NOVEMBER 2015 RAINBOWS. Please Join Us!

[klsltsp]

I just sent my best friend (who's a family doctor) a picture of my tests lol

She called me freaking out, put in a requisition for me to have bloodwork done... so I will go tomorrow and then thursday, so should know by friday if my levels are doubling nicely or not

She said she won't cc my ob since he'll just think that we're crazy hahaha I'm very lucky to have a doctor friend!

 

[Dill]

I got my 3+ weeks on a digi today -- SUCH A RELIEF!!!

It help makes up for the nausea, haha.

 

[girlinyork]

Embo, I know a user on here who's nifty with graphics. I can ask her to do a "November Rainbows" graphic if you're happy for that x

 

[SweetV]

Dill - I think that's the worst part is the food aversions. I love food! There is nothing worse than wanting something and then not wanting it. I find I cook something and the whole time I can't wait for it to be done after one bite I can't even get it down. . Are you feeling better today?

Em - the fruit sounds delicious! Until I go to eat it lol. I also decided not to go down the high risk route this time but found myself on the phone with the doctor this morning. I'm going tomorrow to have beta's and progesterone checked and I would like a scan at 6-7 weeks to confirm hb as I have had all mmc and I would like to know sooner than later if there are going to be complications. I love the theory and I remind myself the same when I start to get anxious. At this moment I am pregnant and have no reason to believe things will not progress normally. I felt so good yesterday and today was filled with doubt. One day at a time.

klsltsp - I can't believe your OH doesn't know. I'm so bad with secrets! I wanted to hold off and surprise him with an us pic but I couldn't wait! Yay for the tickers!! It somehow makes it more real. I really hope they wouldn't have to do a hysterectomy but of course everything is going to work out fabulous anyways.

tcinks- that's great that your doctor will see you early! I hope your appointment goes well.

girlinyork - welcome! That's a whole lot of birthdays on one day should this little one make an appearance on it's due date!

3chords - I'm sorry you're not well! Hopefully the great news at your scan will make it all worth it!

afm - no symptoms this morning which made cry then I realized that was a symptom and felt better . I really wanted to take this easy and not go all crazy with the doctors appts as it didn't help at all with my last 2 mc but I called the high risk clinic this morning and I go in tomorrow. I think I'm just a bit of a control freak that wants reassurance as I need it. .

 

[Dill]

Dill - I think that's the worst part is the food aversions. I love food! There is nothing worse than wanting something and then not wanting it. I find I cook something and the whole time I can't wait for it to be done after one bite I can't even get it down. . Are you feeling better today?

Yes, this has been me! I want something specific, I get it, I MIGHT be able to eat it once, and then I never want to see or smell it again. All my usual go-to snacks and meals make me want to hurl!

As for feeling better, my migraine is almost licked, but the rest of my symptoms are business as usual. My bbs are even more painful than ever. It is absolute agony going up and down the stairs at work! Every jiggle makes me gasp in pain.

 

[SweetV]

Glad to hear the migraine has tapered off a bit. I know exactly what you mean about the boobs. I cried out when I took my bra off after work.

 

[Dill]

Aaaaaaaand now a crying fit after work. Hubby is blowing an astounding amount of money on his boy toys and a bit of bro time (a week-ish) with the guys, and I'm freaking out because

a. uhm, we're having a baby, and
b. my "cancer dog" may finally have reached terminal stage after 4 years of surgeries and struggle

I am such a bloated, gagging, sobbing wreck right now.

 

[tcinks]

Oh dill. That would probably send me into a fit as well! Did you talk to him about how you feel about it?!

 

[Dill]

He won't be home from work for several hours now. He dropped the bomb on the expense and why he won't get the work done cheaper somewhere else via FB messenger while he was at work. I was polite about it ("Well, the cheaper place would still give you a week or two of leeway, but it's your money, and if you're concerned about cutting it too close to your vacation, that's your decision,") but he was a jerk about it, so I pointed out how much I work and how I help him carry his expenses (I work two jobs, one full-time and one half-time, 7 days a week between the two, and I pay for all our evenings out, AND now I'm pregnant and exhausted and sick), he just shrugged it off, and that's when I pretty much broke down. Literally every dime he has in savings is going to this trip and getting his boy toys fixed, and here I come home from a full day's work at the office and then work more at my second job, cook dinner, do dishes, and now the added expense of either a fourth surgery (if not terminal) or medication/palliative care for my assistance dog ... and he doesn't even care about the added strain of it ...

I told him fine, just go enjoy his frivolous spending and bro time while he can, because being a dad is going to change everything. I mean it. He needs one last hurrah with the guys before jumping into fatherhood. But that won't stop me from stressing about money. Just being pregnant gets expensive, let alone childbirth.

I feel conflicted, but what keeps circling back in my mind is how irresponsible he's being. I know he doesn't feel like this is a real baby right now, and he goes on this trip every year, but seriously...!

 

[Embo78]

Good luck with your scan 3chords

GIY - that would be awesome to have a November Rainbow Baby graphic

SweetV, it's lovely to hear you being so positive. When my losses were fresh in my mind there's no way I could've waited til 12 weeks for a scan. I needed to KNOW if my baby was ok. I was scanned every two weeks with Max. Unfortunately for me it didn't help my anxiety one little bit. With every single positive scan my husband became more and more attached and I just kept thinking, don't get attached, he might be ok now but by the next scan he'll be gone. I just know it!
I think that's why I'm happy to go with hubby and the decision not to scan til 12 weeks cos for me it makes absolutely no difference what so ever!!

Dill, my boobs are getting more and more sore every day. When I run up and down stairs at work is when I feel them the most! Sorry hubby is causing you grief again

AFM My symptoms are so much stronger today and I love it. My tests are progressing beautifully. Here's a progression pic of my IC's and my latest FRER

 

[Love4you]

Hi girls! Hope it's ok that I join in?
I had a MMC at 8 weeks at the end of Dec. Then waited forever for AF to show which she did on 2/8. Since I was unsure how my cycle would go, hubby and I got frisky every other day for 2 weeks!
Got my BFP on Sunday (2 days before AF). Thank goodness because I'm still tired after all the BDing!!

I hesitated to join a group because I still don't feel pregnant. And I'm very nervous that something will go wrong.
My OB put our loss as chromosomal as I'm 38 and hubby is 44 and we've had 4 problem free pregnancies prior.
Unfortunately I can't fix chromosomal issues so I'm just praying that we caught the good egg.

So, that's my story. I hope to be here with you all to support and worry with you.
My EDD is 11/15 and my bday is 11/13 so I'm hoping that's a positive sign 😊

 

[secondstar]

We just got our bfp yesterday after losing our son at 20 week's in November. I'm a nervous wreck, the first trimester is hard enough without the Anxiety from a previous miscarriage! Our son was perfectly healthy and they couldn't find anything wrong so I dont even know what to do differently! fingers crossed for everyone to have a good ol' boring pregnancy

 

[SweetV]

Dill - I'm so sorry your husband is causing you grief. It's hard because we are a little off balance anyways (thanks to pal and hormones in general). Take a deep breath. I know in my situation it never matters $ is still a huge stress. I also pay for all the fun stuff and DH likes to spend his $ on crap. In a few months I will need his $. I hope you feel a little better today.


Em - nice line progressions! I know what you mean about extra appointments adding stress. With my last mmc I was there every week waiting for the bad news until I finally got it.


Love4you - I'm sorry for your loss but welcome!!

secondstar - I've also had a second trimester loss with a perfect baby (I am so so sorry!). I think this pregnancy will be filled with anxiety but chatting with the ladies on these boards always puts my mind at ease.

 

[Embo78]

Welcome love4you and secondstar :wave:

It's so heartbreaking to read about your second trimester losses the furthest I got with my angels was 12 weeks but I knew for a few weeks that the chances of having a successful pregnancy were slim. I was showing weeks behind but that little flicker of a heartbeat kept everyone going for a while. Not me though. I was positive on my dates

 

[klsltsp]

good morning ladies

Welcome love4you and secondstar sorry for your losses

Dill I agree take a deep breath... I know easier said than done... I think sometimes men are afraid that they are not going to be able to do fun things after the baby comes. Hopefully once you guys have an ultrasound and he sees that little baby... he will come around. Big hugs!!

Embo awesome progressions!!!

AFM well did bloodwork yesterday, my levels are 1338... not bad I think that was at 18/19 dpo... explains not having the 3+ yet I should get the 3+ today or tomorrow. Going to do another beta tomorrow... if the levels are increasing well, I may tell OH... maybe... lol

Hope you all have a wonderful day.

Kim

 

[Embo78]

kls how on earth are you keeping such a huge secret!? Has he not guessed something is going on with you?

 

[klsltsp]

haha em I'm not going to lie.. it's HARD!! and if it wasn't something that he's expressed several times he would LOOVE for me to do I would have caved by now.

He has always said that it would be awesome for me to just tell him the morning before going to an u/s... hahaha...

I know he's a HUGE worrier, and after 3 losses since Aug 2013... I don't mind handling this on my own for now, I have you ladies and my best friend who's a doctor so that helps.

I'm surprised that he hasn't noticed that I'm not drinking my tea... but I had started a weight loss thing were I cut out tea anyways... so I think he just thinks I'm doing that lol

 

[Embo78]

I totally understand hun. When I got pregnant with Max my hubby was out of work and already had the weight of the world on his shoulders. It took me a couple of days to pluck up the courage to spill the beans. I just didn't want to add to all the worries he was already dealing with.

All my friends on here were giving me ideas on how to tell him When I finally did he was scared but happy and he got a really good job the month after too

 

[klsltsp]

Hey love4you, meant to say, that they too have chalked up 2 of my 3 mc to chromosomal stuff due to my age (OH and I are both 39). My second mc just implanted in the wrong place...

So I too am hoping we caught one of the good eggs that are still left!!

chat soon.

Kim

 

[SweetV]

had my betas done about an hour ago. Should have the results by mid afternoon today!