Vicki - I am really struggling to be hopeful and enjoy this pregnancy but it is very very hard. With a history of molar, at the age of 36, with no previous child and a very high hcg so early on, it's not easy to be very optimistic unfortunately. That said, I'm beginning to realize, every day will bring more worries and they will most probably quadruple when/if I have a baby. So I guess you are more than right, I should relax but first I need to learn how.
Jacky - I will have another draw on Tuesday and will have a scan on Friday. Hopefully we'll be able to see the sac and at least the yolk. Twins do not run in either families but who knows? I'd be delighted.
Vegas - I actually looked up your numbers and they are way lower. 744 at 17dpo! I may be at most 19dpo, and almost 4000
I tried to search online but many threads are left after a while, and it is impossible to guess what happened. Some say they had high hcg which turned out to be multiples, some say it doesn't have to be strictly so. None seems to end up with a molar, although they don't exactly mention a history of such.
So I'm confused and worried but since all I can do is wait until Friday, that is what I will do. And I will try to find some ways to relax myself. Maybe try out yoga or meditation?!