First of all....say some prayers for my lovely Apple Blossom who is beginning her IVF treatment today after 6 years of trying!
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to you! I'll be thinking about you!!
On a crappier note, I had a pretty bad night last night. My sister talked me into going to my nephews christmas program (this is the sister who had the fiance that choked and beat her while she was six months pregnant with my 3 year old nephew watching)
I'm terrified my nephew is going to be like his father. He has no discipline and he was screwing around on stage and are you ready for this? He started acting like he was hitting baby jesus. It was a doll, but still, i was mortified and I didn't even know I wanted to tell anyone.
That's not the worst part, the worst part is I have to see my sisters ex fiance with his new wife. Firstly, every time i see his smug stupid smile on his pretty face, it fills me with rage. That night he did that to my sister and niece I could have murdered him if I knew I wouldn't go to prison. I'd actually be doing the world a favor. I wouldn't ever murder someone, but that's how much rage fills me. What a piece of filthy scum. UGH. I just found out his wife was pregnant also. Apparently God can give the scum of the earth kid after kid, even though he almost killed one before it was born right in front of the other, and can't even be a father to them...but I was expecting to see her and hate her *knowing* she has a little tiny start of a baby...no she has a portruding baby bump thats sticking right in my face.
Plus I felt horrible because my other niece was clinging to me and was screaming she had to go with my parents. I don't know why she doesn't like them. My family had some drama and we barely got to see her the first two years of her life and I think that I look like her dad (my brother) and that's why she clings to me...I literally had to peel her off me, and I was thinking, why can't this be my child? Why me? What did we do that was SO wrong that we don't deserve to raise and love a child of our own when pieces of scum get handed baby after baby. So sick. I cried all the way home and again when I got home. Hubby didn't know what to say because he was hurting too but he tried cheering me up anyways. He's my favorite person in the world.
MrsB: I'm on clomid (the one that makes you Ov) and Metformin (the diabetes one) I don't have time to write everything out now, but yes, I'm ALWAYS tired. I don't know if it's from the PCOS or what but Ihate it and have been struggling with it my whole life. I gained weight after I got off bcp because the fake horomones were suppressing my PCOS horomones and I have embarrarssing facial and body hair...and I break out WAYY more than I used to ever on bcp. And I can feel my cysts and had non existant cycles when I wasnt' on clomid.I haven't had success with them yet, but a lot of girls do!
KeeKee: I hope you caught this time. That's weird you're oving so early, but hopefully it's a great little egg that was ready just at the perfect time for you.
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I feel your pain, I hate it when DH has to go out of town for work. ESPECIALLY during fertile time.
. Least we got some BDing in last night and might go for round 2 later today. Saw the breast surgeon yesterday and I've got another op early next year to have my implant exchanged for a fuller one so am happy with that. It's filthy weather here (gales/rain) so am going to spend the day lying on the sofa and watching crappy daytime TV when OH goes to work 
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