Hello ladies

we don't seem to be very active lately

are our worries decreasing? maybe that's why
This is a very looooooong post
Klein and Dahlia - thanks for the advice

this will be my first so taking note
Sharon - yay for your scan! cute pic!! mine were pretty bad I guess because they are meant to show some stuff to my doctor, being the nT scan
tuckie - Glad you had a great scan too!! thanks for watching the vid
Alandsa - I had to google marmite because i had no idea of what it was, it looks yummy!! wish I had tried it when I was in England!!! too late now
Mrs England - Welcome to the group

I also conceived 3 weeks after my mc and so far so good, happy and healthy pregnancy to you!!
Life doesn't seem to be very exciting lately

I just sit at home the whole day and play with my dog.
LO's dad has been emailing and insisting he wants to be part of baby's life and he will be here for the delivery and how excited he is and all that. Is just sad that I will forever have to talk to him, I mean i don't hate him but he makes me feel like such a bad woman now that I know he's married (of course I don't have anything with him anymore, that's so over)
I told you a while ago I had been bad too...well today I'll tell you why

During my last contract on a different cruise ship last year I met this colombian guy, not handsome really but umm he insisted so much that he liked me and I was with nobody for like 5 months and 1 year before that so one day I said to myself: what the heck, I'll give him a chance

he was great, used to drink a bit at the crew bar and one day i told him i don't like you drinking and he stopped completely lol. One day I was a little tipsy ( Ididn't stop drinking LOL) and he said: I LOVE YOU

and I just started laughing without control because I was sure he was joking... then he cried and well I said i was sorry but it was too early for me to love him yet.
Months passed and we were still together so we got close, still no love love from me but he was so sweet, i would call him on my afternoon break ( 2 or 3 hours) and he would go to my cabin and rub my feet. If i was going shopping he asked if he could go so he could carry my bags lol.
Well I was very bad, he left the ship on vacation on August and we already knew we would be going to different ships on the next contract. We called each other a couple of times and the lost contact.
I assumed it was over but still emailed him and asked to call me when i got to Costa Rica. He called and I told him I wanted to tell him I was pregnant before someone else would, he said: Ay Catalina

I don't know what to say... then he asked about the baby's father and if he was going to take care of me and baby, I said I don't know really... we spoke a bit more and then he said: I was waiting for you you know? I know you're pregnant but I love you still. I will resign and go to Costa Rica and take care of you

I asked him to relax and finish his contract, don't do anything crazy.
Since then he emails once in a while and the ship he's on will be in my country on the 7th ad they are crossing to go to Seattle and then Alaska. he emailed asking for my address so he could come and visit but i live like 2 hours away so the only way would be if I go see him. I asked if he didn't mind as I'm already showing and many of our friends in common are still on the ship, he said he doesn't care about anyone but me
Well I really don't know what to do. I feel like i want to see him and see if there is something still there, but on the other side i also feel like I would be taking advantage of him

what do I do?? Am I being too selfish?
Oh wow that was longer than I thought

sorry about that girls i just had to get it off my chest

I hope I you can understand everything that i wrote, english is not my language and I get all lost sometimes.
On a side note *clears throat* I'm officially on 2nd trimester!! yayyy!!
Hope everything is going wonderful for all of you lovely ladies

have an awesome Monday
