Hey Aligirl, you will make it! So so very sorry for your loss. I am new here too! I just decided after almost 6 months to join the group that has their biological clock ticking like crazy and feel the end nearing! I have been ttc for over a year now using opk's and pre-seed and charting, you name it, I have tried it. I also finally went to an RE and she put me on Clomid 100 mg. days 5-9 then trigger and IUI. No luck. Then we tried a combo of Clomid on days 3-7 and three more days of Menopur on days 7-10. Had three nice follicles and triggered. IUI 36 Hours later. No luck. Tried again (3rd IUI) and started to really feel the pressure and that maybe it would NEVER happen for me. Did Menopur Injections the whole time days 3-10 then triggered and IUI 36 hours later. No Luck! So at this point I was throughly confused and depressed. I started reading the Bible and it said, "Fear Not" so I went for it again (4th IUI). NO LUCK! So now I am completely worn out. I am not saying the Bible doesn't work, I am just saying that it is telling me not to panic and everything will be o.k. I believe it just wasn't right yet. I finally asked God, why and what should I do and told Him I was scared and confused. He told me, "Cover all your Bases." I am not crazy, I just listen and sometimes I really hear God's voice. So, I thought about what I haven't done to cover my bases as far as fertility issues and testing. I came to the conclusion that the ONLY thing I haven't done is have a Laparoscopy done. I have actually been off of birth control for well over 8 years and not gotten preggers. I use no protection (married) so I figured I have a problem but with all the testing on my and DH's part, we both look fine. This leads me to believe I MAY have a problem with Endometriosis. I suffer from SEVERE cramps durring my period and sometimes excruciating pain before and durring ovulation. This has gone on for YEARS. I have gone to a MILLION Gyns (anyways that is how it feels) and they all say the same thing, "you are young, and everhthing looks perfectly healthy from here" ;.) I had even told them about the pain and none of them even suggested LAP. So, I am going on a whim and my RE is very positive about me having one although she did say, "I don't think you need it." That always baffled me. What does that mean, "I don't think" you need it??? LOL! Anyways, I am obviously on a rant but I wanted to give you a little (or alot) of my history. I have the LAP Consult on June 24th. and my birthday is right around the corner which means I will be 39 and still not preggers. How depressing! I am trying my best to trust GOD and not think about it. Everytime I get a positive note from you ladies in the forum, I get a little ray of hope. I will keep you posted. Dear God, I hope they find something during the LAP! Maybe they can fix it and I won't have such painful cycles! Alright ladies, I promise I won't chew your ears off like this anymore. Chat later! BABY DUST TO ALL ! HUGS! Take care Aligirl, you will get your BFP before you know it. Don't take my post as if the same thing will happen to you, everyone is different. Just think, you got preggers so you are deffinately able to conceive! God bless you.