Thanks ladies. Apple I won't feel like a failure or anything like that, I'm just scared I'll die, lol. I can laugh at that fear now, but I just don't want one. Doesn't help that two of my friends on facebook posted a very graphic video of a c-section, the type of video that starts playing automatically without having to click on it, and like watching a train wreck you can't pull your eyes away. I have friends that had have had elective sections instead of trying for natural, nothing wrong with that at all. I'm just afraid of bleeding out, or maybe epi doesn't take and I'll have to go under and I don't wake up. I've never had surgery before, and I know I'm being rediculous...
I thought of another at least. At least the baby will be here before Thanksgiving and I can eat all the great food mother in law cooks.