Just had some toast as feeling constantly nauseous now. At least I am still eating. I can't remember when I stopped last time, I guess it was probably quite gradual. My maths was totally wonky before too, it's exactly 4 weeks since I ov'd and with my first pregnancy it was exactly 6 weeks from my ultimate regular period so probably also 4 weeks from ov! This is it for me now! Just hoping it isn't going to last the whole pregnancy again.
Ugh, I'm feeling really worried about work today. Start back from my holidays on Tuesday so still some time yet but then it's super stress until November at least. Can I list the things I'm worried about? Don't feel the need to comment unless you want to, just a venting! lol
1) I applied for £30k funding for a bit national marine project but it's not looking good and we would have to run our events before February next year so time is running out to secure alternative funding. Feeling stressed about that as it's my baby and isn't really happening. Have this great artist doing logos for me and to say I'd initiated and project managed a marine project as well as securing tonnes of funding would be the best thing ever for my CV.
2) Got this stupid event in three weeks (when I will be so broken with ms). Working away from home for three days and have to deliver some stuff to our volunteers including a reward and recognition draft policy that NO-ONE has given me any feedback on, staff or volunteers, and I've yet to find out if the money we have for it will be available in future years and also whether or not I'm actually going to have the authority to implement it all across the organization which is as it should be.
3) I'm waiting on hearing about a job description review and pay rise. My manager changed recently and the new one knows nothing, doesn't understand what any of it is about and doesn't seem to see what my prospective role will be. I already do tonnes more than my description and have taken on this huge volunteer management role. I want it written into my description and job title as I've been there nearly 4 years and won't ever get another job otherwise as it'll look like I've no ambition. My manager said she'd have sorted it by the end of this week but there hasn't been any email from her. I need to be told I will be in charge of volunteering strategy for the whole organization in order to make all this work. We have over 250 volunteers and no formal management or strategy so we NEED this!
4) Then I've another stupid bid funding bid to write and submit for the end of October. It was meant to have gone at the end of July but my manager decided not to read it until the day before the deadline then told me not to send it. It's a project with external people so they were gutted. It was awful.
Now I will be so mashed of brain that it'll be crap anyway.
Rant over. Thanks for reading!
if I do eat something I fancy and enjoy it it tastes like the best thing in the whole world 
I had a cheese and onion sandwich for lunch and it tasted bloody brilliant 
anyone would think I had never had a cheese and onion sandwich in my life before 
sounds like you got a whole lotta work going on at the minute.....remember to take some `you time` this is important right now for both you and ickle beanie 
,thats how i feel about mushrooms on toast!. We had our treat today, tea from the chippy, it made me feel quite peaky though!
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