My IVF (ICSI) diary

[Loula]

hey FJL

What protocol are you on? could they change it to another?

GROW FOLLIES GROW!!!

 

[FJL]

Whats AMH?

They have me on an agonist and FSH. There was no mention of upping the dosage. I thought they would for sure but nope, no mention of it.

I cannot stop crying this morning, i'm just so sick of getting my hopes up only to be kicked in the guts. I have to go to work but I REALLY don't want to, its only for a few hours so hopefully I can hold back the tears for that time.

I feel convinced that this cycle will be cancelled. I can't think positive, i'm just too scared of getting my hopes up with anything. I know negative thinking isn't good, but i've done a shit load of positive thinking before and thats done sweet fuck all.

Thanks for your support girls.

 

[wannabmum]

The AMH test tells ovarian reserve etc and depending on the level that comes bk that gives clinic the best idea on what drug package is best suited to them, I will b keeping everything crossed for u that things get better over weekend, so sorry huni wish could take some of the pain away 4 u.

xxxx

 

[Mendy]

So sorry to hear this FJL!!!! I will pray for you so that those follies grow to the correct size over the weekend!!! Lot's of luck!

 

[Arcanegirl]

FJL
a couple of days can still make a big difference.my follicles grew alot over two days.

Keeping my fingers crossed for you

 

[Loula]

How are you doing today chick?

 

[FJL]

Hey Loula, still feeling like shit. Have spoken to a girl on an Aussie IVF forum as she's had a few cancelled cycles and she said that if that happens they generally do a long down reg (which is what i've just fucking well done) with a months break inbetween.

So if she's right that means that if indeed this cycle is a bust, I will have to wait another 2 1/2 months to get back to where I am now.

I am so bloody sick of waiting

It was only 4 days ago that I was starting to feel really well, I was being positive, getting back to doing things I used to enjoy etc, and now this and i'm a bitter, negative, angry soul again...

 

[wannabmum]

just wanted to let u know I'm thinking of you and hope things are growing nicely for you wish I could do more 4 u

xx

 

[Wobbles]

Hiya hun

I just wanted to wish you SO MUCH luck for this cycle - I don't understand IVF much but I do hope your cycle will not be cancelled https://www.babyandbump.com/../images/smilies/eusa_pray.gif

When will you find out if that was to happen?

x

 

[FJL]

Hey Wobs, I should find out tomorrow, or at least have more of an idea. I have a scan and bloods in the morning so hopefully the clinic will ring me late tomorrow arvo or Tuesday morning.

I will update when I know.

Thanks for all your well wishes girls, I hope my follies listen to you lot coz they sure as heck haven't listened to me!!!

I actually had a thorough look at my scan disk tonight and these are the active follies I had as of last Friday. Keeping in mind they need them to be between 18mm - 22mm for egg collection. I think they were hoping mine would've mostly been 12-14mm by last Friday, they were (for my own records and any one thats interested):

Left Ovary
10, 9, 9, 9, 24 (too big now) 8, 8, 8 & 5 (all in mm)

Right Ovary
9, 9, 8, 7, 7, 7, 7

 

[Loula]

Don't yet know enough about it to comment really FJL! I'm on a learning curve

 

[akcher]

Sprinkling some Miracle Grow on your follies

 

[FJL]

Had my scan today and while my follicles have grown a bit, still not what my FS had hoped.

He wants me to have another scan and BT on Wednesday and I think that will be the deciding day...if not, Friday for sure.

Not looking good though

The nurse told me tonight that they want at least 3 (but preferably 6+) follies that are between 18-20mm. Today, my biggest one was 13mm and I only have 1. I have 3 at 12mm, 2 at 11mm and its all downhill from there.

I feel really pissed off at my body. I know this is out of my control but I feel like my body has failed me somehow

Thanks for your well wishes girls, and wannabemum, thankyou for your thread, for some reason it wouldn't let me reply, but I reall appreciated it

 

[hayz1981]

Sorry they havent grown as much as you were hoping.
They have grown though, I will be willing them to put on an extra growth spurt over the next two days. Wishing you lots of and

xxx

 

[Loula]

I assume there's nothing you cna do to help influence it, that it's just either going to grow or not? That miraclegro sounds like a good idea

They HAVE grown though, maybe they'll put on a late spurt. is Friday the last chance then, would they then cancel?

 

[FJL]

Well the thing is that they're supposed to grow 2mm everyday, and mine seem to be around 1mm at this stage.

Loula, if they still think there is a chance on Wed, then i'm guessing i'll have another scan and BT on Friday and that will be the final decider.

I just want to know one way or another you know?

As far as things I can do to make them grow, not much I don't think, but I did read the other day that a high protein, low carb diet can help low responders. I will cook myself a big steak tomorrow night!!!

 

[pixielou]

Hi FJL, Yes, Proteins are really good for the ovaries inc. meat, chick, fish, cottage cheese, beans, nuts etc. When I get my scan I'm supposed to go in on CD 12 and they are never big enough so I always now book for CD13 but the couple of times when I have been there on CD13 they are still not big enough. I just think that I'm a slow starter(with everything) or maybe it was 'cos I took clomid on CD3or 4 instead of CD2. When did you take yours (I assume your taking clomid)

Anyways, good luck and keep munching on thoses proteins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Helen]

Gosh what a marathon you are going through at the moment.

I really hope things come good over the next few days and it's all systems go for you. You deserve it after this roller-coaster!

and some of this for the follicles:

 

[FJL]

Pixielou - no, i'm not on clomid, i'm on an agonist + FSH shots.

Thanks Helen, hopefully i'll have better news to report tomorrow.

 

[wannabmum]

Got everything crossed for you hun, I know how hard this journey is at the best of times. B thinking of you here some more


xxxx