PAL, due in 6/2012

[kaboom]

Thanks chistiana Im giving baby aspirin a shot with this pregnancy on the advice of my doctor but ive not actually been tested to see if ive got a blood clotting issue as they won't send me for tests until ive had 3 losses. I don't know if its the aspirin thats doing it but ive never got this far into a pregnancy before

 

[nostress]

I suppose the time has come for me to update... I've been avoiding posting because I wanted to have wonderful, reassuring news to post first... But I need the support. And I hate feeling depressed, perhaps writing this all down will somehow help.

On Friday, my husband and I were off work and decided to make the journey to downtown DC to sight see with our 2 year old and our best friends. After walking around, chasing my little girl, carrying her, playing with her, looking at museums and having fun, I went to the bathroom and notice some pink mucus on the toilet paper. I immediately told DH and we decided it was time to go back. Once we arrive at our temp lodging I called my ob... closed for the holiday, so I called the ER, who, after hearing my history suggested I go to the nearest ER, only 1 mile away. Though it was only a bit of pink on the toilet paper, it was still there every time I wiped, and this is EXACTLY how my first miscarriage started. However that time, I waited 4-5 days to go in to the doctor. So within 3 hours of the first sight of pink spotting I got my first ultrasound... Healthy baby measuring 2 days bigger than my LMP suggested! (I was supposed to be 7w4d, baby was measuring at 7w6d) They couldn't see much through the belly ultrasound so they had to do a transvaginal, they saw arm buds, leg buds, yolk sack and heartbeat of 161! I was told my cervix was completely closed and that they couldn't tell where the discharge was coming from, just to stay on pelvic rest (which I have been on for the past 3 weeks anyways, of my own accord). So here I am driving home, happy with my baby pictures and having heard the heartbeat.

Saturday morning I woke up... went to the bathroom and noticed the discharge had changed, it was no longer a pink mucus but a dark red discharge, a bit more runny than mucus with little tiny... pieces... like toilet paper that got dipped in red juice and broken apart into tiny pieces (but this wasn't old toilet paper). So I worry again, call my ob, still closed. Call the ER, because there was a change in the discharge I was asked to go in again. This time I drove 35 miles to the my hospital, where I get my prenatal care and went to that ER. After taking blood, getting an IV, and my rhogam shot (I'm RH negative), the doc came in and did the belly ultrasound, all he said was, well your kidney bean is still in there. They didn't want to do another transvaginal ultrasound because that may have been why my spotting had increased, so they said, there's pretty much not much else they could do for me because I am so early on, couldn't tell me where the blood was coming from or why. And sent me home, not on bedrest but on pelvic rest again.

So today is Monday... my first REAL ultrasound appointment is this Wednesday, and I am of course keeping it, hoping to see my baby's heartbeat again... hoping beyond hope everything is alright. It sucks that the doctors can't tell me much. I am not having any cramping worse than what I have been having, just more pressure, but I also haven't had a good bowel movement in about 5 days... so that could be why. Fun constipation. The spotting has turned brown, still not filling a whole pad, even in 24 hours. Still has the little "pieces" in there... nothing big but... still there.

Now I'm on wait... worried, depressed. Ugh. I just keep looking at my pictures from the transvaginal ultrasound on Friday and using that to keep me from being in despair. My beautiful baby, arm buds, leg buds, yolk sack and heartbeat of 161. I'll scan them soon so you all can see.

Thanks for reading, I just needed to share.

 

[LittleBird]

Hi ladies glad to see everyone's doing well sorry ive not been around ive been loaded with a cold.

My midwife appointment went ok on thurs, midwife was lovely but she's leaving in Jan so ill probably not see her again She wouldn't put me through for a scan so im going to have to wait for my 12 week scan in about 3 weeks. Ive been classed as high risk because of a family history of blood clots and a previous abdominal surgery so ill need to see a consultant when I go for my scan too. Im off to do some xmas shopping now so ill see you's all later take care girls xx

I'm glad your appointment went well. Sorry about the cold! I am sure it's not easy going to one midwife and then knowing that she won't be there for the rest of the pregnancy. I hope the next one is great, too. Hope the Christmas shopping went well.

Littlebird- i ve done everything...from pruine juice (eeeekkkk), figs...i ve even used glyserine.. (double eeeeeekkkk) but i m hopeless! I have my appt tomorrow and i ll ask him cuase this is driving me crazy!!! Hehehee your post made me laugh...start some carbs, bread, rice!!!!

Wow, I am sorry you're still dealing with the constipation. I think I'm getting back to normal, thank goodness. I hope they figure something out, because I know when my system isn't working properly it causes me to feel much worse!

 

[LittleBird]

I suppose the time has come for me to update... I've been avoiding posting because I wanted to have wonderful, reassuring news to post first... But I need the support. And I hate feeling depressed, perhaps writing this all down will somehow help.

On Friday, my husband and I were off work and decided to make the journey to downtown DC to sight see with our 2 year old and our best friends. After walking around, chasing my little girl, carrying her, playing with her, looking at museums and having fun, I went to the bathroom and notice some pink mucus on the toilet paper. I immediately told DH and we decided it was time to go back. Once we arrive at our temp lodging I called my ob... closed for the holiday, so I called the ER, who, after hearing my history suggested I go to the nearest ER, only 1 mile away. Though it was only a bit of pink on the toilet paper, it was still there every time I wiped, and this is EXACTLY how my first miscarriage started. However that time, I waited 4-5 days to go in to the doctor. So within 3 hours of the first sight of pink spotting I got my first ultrasound... Healthy baby measuring 2 days bigger than my LMP suggested! (I was supposed to be 7w4d, baby was measuring at 7w6d) They couldn't see much through the belly ultrasound so they had to do a transvaginal, they saw arm buds, leg buds, yolk sack and heartbeat of 161! I was told my cervix was completely closed and that they couldn't tell where the discharge was coming from, just to stay on pelvic rest (which I have been on for the past 3 weeks anyways, of my own accord). So here I am driving home, happy with my baby pictures and having heard the heartbeat.

Saturday morning I woke up... went to the bathroom and noticed the discharge had changed, it was no longer a pink mucus but a dark red discharge, a bit more runny than mucus with little tiny... pieces... like toilet paper that got dipped in red juice and broken apart into tiny pieces (but this wasn't old toilet paper). So I worry again, call my ob, still closed. Call the ER, because there was a change in the discharge I was asked to go in again. This time I drove 35 miles to the my hospital, where I get my prenatal care and went to that ER. After taking blood, getting an IV, and my rhogam shot (I'm RH negative), the doc came in and did the belly ultrasound, all he said was, well your kidney bean is still in there. They didn't want to do another transvaginal ultrasound because that may have been why my spotting had increased, so they said, there's pretty much not much else they could do for me because I am so early on, couldn't tell me where the blood was coming from or why. And sent me home, not on bedrest but on pelvic rest again.

So today is Monday... my first REAL ultrasound appointment is this Wednesday, and I am of course keeping it, hoping to see my baby's heartbeat again... hoping beyond hope everything is alright. It sucks that the doctors can't tell me much. I am not having any cramping worse than what I have been having, just more pressure, but I also haven't had a good bowel movement in about 5 days... so that could be why. Fun constipation. The spotting has turned brown, still not filling a whole pad, even in 24 hours. Still has the little "pieces" in there... nothing big but... still there.

Now I'm on wait... worried, depressed. Ugh. I just keep looking at my pictures from the transvaginal ultrasound on Friday and using that to keep me from being in despair. My beautiful baby, arm buds, leg buds, yolk sack and heartbeat of 161. I'll scan them soon so you all can see.

Thanks for reading, I just needed to share.

Nostress, I'm so sorry about the stressful weekend you've been having!

I understand spotting is scary. Believe me, I know that it is the last thing you want to see when you're pregnant. But the thing they always say when you're dealing with this is that spotting doesn't necessarily mean something bad is going to happen. And I think it's definitely a good sign that it's turned brown, and it's not enough to fill a pad. The fact that you had the ultrasound and saw everything and the baby was measuring bigger than expected is also all good news. In two days, you should know something more and hopefully your little bean is fighting and continuing to grow. I know the waiting is such a pain, but it seems like this entire process is about waiting.

The fact that you're not cramping is also something positive to hold on to. I can't believe you've had 5 days without a bowel movement. I wonder if that's causing the spotting, too. Just try to rest and keep yourself from going crazy before Wednesday. I know, easier said than done, but you know that stress is not going to do you or the baby any favors!

Please keep us updated, and I'll keep praying for some good news on Wednesday.

 

[chistiana]

Nostress, i m so sorry you are going through this hun...and like littlebird said please try not to worry very much. My friend who is only 1 week behind me had the exact same thing..she went out with her daughter running around and when she came back she had some pink spotting. Went to the dr had a transvaginal u/s..everything ok... then it became brown and pink again and she went to the dr again...no probs again...he said it was probably the u/s that caused it the second time round and being tired the first time round. Now everything is still fine, she saw the hb and hasnt had any spotting since.
I m sure this is nerve wrecking but seeing the hb is very positive plus you're not cramping or having bright red blood which is what dr are concerned with. Keep thinking that everything is ok hun and telling this to yourself...a very wise friend once told me our body is very clever...if you definitely believe your bean will be ok it will if you say othersise your body will follow.PLease keep up updated, i ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[chistiana]

Beeahappy1- how did the scan go hun? Hope everything is much much better!

Who else had a scan today?

afm- 9w1d today, had my 3rd scan, bean measures exactly 9w1d, hb 166 and growing well 2.5cm! So sososososoosososo happy! Dr suggested we meet again in 3 weeks for the pap a but i told him he's crazy and i ll just drive myself crazy and booked another scan in 2 weeks 2 days!!Cant wait!!!Ow and bought terrible fig yogurts and kiwis...eeeekkkkk let see whether this works!

 

[LittleBird]

chistiana -- yay for another good scan!

 

[Beeahappy1]

Nostress- Hang in there...it is a good sign that you have no cramping. I will pray for you and your little bean

Chistiana - Thanks for asking.....

I had a very busy weekend with my family....goodtimes. My pregnancy symptoms were intense this weekend...sore boobs, nausea. I thought it was strange, given the U/S last week when the sac was too small to measure. I woke up early Sunday morning with some mild cramps and passed a blood clot about the size of a nickel. Honestly, I felt a bit of relief, thinking that I had started a natural m/c. I am totally wanting to avoid a dnc!!! Oddly, the cramps went away...no bleeding...no spotting...just clear discharge. Hum?? So this morning, I went to my OB for a scan and the sac is measuring 5 weeks (it has grown) , no baby. I am 9 weeks 3 days by dates. My OB asked if there was ANY chance my dates were wrong. No. Then she told me she was sure I would miscarry, but couldn't say when. She offered a DNC or medication to induce a M/C. I turned them both down. I am willing to wait it out a few more weeks, and enjoy the time I have with my little bean. I told her that I choose not to take the progesterone, and she agreed with my reasoning and decision. I asked her what the deal was with the blood clot, and she didn't know.

I am not sad. I am SO pissed at my situation and my old eggs!!!!! If this pregnancy isn't going to work out, I need my body to just let go. This is the same exact thing that happened with my last M/C.

So sorry about the rant........I have a 'mommy night' tonight and I am going to do some shopping therapy and Starbucks. I need it

 

[lilmamatoW]

nostress--I have my fingers xed for you. Hope all goes well with your scan on Wednesday.

Beeahappy--I am so sorry, hun, for what you are going through. Words are never enough...but prayers going out for you and yours.

Christiana--Great news on the scan! I had a scan today today too. Everything looks good! So relieved and happy. The baby actually measured one day ahead from last time, but dr is going to keep my due date for June 16 and she already scheduled a c-section for June 11 (my first was born by c-section after 16 hours of failed induction...baby and her head were way too big for me...it should be noted that I am little, 5'1", and my husband is very very large --as in 6'8" or over 2 meters for those of you on a metric system). HB was 166 and scan photo of my little one is attached...or at least I am going to attempt to attach it.

So thankful for this little one.

 

[Anna Purna]

Bee: So sorry, hon. It's really not fair, is it?
Have you considered going to a fertility specialist? Maybe they can help figure out what's going on. Take care of yourself today. A little shopping spree sounds nice.

Lil: Nice scan picture! Wow, that's quite a height difference between you and DH! I'm 5'5'' and DH is 6'3'' so I kind of relate - I like looking up!

Christiana: Any scan photos????

Nostress: Spotting sounds scary, especially if they can't tell you why it's happening. You should just try to focus on the fact that you've seen a healthy bean and the doctors didn't see any signs of trouble. Good luck on Wednesday!

Kaboom: Sorry you have to wait so long for your scan. The wait is the worst part. Hang in there!

TTC: Love the scan picture!

Hello to everyone else!

AFM: I've booked my 12 week ultrasound for next Monday (the 21st). So excited yet sooooo nervous!
They will be doing the nuchal translucency test as well as the blood test for down's - anyone else planning to get this done?
I've had cramps for the last couple of days, making me worry myself sick. Anyone else getting cramps this far along? ARGH!!!

 

[PitaKat]

Oh Beeahappy1, I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for you I do hope you enjoy the shopping spree and coffee

 

[nostress]

Bee - I am sorry that it's not happening the way you had hoped, mean blood clot getting your hopes up! I hope you are alright and find solace in your support system here as well as in your shopping and Starbucks! After my miscarriage I bought a bunch of bras and undies and lingerie I was going to wait to buy till after my body blew up from pregnancy.... But after losing the baby I thought, why wait?

 

[TTCbaby2011]

I suppose the time has come for me to update... I've been avoiding posting because I wanted to have wonderful, reassuring news to post first... But I need the support. And I hate feeling depressed, perhaps writing this all down will somehow help.

On Friday, my husband and I were off work and decided to make the journey to downtown DC to sight see with our 2 year old and our best friends. After walking around, chasing my little girl, carrying her, playing with her, looking at museums and having fun, I went to the bathroom and notice some pink mucus on the toilet paper. I immediately told DH and we decided it was time to go back. Once we arrive at our temp lodging I called my ob... closed for the holiday, so I called the ER, who, after hearing my history suggested I go to the nearest ER, only 1 mile away. Though it was only a bit of pink on the toilet paper, it was still there every time I wiped, and this is EXACTLY how my first miscarriage started. However that time, I waited 4-5 days to go in to the doctor. So within 3 hours of the first sight of pink spotting I got my first ultrasound... Healthy baby measuring 2 days bigger than my LMP suggested! (I was supposed to be 7w4d, baby was measuring at 7w6d) They couldn't see much through the belly ultrasound so they had to do a transvaginal, they saw arm buds, leg buds, yolk sack and heartbeat of 161! I was told my cervix was completely closed and that they couldn't tell where the discharge was coming from, just to stay on pelvic rest (which I have been on for the past 3 weeks anyways, of my own accord). So here I am driving home, happy with my baby pictures and having heard the heartbeat.

Saturday morning I woke up... went to the bathroom and noticed the discharge had changed, it was no longer a pink mucus but a dark red discharge, a bit more runny than mucus with little tiny... pieces... like toilet paper that got dipped in red juice and broken apart into tiny pieces (but this wasn't old toilet paper). So I worry again, call my ob, still closed. Call the ER, because there was a change in the discharge I was asked to go in again. This time I drove 35 miles to the my hospital, where I get my prenatal care and went to that ER. After taking blood, getting an IV, and my rhogam shot (I'm RH negative), the doc came in and did the belly ultrasound, all he said was, well your kidney bean is still in there. They didn't want to do another transvaginal ultrasound because that may have been why my spotting had increased, so they said, there's pretty much not much else they could do for me because I am so early on, couldn't tell me where the blood was coming from or why. And sent me home, not on bedrest but on pelvic rest again.

So today is Monday... my first REAL ultrasound appointment is this Wednesday, and I am of course keeping it, hoping to see my baby's heartbeat again... hoping beyond hope everything is alright. It sucks that the doctors can't tell me much. I am not having any cramping worse than what I have been having, just more pressure, but I also haven't had a good bowel movement in about 5 days... so that could be why. Fun constipation. The spotting has turned brown, still not filling a whole pad, even in 24 hours. Still has the little "pieces" in there... nothing big but... still there.

Now I'm on wait... worried, depressed. Ugh. I just keep looking at my pictures from the transvaginal ultrasound on Friday and using that to keep me from being in despair. My beautiful baby, arm buds, leg buds, yolk sack and heartbeat of 161. I'll scan them soon so you all can see.

Thanks for reading, I just needed to share.

Praying all goes well Wednesday.

 

[TTCbaby2011]

Beeahappy1- how did the scan go hun? Hope everything is much much better!

Who else had a scan today?

afm- 9w1d today, had my 3rd scan, bean measures exactly 9w1d, hb 166 and growing well 2.5cm! So sososososoosososo happy! Dr suggested we meet again in 3 weeks for the pap a but i told him he's crazy and i ll just drive myself crazy and booked another scan in 2 weeks 2 days!!Cant wait!!!Ow and bought terrible fig yogurts and kiwis...eeeekkkkk let see whether this works!

Chistiana: Glad all is going well with your little bean!

 

[TTCbaby2011]

Nostress- Hang in there...it is a good sign that you have no cramping. I will pray for you and your little bean

Chistiana - Thanks for asking.....

I had a very busy weekend with my family....goodtimes. My pregnancy symptoms were intense this weekend...sore boobs, nausea. I thought it was strange, given the U/S last week when the sac was too small to measure. I woke up early Sunday morning with some mild cramps and passed a blood clot about the size of a nickel. Honestly, I felt a bit of relief, thinking that I had started a natural m/c. I am totally wanting to avoid a dnc!!! Oddly, the cramps went away...no bleeding...no spotting...just clear discharge. Hum?? So this morning, I went to my OB for a scan and the sac is measuring 5 weeks (it has grown) , no baby. I am 9 weeks 3 days by dates. My OB asked if there was ANY chance my dates were wrong. No. Then she told me she was sure I would miscarry, but couldn't say when. She offered a DNC or medication to induce a M/C. I turned them both down. I am willing to wait it out a few more weeks, and enjoy the time I have with my little bean. I told her that I choose not to take the progesterone, and she agreed with my reasoning and decision. I asked her what the deal was with the blood clot, and she didn't know.

I am not sad. I am SO pissed at my situation and my old eggs!!!!! If this pregnancy isn't going to work out, I need my body to just let go. This is the same exact thing that happened with my last M/C.

So sorry about the rant........I have a 'mommy night' tonight and I am going to do some shopping therapy and Starbucks. I need it

Bee: I'm so sorry for what you are going through. Prayers sent.

 

[nostress]

Here are my happy ultrasound pics taken on Friday at 7w4d... Baby was measuring at 7w6d! Love my baby! Now I just need to will him/her to survive, let's keep that heart beating baby!

 

[kelzyboo]

That is an amazing, clear scan pic!! Glad baby is well!

I had mine today, baby measures 8+ and all is well, my pic isn't that clear though lol looks like a blob! x

 

[LittleBird]

My pregnancy symptoms were intense this weekend...sore boobs, nausea. I thought it was strange, given the U/S last week when the sac was too small to measure. I woke up early Sunday morning with some mild cramps and passed a blood clot about the size of a nickel. Honestly, I felt a bit of relief, thinking that I had started a natural m/c. I am totally wanting to avoid a dnc!!! Oddly, the cramps went away...no bleeding...no spotting...just clear discharge. Hum?? So this morning, I went to my OB for a scan and the sac is measuring 5 weeks (it has grown) , no baby. I am 9 weeks 3 days by dates. My OB asked if there was ANY chance my dates were wrong. No. Then she told me she was sure I would miscarry, but couldn't say when. She offered a DNC or medication to induce a M/C. I turned them both down. I am willing to wait it out a few more weeks, and enjoy the time I have with my little bean. I told her that I choose not to take the progesterone, and she agreed with my reasoning and decision. I asked her what the deal was with the blood clot, and she didn't know.

I am not sad. I am SO pissed at my situation and my old eggs!!!!! If this pregnancy isn't going to work out, I need my body to just let go. This is the same exact thing that happened with my last M/C.

So sorry about the rant........I have a 'mommy night' tonight and I am going to do some shopping therapy and Starbucks. I need it

I'm sorry, bee!

I understand what you're saying about waiting it out to see what happens. And I understand being mad and feeling betrayed by your body. It stinks when we don't know what's happening. I hope the evening out helped you feel a little better.

I had a scan today today too. Everything looks good! So relieved and happy. The baby actually measured one day ahead from last time, but dr is going to keep my due date for June 16 and she already scheduled a c-section for June 11 (my first was born by c-section after 16 hours of failed induction...baby and her head were way too big for me...it should be noted that I am little, 5'1", and my husband is very very large --as in 6'8" or over 2 meters for those of you on a metric system). HB was 166 and scan photo of my little one is attached...or at least I am going to attempt to attach it.

Glad your scan went well! I had two c-sections as well, and I'm 4'11". So I guess this will be my third c-section. It's not usually easy to deliver twins naturally, anyway, so it makes sense. My DH is 5'8", so neither one of us are big, but I never progressed after 18 hours and my water broke before I even got to the hospital so they wanted the baby to be born ASAP to reduce risk of infection.

AFM: I've booked my 12 week ultrasound for next Monday (the 21st). So excited yet sooooo nervous!
They will be doing the nuchal translucency test as well as the blood test for down's - anyone else planning to get this done?
I've had cramps for the last couple of days, making me worry myself sick. Anyone else getting cramps this far along? ARGH!!!

Anna, Monday will be here very soon! I am planning on getting the NT test done, I have with all mine so far and the results always came back normal. I'm not sure whether we'd do additional testing, that's something DH and I would have to discuss if/when the time comes.

The cramps could be round ligament pain, or due to constipation, there are lots of things that could cause it.

Bee - I am sorry that it's not happening the way you had hoped, mean blood clot getting your hopes up! I hope you are alright and find solace in your support system here as well as in your shopping and Starbucks! After my miscarriage I bought a bunch of bras and undies and lingerie I was going to wait to buy till after my body blew up from pregnancy.... But after losing the baby I thought, why wait?

I signed up for laser hair removal under my arms after my 1st miscarriage. My BFF told me to do something I wouldn't have been able to do if I were pregnant, and it was the first thing I thought of!

I had mine today, baby measures 8+ and all is well, my pic isn't that clear though lol looks like a blob! x

Congrats on a good scan and a healthy baby!

 

[kaboom]

beeahappy - im so sorry hun ((hugs))

lilmama & ttc - congrats on your scans love your pics

christiana & kelzyboo - congrats on your scans

notress - love your pics and good luck for weds xx

Anna Purna - Im still getting cramps too think its just everything in there stretching. Ill be getting the tests too but don't think id have the amnio if the other tests came back bad. I know there's only like a 1 % chance of mc with it but to me thats still too high

 

[chistiana]

Annapurna...yayyyy for 12 week scan...i think once this is out of the way you re going to feel much more relaxed! I did the tests you mentioned with my son and it gave me odd of 1 in 64000 so i knew i wouldnt need an amnio...i m doing them again if/when we make it to 12 weeks!I am not as far as you are (9w3d) but still get lots of cramps..asked the dr yesterday he said it's normal and probably not all growth cramps could also be gas or constipation!!I ll try to upload a pic of my scan!!

Lil- lovely picture...your bean looks a lot more like a little person than mine does...the angle we got makes it look like a little ball!Wow how big was your first born??

Beeahaapy1- I am so sorry hun...it must be so hard and so frustrating to have to wait it all out but i think the natural option is better...i ve had 2 d&c and the dr told me both times a natural mc is much easier on the body. I hope it happens soon hun so that you can start fresh. Please feel free to pm me if you need to talk. I have to admit the shopping spree and starbucks sounds a good plan for me! Lots of hugs!

To all the other lovely ladies...hope you re having a fab day!

Ok here i go trying to upload my blob!