about me back then. Then I met my husband and started grad school and crept back up to 126. Started running half marathons when I turned 30 and dropped to around 118-120 and I've been happy there. The issues are still there. I find bulges and can't stand wearing bikinis. I'm envious of my best friend. Her weight has fluctuated so much over the years, and yet she can still confidently flaunt what she's got and feel beautiful. I thankfully never developed a full on eating disorder, but my little sister, the star gymnast with rock hard abs, struggles on and off with bulimia. She's 5'8" with a wider frame, but also always thin and didn't believe it.
If I have a little girl, I'm going to try my hardest not to pass those issues on to her. Hopefully I have the strength and awareness to manage that.