Thank you to everyone for your good wishes and support. I wish I could sit down and write a reply to everyone individually, but that will have to come when I'm not in and out of the hospital every other day
I keep starting to write an update and then something else bad happens... but now that I'm home (for at least a day) I will try to make it somewhat short.
First, baby is fine... but still in my tummy
They say she needs to come out because of her low and unchanging weight but refuse to give me a C-section (they say for legal reasons) because the baby isn't in distress due to the (now 5.5 days total) of pitocin (among other things). I'm still only 3cm dilated and in the most unbelievable pain. I feel like I've been hit by a car... seriously. My husband and I literally left the hospital last night against Dr.'s orders because after another 7 hours of pitocin, nothing was changing. I was begging for them to just do something or let me leave and the head midwife said "Well, we COULD maybe give you a few more hours of pitocin but the anesthesiologist is already gone and no offense but I'm SURE you can't handle the pain without an epidural". Not only did that completely kill my self confidence to EVER have a natural birth, now I'm sitting here thinking there's something wrong with me... like, why does she think that only I can't handle it but all these other women can? So now we can add that to my long list of fears about this (and future) childbirth experiences.
So yeah, we left. Afterwards I had regular and painful contractions free of pitocin for over 6 hours so we called the hospital and they basically told me to stay home until they got worse and if they didn't, then to come back on Thursday morning (coincidentally, my due date) to check my progress.
Theres soooo much more to this story but between the induction, the pain and sleeping I couldn't possibly write it all out now. Thank you all so much for keeping up with this... It's really so nice to think that so many strangers care about me and my baby
Especially when it seems like my own doctor and hospital don't give a crap. Hopefully this week I will have Norah in my arms and I never have to go back to that wretched place again.