not sure what day this is on the detox, i havent been keeping count.
I have lost all faith and belife in everything, im not sad/upset or anything, still feel great, but the events over the month have made me question things and last night it all came to a head.
this might not make to much sence, im trying to type it as it is in my head lol
with Reiki, i dont belive in it atall anymore, here are my reasons why.
your hands get very hot when doing reiki, but on the human body there are 2 heat outlets, your head and your feet, with a reiki treatment, you start at teh head, so if you put your hands on someones head(heat outlet) for 5 mins, then your hands will get hot, then as you move your hands down to the next position, the person your woeking on will notice they are hot, but i dont belive its the reiki energy, i belive its coz you have had your hands on that persons heat outlet for 5 mins.
Also, we did something called beaming last night, where you hold your hands out about chest level and send the energy over the other side of the room to a person, everyone said they could feel it working coz there hands were tingling, but my thought was, your hands are in teh air, the blood is rushing away from your hands, of course they will tingle, its nothing to do with reiki.
and the last thing on reiki, you can send absent healing, whcih means you can send healing to someone miles away but you must have there permission, then you set up a time and a place. well to me, if your telling someone, i will send you healing tonight at such an such time, then they will be looking out for it and there senses will be hightend to feel things that arnt really there.
Reiki healing? no, i think you have place the power of thought and sugestion in to there head so they are then wnating and looking for something thats not there.
Now on to the spirit side of things,
I really dont want to stop belive in this, its my faith but i dont feel i have enough proof or answers to carry on suporting it. I want to belive so much that i spoke to my mum, but without defenit proof, i cant, i personaly think, the mind is a very powerful thing and if you belive hard enough you can think you are speaking/seeing things that dont exsit.
people say they see spirit with there real eyes and see things move etc, i dont, so untill i do, i cant belive in it anymore, whcih is a bit upsetting coz i belived in it so strongly.
So anyone who has had readings from me, and are still waiting for things ive said to pan out, please ignore them.
thanks
xx