PAL after Recurrent Losses - come join us!

[blueblue]

Happy new year ladies! Hope everyone had a lovely Christmas.

I don't think we're going to have another baby, the plan before all our losses was to just have the one, plus because I was on an experimental clinical trial, I can't get the same medication (or placebo, I have no idea which I got) again, I'm not sure I'd want to try again without it. I'm a bit worried I'm going to long for another later on, but I'm trying to focus on enjoying every bit of her growing up and cherishing that. At the moment it is so busy I don't know how I'd be able to look after another, but it must get easier otherwise no one would ever have another x

Sailors girl, welcome and good luck x

Felynn, sending lots of luck x

 

[Squig34]

Surely once the trial is over, you could find out which tablet you got, Blue? Absolutely fair enough if you decide you want to stop at one anyway, but it wouldn't seem very fair not to tell participants if they took a treatment which possibly helped - I get what you mean about not wanting to try otherwise!

 

[ginny83]

For me it's not really about feeling complete or not. I do feel really happy with my two boys and if that's all im blessed with then ill be happy. Not that i wasnt happy with only m, but i would have moved mountains to try and have another one. And im not sure if this time i can keep going back and tryibg over and over again. But at the same time we really wanted another little person in our family so want to give it our best shot. Pregnancy and babies is just such an emotionally charged issue for me i cant imagine just thinking about annoucements etc the same way as i did before this whole journey. Who knows maybe ill have this one (fingers crossed) and something will just click for me. Either way i feel very lucky and very nervous at the moment

Sorry a bit of a ramble post. Im 11+2 today and with my first loss the bub measured 11+5 so things are starting to get scary

 

[blueblue]

Squig, we find out in December 2016 whether I got the active drug or placebo x

Ginny, hope everything is going well x

 

[ginny83]

that's a long time to wait blue!

Saw my OB yesterday and got to see baby - still happy and kicking I'm 11+6 today, so past my first loss milestone. I also had a non-invasive prenatal test which came back as low risk and we also got to find out the gender from it! We haven't decided if we're going to tell anyone yet (I guess we have to tell people I'm pregnant first!) but since no one knows me on here.... we're team another boy! I'm so happy and excited! makes it feel so much more real!

 

[Squig34]

Congratulations on Ginny!

Glad baby is doing well

 

[Tasha]

So exciting.

 

[blueblue]

That's great Ginny x

 

[InVivoVeritas]

Hey everyone, I'm cautiously stepping back in here after my most recent loss last April. That was my 5th 1st Tri loss, and I've also had a 2nd Tri loss and a gorgeous little man who died when he was 15 days old.

It's very (very!) early days, but I have a good feeling about this one.

First scan is 6th February. I just need to get that far with my sanity intact.

 

[wookie130]

Hey, InVivo! I do remember you! Congratulations!

 

[Madrid98]

Congratulations invivo!! Wishing you all the best!!

 

[ab75]

Congratulations in vivo xx

 

[InVivoVeritas]

Thanks to all of you.

This time last pregnancy I'd already had some spotting, so this time I'm in the weird limbo between BFP and first scan. I'm not sure why but I really do have a good feeling this time.

Still checking for spotting every time I go to the toilet, though.

 

[nessaw]

Congrats invivo. Everything crossed.x

 

[ginny83]

congrats invivo!

 

[dairymomma]

Congrats InVivo! Checking for spotting is the norm for many of us in early pg (me included. I'm a first tri bleeder/spotter so it's expected to start.) FX you don't see anything scary and I'm adding my good feelings about a sticky baby to yours.

 

[Squig34]

Congratulations IVV! Hoping this one is finally your rainbow

 

[InVivoVeritas]

A big thank you to all of you.

Unfortunately I've started spotting, so my positive feelings are completely gone and I'm back to being the anxiety-ridden mess that I usually am in early pregnancy.

I've had spotting that turned out to be nothing in healthy pregnancies and spotting that turned out to be bad news in MC and MMC, so I know it could go either way. The three-week wait to my first scan is going to kill me!

I really appreciate all the support.

 

[ginny83]

I have had spotting in all my pregnancies except with my first (ds1)... actually with DS2 it was the worst and lasted until almost 15 weeks I think

fingers crossed it's nothing, but I can totally understand the anxiety around it

 

[ab75]

Fingers crossed for you in vivo xx