Hello ladies
I wanted to stay away while my mood came back to normal, I'm alright now.
Dahlia I am so sorry to hear about baby Max

hugs to you and your family.
Klein those pics are amazing!!

so so soooo cute

I wish I had that kind of skills
Well I was sad and extremely worried because I had absolutely no money for my vitamins and progesterone and I had lik 3 days left of progesterone in my drawer. The guy I told you about a while ago randomly called ans said he sent a bit of money for me, that was 300$ and well here that's more than just a bit, so I bought progesterone and vitamines for 2 more months just in case.
I guess i just got really frustrated, when I got pregnant I left behind a 5000$ a month job, I was used to having everything I wanted and always having money in my pocket and well, I was feeling useless pretty much knowing that progesterone is vital for this pregnancy and not being able to buy it.
I live at my dad's and he buys everything we need, I actually think i eat a bit too much, but I didn't want to ask for my medication it just feels so wrong, well i didn't have to ask.
I had my last obgyn appointment at 15 weeks and had to cancel this one because I umm still have no money for the doctor BUT since all hospital are owned by the state and I have to give birth there I decided to go for Government covered medical insurance, after all I paid so much money for so many years when I was working here and now that I am pregnant well I need it, I was told it takes like 2 weeks for the approval to come back but that's alright.
The best for last, one week ago i was laying on my left side and suddenly felt a kick!! no fishies or butterflies anymore, a real kick!! and then another one !being this the first time ever in my life I felt something like this I wanted to feel it again and tried not to move until I felt a third one that almost made me pee my pants

I guess this is how pregnant women know that baby kicked their bladder

Now I feel him al the time, stronger every day

still nothing from the outside but being that I am plus size and barely look pregnant that's alright
Thank you so much for your kind words, I did read what you wrote

and it did help a lot.
So... halfway the pregnancy and saw a felt mobile someone on 2nd tri was doing... I might give that a try, anyone else feeling crafty?