AmandaLucsMom
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Thanks for your reply SarahWoo. Just read your story, so glad you got your baby. Molar pregnancies are such a nightmare. Since my molar I have yet to meet anyone who has been through the same thing. Having had 3 boys before my molar, I just wish I could have a 'normal' pregnancy again - one without the worry. The subsequent 2 miscarriages haven't helped my anxiety.
The frustrating thing is that my husband and I have been so desperate for this baby to complete our family. I have 2 older boys from a previous relationship and I have my little sweetheart who is 21 months. We thought it would be nice for the youngest to have a sibling and then my hubby was going to get the op! Having fallen pregnant at the drop of a hat, I thought this time would be easy, we tried to get pregnant as soon as the little one was born, but I was breastfeeding till 6 months. However it still didn't happen and when I did find out I was pregnant I was overjoyed, a couple of weeks in I said I didn't feel pregnant, but my Dad was seriously ill in hospital and everyone put it down to that. I had a scan at 6 weeks but they said too early. At 8 weeks another scan and I was told there was only the products of conception - such a horrid phrase - and told to go home and have a natural miscarriage. I didn't start bleeding for 2 more weeks, and started suffering terrible sickness - whenever I spoke to the hospital they told me "to get on with it". I was soaking through pads within 5 mins. After a week the hospital eventually decided to scan me and spotted a complete molar and my hcg was through the roof. I was booked in for a d&c the next day. It was such a heart breaking situation. Thankfully my hcg levels dropped back to normal very quickly and I didn't need any chemo or anything.
Hello Alwilan. Welcome to our little support group. I am so very sorry for the experiences you've had and how difficult it was during your molar miscarriage. Thank goodness you had a rescan rather than letting you "get on with it" for much longer. When I had my loss noting was happening as far as a natural miscarriage and after a few weeks I just couldnt take it any more and went the D&C route. I'm very glad I did since that was how I found out my loss was due to pmp.
As for getting though these early weeks, I'm sorry to say I dont have very much to offer. They dragged along for me and I was worried everyday. I didnt stop looking for blood on the toilet paper until 18 weeks or so and I still occasionally have a peek. I actually have to make myself not look.
The only thing that got me through my loss was my little boy and focusing on him is the only thing that kept me from complete obsession with losing this baby. Everyday I expected something to be wrong and before every Dr appt I was (and am still) filled with such anxiety about something going wrong.
I think talking about your worries, just getting them out of your head, will help you to feel some relief. Unfortunately, people who haven't been through what you have been through sometimes think you are being irrational (at least this has been my experience). I still have worries if I don't feel the baby move in 6 or 8 hours and even my husband kind of rolled his eyes the other night when I told him I was worried, which of course, sent me flying up the stairs, tears in my eyes. People who haven't been through it just don't know the anguish you feel in your heart. All of us have felt it and can relate.
I'm sure you already know that worry and stress isnt doing you or your growing baby any good and I think they only thing you can do is to try to be positive. Tell yourself that the third time WILL be the charm and it WILL happen this time. I pray you get your rainbow baby this time. I know its been so hard for you and you deserve this!
When is your next appt?