Violets appointment did not go well. Have been upset for a few days. Bad news right after bad news. Ugh.
So for TTC news, today will be day 3 of Clomid so we are keeping our fingers crossed and planning to BD about every five minutes. Lol. So far, DH isn't going to China but today the bosses have started circling. It makes me nervous. This is what happened last year when he ended up snatched up and sent to Canada. I can't go with because my passport isn't renewed yet. The process is begun but it should be another few weeks yet. Plus I don't fly. I used to. It didn't bother me for years and years. But then I had several horrendous flights in a row and now even the thought of getting on an airplane makes me get dizzy and cry. And when I say horrendous flights, I mean truly horrendous. Sudden losses of 10,000 feet of altitude or more. Peoples belongings flying around the cabin, people screaming their heads off, people without seatbelts on banging headfirst into overhead baggage compartments, sudden sideways loss of altitude DURING TAKEOFF!!! Seriously, I can't do it. If I had any control over it, none of you people would be able to fly! We would all take boat rides everywhere! Lol
As for Violet, I think you guys know she and her twin brother were born via emergency c section at 24 weeks due to an uncontrolled infection in their mother and a rupture in one of their sacs. So, two years ago we took them both to a neuropsychologist to be tested for any actual brain issues that could have happened from their birth trauma. Two years ago, they both had ADHD and some fine motor skills issues and that was mostly it. Well with Violets recent issues, we took her back for testing again, citing the severe anxiety and problems doing schoolwork as major concerns. So they tested her for an entire day, all these different types of tests. And she still has ADHD, of course. But she also has severe dyslexia. Her visual organization skills have gotten worse. Her brain processing speed and motor skills have deteriorated so drastically that the doctor said it looks like she might have a brain tumor. It's that bad. However, she and her brother had MRIs on their brains just over a year ago and they showed no issue. So he said he's not sure how things could have gotten so much worse. He believes her anxiety is coming from constantly being in trouble for always doing the wrong thing, behaviorally, academically, etc. He believes she is setting into a "well I can't do anything right so screw it" sort of attitude which would obviously be detrimental. So he suggests we find a THING that can be her thing, that she enjoys and is good at and can be encouraged and complimented over to help prevent her from going full on into not caring. Also, she needs to be back on her ADHD meds (which Nora took her off of without even discussing it with us) and another medicine at night to help with anxiety. So, we are going to take her for another brain MRI, just in case, and get her back on meds. And basically we are going to have to fight with the school to get someone to help her all day, basically. He said her dyslexia is so severe that he can't believe she can even recognize her sight words. She cannot read. Her twin can read anything you put in front of him, big huge words, even. She can't sound out the word "stop" despite knowing all the sounds for all the letters. I don't want things to be difficult for her. This all breaks my heart. I just hate it.
Now that ur ovulating it will happen, don't lose hope. It's gonna happen soon! Thinking of you!
but he keeps me warm I suppose.
