I know exactly how you are feeling. It was such a roller coaster for me. I'd go for an US expecting the worst. Then we'd see something. Go back in a week spotting and again expecting the worst. Then the something grew a bit. Went back a week later, still no HB. I was just ready for it all to be over.
Low hCG doesnt really indicate pmp. Did the Dr mention it could be related this time? How long before you conceived again? The plus side is that you can conceive a baby. Thats half the battle!
I hope the wait goes fast for you!
I am in the early pregnancy unit so see a diff doc each time. So none of them have mentioned my previous miscarriage and I haven't asked as of yet. It can be quite annoying as they are mostly foreign docs and because of that they often don't understand what I am asking so I don't get the answers I want. I hope next time I meet an Irish doc and at least they will fully understand what I am asking.
I am so anxious though. I so hope everything is ok but I am afraid to think it, I would prefer to be prepared if there is a chance it won't be ok. I got very bad last night, I started thinking if this is a molar and my last was an undiagnosed molar then I have a high chance of another one and maybe all my eggs are bad and I will never have a baby. I know I shouldn't think like that but it is so hard.
I am trying to convince myself that surely the cysts would have gotten worse over time and not better if it were molar and surely the baby wouldn't be measuring right. I feel so down right now. I picked myself up quickly after the last miscarriage but if this is another one I really don't know how I will cope.
Oh yeah and I conceived again 2 months after the misc. But I did a preg test 10 days after the mc and it was negative and did another one a few weeks later to see if I was pregnant and it was negative so I don't think that would have affected it?
Thanks everyone for listening.
Yeah, I'm sure the Dr thing is frustrating. I am not good dealing with very thick accents. My son's pediatrician is Indian and she speaks very quickly, she is super nice, but I have such a hard time understanding her. I would hate dealing with a different Dr every time.
Here is my take on the cysts being molar related, keep in mind my knowledge is very limited, but I have tried to read everything I can find online. And I am certainly not trying to give you any false hope. I understand your feelings about wanting to emotionally prepare yourself if things dont go well. Anyway, here are my thoughts...having a fetus with a HB, yes could possibly be partial molar, but cysts are more consistent with complete molar. Something about it just doesnt make sense to me. Are the Drs giving you any other explanation to the cysts other than pmp?
With a complete molar, it is caused by a defect in the egg, no genetic code and no fetus ever develops. Just clusters of cysts. With a pmp, by some crazy luck two sperm get into the egg at the exact same nanosecond, resulting in too much genetic code. Do you see why this seems odd to me? One scenario I can come up with that would account for the cysts being molar, which would also account for your high hCG levels is a twin pregnancy one complete molar and one normal. I have no idea if this is even a possibility in your case or not. I'm just kind of sharing my thoughts.
I can relate to your comment about your eggs being to blame. I did that after only one m/c, especially considering my age. Bad eggs dont result in pmp though. I am active in a Babycenter.com group for people pregnant with their rainbow babies due in Sept. 2011 (like I am) and I cant tell you how many ladies on there are having healthy pregnancies after multiple (like 7 and 8) m/c! I know how easy it is to be protective of yourself and not allow yourself to be 100% positive about this current pregnancy, but until you get an official diagnoses the odds are in your favor that this may not be pmp.
I dont really know anything about ovarian cysts. I know the ovary produces one when you ovulate, but I am assuming the one you are referring to is different. I do have a friend who had a cyst on her ovary rupture and she was in extreme pain and ended up in the emergency room. I know if they bleed when they rupture it can be life threatening. And come to think of it, I seem to remember at my NT screening the girl doing my ultrasound mentioned a small cyst and said they can be common during pregnancy. I actually just remembered that as I was typing. I really thought nothing of it and she certainly didnt make any big deal about it.
And another thing, your levels dropped low enough to test neg on a HPT very quickly. How far along were you with the last m/c again? Of all the stories of pmp that I have read, my levels dropped quicker than anyone I read about. My loss happened very, very early and I think that is why they fell so fast and it was more than 10 days after my D&C. You'll never know 100% for sure if the last one was or wasn't pmp, but honestly, I doubt it.
My apologies for the book!
how funny that u think ur having a girl, i think the same!
