Hi everyone,
I am new here. Honestly, I am hesitant about doing this forum thing - I've never done it before but I'm just looking for an outlet, I guess. Several of your stories are all very encouraging and I am really sorry that we've all had to go through these weird pregnancy issues. People who haven't had a miscarriage truly don't understand the feelings. In my case, my own mom has had a difficult time relating to what I've been going through and I feel pretty confused/lost. I start therapy at the end of the month - not only to work through this loss, but some additional pregnancy losses I've experienced in my past.
My husband and I found out we were pregnant in June 2011. I had terrible all day sickness - you know, the usual. Then in August - I had this feeling something wasn't right so I insisted on an appointment and found there was no heartbeat.
I had to wait two weeks to see if the fetus would pass on its own, but it didn't. So I opted for the D&C and then a week after the D&C I started bleeding heavy clots and having intense cramping. I went into my crappy doctor and she confirmed a partial mole. I went to a specialist a week later - and he confirmed a partial twin mole. Meaning we had one viable fetus and one PMP fetus. I guess when my awesome doctor did the D&C she missed the second one. Why don't they always do ultrasound guided D&C? Really upset about that.
My levels dropped quickly - and were never really high. I am a lucky one, I know. I was so relieved I wouldn't have to have chemo - that honestly, I wasn't as hurt about the loss of the baby(ies) because I was so terrified. Now that things are settling down, the babies have crept back into my thoughts and I am just straight up sad. I feel pretty alone in my feelings. Even though my husband is sad to an extent - it just hard for him to relate.
To add onto the drama - everyone around me is pregnant. My best friend, my husband's best friend's wife, my younger brother's girlfriend, cousins, friends, - it just seems like everyone. And we both feel so alone in our sadness. And at the same time, we're happy for everyone. It's just hard. Sounds selfish, right?
I was told to wait 6 months before giving it the old college try again. However, with my levels as low as they were to begin with, I am comfortable with not waiting the recommended time. We're thinking Dec, which puts us 4 months out - and it usually takes 3-6 months to get those two lines.
Anyone on here have a twin mole before? Is it difficult to get pregnant after a PMP? Just wondering.
Thanks for any replies.
HG