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[InVivoVeritas]

Mowat -- you're right, the worrying never ends. Hope those babies don't keep you waiting too much longer -- you've obviously made them very comfy in there.

Blue -- darn baby brain. Bet you were witty and eloquent in that post too!! What day this week is your scan?

dairy -- really hope that this is just the blighted ovum, and that your other little one is snuggled in tight. Take it absolutely easy -- sending all my good thoughts to you.

 

[blueblue]

Dairy - I really hope it's the blighted ovum and your little one will be ok. Are you seeing the doctor soon?

ivv - it's wednesday this week, hope the spotting has stopped

Mowat - hope your little ones come out safe and sound very soon

 

[dairymomma]

I passed a palm sized *thing*. I've never seen anything like it before. Clear gooey looking stuff with red streaks in it and a quarter sized clot in the middle. Didn't look like my other BOs but I've never m/c a BO twin before...Not much discomfort this morning though, mostly just a mild backache, and the bleeding is down to light flow. Sorta feeling nauseated too but very mild and no other pg signs. Cervix is still high but def softer. So I'm in limbo. Trying to decide what to do with my day now. I'm supposed to bring my kids to an appt 2.5 hours away but don't think I dare go that far on my own with all 3 kids while this is going on. I do know that I'm calling the dr and requesting a scan this week though. Be nice to know if that sac is gone and if they can tell how baby is doing. I'm not freaking out (surprisingly) but I wouldn't mind knowing either.

 

[dairymomma]

Forgot to add that my next scheduled scan isn't until next wednesday, hence the call the dr today. Even if I'm not worried, I'd still like them to take a look around after all the bleeding I had this weekend...

 

[Hope39]

Dairy - would that have been the sac that you passed maybe? I really cant help because all of my mc have gone straight down the toilet and i never looked

Can i ask how you know your cervix is still high? Probably a daft question and i think i know the answer. You should really be careful if you doing what i think you are, lol, you don't want any infections up there especially if you are still pregnant

Here in the uk doctors will only give an internal if it is an absolute must because of the risk of infection

xx

 

[Mrs Reineke]

Good morning ladies,

blue, good luck with your scan on Wednesday!! Excited to hear about it!!

nessaw, good to hear from you and the 3+ is a great sign!!

dairy, I'm hoping it was the BO sac you passed and your othere little one is hanging on tight. Please update us as soon as you know more.

SweetV, that's awesome you found the hb so early!! So exciting!!

mowat, I'm waiting for those babies to arrive!! Congrats on 39 weeks!!

AFM: I'm 18 weeks today!! I can't believe it!! 2 more weeks and I'll be half way done!! My next appointment is on the 16th and it's just a check up, but I get to schedule my anatomy scan then as well. My doctor likes to wait until 22 weeks to do it, but I'm going to see if she'll do it at 20-21 weeks because my husband and I are so anxious to find out what we're having already!! I'm feeling fluttering movements every day now multiple times. I still use my doppler every couple days as reassurance, but I've found a lot of the time it's harder for it to registar an accurate hb because I'll find it for a sec and then it moves, so my doppler doesn't have time to registar it. Is that normal? I'm assuming it is. The little bugger is active obviously!! I think it's right between 140-150 approx. But it won't hold still long enough. LOL!!

 

[dairymomma]

Hope-I can kind of tell where my cervix is just by how it feels inside down there. Yes, I've done the no-no thing a few times (just a quick check with a clean washed finger) but usually, my cervix feels like it's been roughed up a bit with sandpaper and I can tell where it is by where I feel that tingle. This morning, I didn't check it with my finger but the tingle was higher up by my bladder and everything feels just feels more swollen/squishier. Hence my 'high cervix but soft'. When my cervix is low, it feels like it's literally falling out of me and almost like I'm sitting on it so that's how I tell it's low.

And just got home from the dr's. I had a scan and a quick visit with him after to go over a few things. Next scan is scheduled for next Wednesday and again, I see him right after. Today's scan though showed baby is still there, still measuring where s/he should be, and strong hb. (Strong enough the sonographer was able to let me hear it.) They did see a spot where the bleeding is likely coming from but no reason for why it started. And I didn't pass the empty sac. I didn't pass it because the empty sac is no longer empty. It's grown and there's a fetal pole/yolk sac visible now BUT since it's measuring 5 weeksish to the baby's 8 weeks, the dr isn't too optimistic. I don't know if the amount of growth for the second sac is equivalent to the amount of time since my last scan but the dr made it sound like it wasn't a lot of growth. Next week's ultrasound should give us a better idea of what's going on with that twin but the dr said he's never had a patient who's had this happen. He's exact words were along the lines of 'it'll be one for the record books' if the other twin is for some miraculous reason viable.

 

[hopeful23456]

wow dairy that is strange! what a rollercoaster. glad at least one has a heartbeat!

hope - lol - I thought the same thing. Dairy - stop checking up there haha I never checked a cervix and would have no clue how. maybe it causes bleeding from poking at it so much.

mrsr - glad you are doing well! 18 weeks, time is flying!

 

[Hope39]

I would have absolutely no idea if my cervix is high or low or soft or hard , lol xx

Did your doc say what it was he thought you passed earlier? Are your cervix closed too? Your certainly different, lol,

Xx

 

[dairymomma]

I'm just ultra aware of it this time because of this weird tingle. The dr said the rough feeling/tingle sensation is likely due to irritation from the bleeding coming out and/or the progesterone but I notice every time the tingle is obvious enough for me to tell where my cervix is, I've had a bleed so I'm thinking it's the bleeding. I don't check my cervical position with my finger very often (maybe 3 times total this whole pregnancy and I haven't in over a week) because I'm worried about infection too.

 

[SweetV]

Mrs. R. - I hope they do your anatomy scan for you soon! I have no patience either I wish they could tell me today!

Dairy - I'm so glad that baby is still doing well in there and you got to hear the heartbeat! That's amazing news especially that the other is growing! Hopefully the bleeding stops for you soon or they figure out what is causing it so they can fix it for you.

I have to do the progesterone suppositories 2x/day so i can quite often feel my cervix without trying. It seems to move a lot. The other day it felt like it was going to fall out and I could feel it when I was sitting down. That's never happened to me before that I can recall.

 

[loeylo]

Been busy/trying to distract myself and not fuel my worries any by posting here but have still been reading every day!

Dairy wow! That's quite a story! Maybe you ovulated twice and the second one implanted late? Fingers crossed for at least one healthy baby!

Mrs r - totally get your worries! Hopefully they can bring your scan forward a bit - if not could you maybe squeeze in a private one? Places near me are doing it really cheap!

Apologies to everyone I have missed - I am posting from my phone and feeling really ill, got a heavy cold and can't take anything for it

I'm nearly 13w now, all is going well and my belly is getting round! I have fairly poor core muscles and I carry most of my weight at my belly so I guess it could be expected. Got my first midwife prebooking appointment tomorrow (at 12+6!) and my booking appointment at 13+6 so not going to get the nt measurement done as they don't schedule a scan until the second appointment. I'm slightly bummed at that! Not had a scan since 10+1 so getting really nervous. I bought a doppler online and expect it to arrive tomorrow so going to see if it can pick anything up to reassure me. Also, we have announced! Everyone is delighted especially my family as this will be the first grandchild for my parents/niece or nephew for my sister.

 

[Mrs Reineke]

dairy, holy cow!! I can't believe that the other baby is possibly viable!!! This is crazy!! I'm wondering too if you ovulated twice and the 2nd one implanted late? Wouldn't that be amazing!!

Thank you hopeful!!

loeylo, congrats on being almost 13 weeks!! How exciting!! I'm so sorry you're not feeling great. Try to rest and drink lots of water. I've contemplated a private scan, but after talking to my husband he told me to be patient. He said I've waited this long, what's a few more weeks. He's so logical and I'm not. LOL!! So I'll see if I can maybe get it done a week or 2 before she normally does it (22 weeks) and if not, then that's how it goes.

 

[dairymomma]

I hate hate HATE posting this but as per my usual evening routine, I'm cramping and bleeding. (I hate posting about bleeds but this is the only place where I feel comfortable talking about it.) I'm in quite a bit of pain. Lots more than last night and this is just screaming "Miscarriage happening N.O.W." Bleeding is up to med/heavy flow and I'm losing large clots. I've never had this much discomfort/bleeding and it NOT been a miscarriage. I really think it's over this time. It just hurts way too much.

To make matters worse, I'm feeling so queasy, I'm gagging off and on. This sucks. If it is a miscarriage, I just want it over with. I want the whole mess done so I can move on. If it's not, then why the f*#$ is my uterus rebelling against me? I'm so tired of this routine....If you can't tell.

Edit: I do want to add something that I said to both the dr and the sonographer earlier. When I'm at this point, I usually k.n.o.w. something is up and that it's over. But this time, I can't get a read on things. I honestly can't tell if I should hope or not right now, despite what my body is literally yelling at me. Maybe it's mother's intuition and I just know bubs will hang on? Whatever the reason, it's the first time in all of my pregnancies where I've been unable to get a handle on how I feel.

 

[SweetV]

loeylo - I'm sorry to hear that you are disappointed with not getting the nt scan done. They told me with my last 2nd tri pregnancy that I had declined it and I absolutely had not. Hopefully you get to see baby soon. The doppler should absolutely pick up now but it may take quite a lot of patience.

Mrs. R. Husbands always tend to be the voice of reason. I know it seems hard but the anatomy scan will probably be a far ways from the next scan close to delivery so if you can hold out a week or two now the one after won't seem so far away.

Dairy - I'm so sorry this is such a nightmare for you. I really hope the bleeding stops soon and you feel better. Please don't feel bad for posting. We are here for you.

 

[blueblue]

Dairy - I'm really sorry the bleeding has started again after yesterday, I hope everything is ok. Hopefully as you can't get a read on it, it will be ok? I've found that intuition tells me when mine are going wrong. Sorry you are going through so much, praying everything will be ok for you and little one will be ok. We're all here for you

Loeylo - congratulations on 12w6d! Hope you feel better soon, put your feet up and take it easy. Sorry about the nt scan, can you call and ask for a scan prior to/on booking apt day? I wish they were more organised

Mrs R - Wow 18 weeks, congratulations! It's gone so quickly.

Scan tomorrow, really nervous. Upset stomach but I think it's spicy food/nerves hopefully, not mmc sign like previous times.

 

[dairymomma]

Tasha-how far along are you now? I can't seem to remember anymore. Hope things are going okay.

MrsR-wow almost halfway, eh? Feels a bit unbelievable doesn't it... FX your dr lets you get the scan a bit sooner but you've waited this long, so what's a few extra weeks right? (It's what I have to tell myself for my entire pregnancy because DH wants to stay team yellow and I know I'd slip if I found out and he didn't...)

Mowat-still hanging in there? Any sign those twins are going to show up sooner rather than later other than the spotting?

Loeylo-wow, heading into the second tri already. Sorry you didn't get your scan and hopefully they work out something so you can.

Sweet-Thanks. It's hard being in this position but this is the only place where I feel like I can vent about it and not feel ignored. DH is tired of hearing it, my friends and family just hover and worry far too much, and I just need to get it off my chest is all.

blue-good luck with your scan tomorrow. And thanks. Still can't get a read on it so still in limbo.

AFM-last night was brutal. The pain lasted almost 6 hours, heavy heavy bleeding, and passed lots of stuff. I KNOW I miscarried. However, I didn't see the 8 week baby. I saved what I could as I want it tested (it doesn't look right to me and it makes a tad nervous for some reason) but unless bubs came out in bits, s/he is still in there. Still bleeding but it's med/heavy flow and no cramping so back in Limboland for me...Waiting for the dr office to open so I can leave a message for the dr. He's out of the office on Tuesdays (surgery in the morning and then off in the afternoon) but his nurse may be able to snag him before he leaves from surgery. Either way, I need to let them know this happened but I know I prob won't get a scan in any earlier than tomorrow.

 

[SweetV]

blue - I always get anxiety when it comes to scans as well. I hope that's all it is for you and that your scan goes fantastic tomorrow!

Dairy - I hope you get in to see the doctor asap. Hopefully this morning to get you out of limbo land.

afm - woke up feeling great again this morning. Not reassuring at all.

 

[Tasha]

Dairy sorry for what your going through

Sweet, I never push it so it hits my cervix.

Loey, yay for announcing and 13 weeks. Second tri

Mrs R, I agree about hanging on. Think it could be 22 weeks until you see baby again if you have scan at 20 weeks.

Blue, good luck for tomorrow.

Dairy, I'm 26+1. I honestly have no idea how

Mowat I hope you're okay, you too umi.

Afm - I've got three scans in the next six days, the rescan of the 3d this afternoon, tomorrow a growth scan and Monday my cervix scan. Monday is the 13th, 13th april 2011 was the day I had the scan that RIley Rae had died in, two days later is her fourth birthday. It's going to be tough to have a scan on that day.

 

[blueblue]

Dairy - so sorry you had such a rough night, I hope the little one is still ok, hopefully the scan will show s/he is ok.

Sweet - scans make me so nervous as I always mmc, I almost wish I didn't have them sometimes. Sorry you are feeling rubbish, hope you feel better soon

Tasha - I hope your scans go well, sorry you have to have one on the anniversary, I can't imagine how hard that is