PAL Fall 2011 ***26 Healthy Babies***

[lulu83]

Well, back from the Drs. Looong morning.

Hcg from yesterday came back at 7380 (from 4355 Thursday)...ultrasound showed a sac, but no fetal pole or heartbeat.

Dr wants to do d&c Wed. He did mention the possibility of a vanishing twin, but he thinks we shouldve seen more than a sac today with where hcg levels are and my lmp was 2-1..

breaks my heart. i actually saw something on the u/s AND my #s are going up....yet its not a viable pregnancy? just my luck.

just wanted to send an update, and thank you ladies for all of your support.

Im praying for all of you and will definitely pop in from time to time to see how everyones doing...once i stop crying

Barbie72- i hear bleeding can be totally normal! try to keep your chin up! I really hope they can see you today! waiting is sooo hard... ill be thinking about ya

 

[Aquarius24]

Lulu this must be heartbreaking. Your hopes are up one minute only to be taken away from u the next. I am so so sorry. My thoughts are with u. Xx

 

[Aquarius24]

Barbie try not to worry bleeding is very common especially if light and no pain. Hope u managed to get a scan x

 

[Mommy's Angel]

Well, back from the Drs. Looong morning.

Hcg from yesterday came back at 7380 (from 4355 Thursday)...ultrasound showed a sac, but no fetal pole or heartbeat.

Dr wants to do d&c Wed. He did mention the possibility of a vanishing twin, but he thinks we shouldve seen more than a sac today with where hcg levels are and my lmp was 2-1..

breaks my heart. i actually saw something on the u/s AND my #s are going up....yet its not a viable pregnancy? just my luck.

just wanted to send an update, and thank you ladies for all of your support.

Im praying for all of you and will definitely pop in from time to time to see how everyones doing...once i stop crying

Barbie72- i hear bleeding can be totally normal! try to keep your chin up! I really hope they can see you today! waiting is sooo hard... ill be thinking about ya

There was a thread on this. How far along are you?? Usually you don't see a fetal pole until late 6wks early 7 wks and I KNOW some have said you don't see a fetal pole until you have higher HCG. I don't want to get your hopes up but in the other threads some women waited and they found the fetal pole. Again, I don't want to get your hopes up but I'm not sure how early you are. It may be worth waiting. How far along are you?? If you are 4 to 5 wks it's EARLY. Usually early scans for someone like me that's high risk is around 6 to 7wks which is usually when they can start seeing a fetal pole.

Just wanted to share some hope with you.

 

[barbie72]

Thanks Lulu! I have never heard anything like what is happening to you. I am so sorry. It does feel unlucky, doesn't it? Gets to the point where you feel like your luck has completely run out. Take good care of yourself the next few months and try not to be pessimistic like me .
The waiting is the worst part. The dr. didn't see me today and said I should just take it easy and wait til Thursday. I waited 8 hours for them to call me and tell me that. I think I might lose my mind before then. DH was super sweet and stayed with me most of the day. I can't help freaking out though. We saw some friends over the weekend who had their first baby when I had my mc. The baby was smiling SOOO big at my hubby. Broke my heart to think maybe there is something wrong with me and I can't give him that. I'm so tired of being afraid and sad. It is exhausting. I really thought all of this would be easier. Sorry for the pity me rant! Just too much hitting home in one weekend and too reminiscent of the mmc in November.

 

[fides]

lulu,

 

[shelleney]

Sorry to hear about everything you are going through Lulu. Im still holding out hope for some good news for you. Thinking of you

Hope your bleeding is nothing to worry about Barbie (just like earlier in your pregnancy) although I know it will still be worrying for you. Take it easy. Thinking of you
xx

 

[barbie72]

Ugh, I was sooooo sick all last night and right now. I couldn't even sleep! No more bleeding since Monday though so I guess that is ok. I called the dr. yesterday and BEGGED them to see me early. They only said they would call if there was a cancellation....obviously they did not call. Well tomorrow is my scan so I guess I am stuck waiting until then which isn't so bad since this acid reflux has completely defeated me. How does everyone stay up beat and positive? I have lost all ability to be excited or happy. I just want to know if the baby is ok!!!

 

[CKH]

barbie- I feel the same way. I keep having to postpone my FIRST ob appt. Its really pissing me off. All you can do is pray and have faith. are you getting a little belly yet? I read about your bleeding. I had that a few weeks ago, after we would have 'sexy time', and like if i would stand to long. try putting your feet up if it happens again. glad to hear it went away, mine did too. was it alot? Im curious, cuz mine was like never red, always brown or light pink...and my discharge sometimes is like yellow. gross, but wondering if its normal. since I cant get to the dr for a couple weeks still. You are all in my thoughts.

Lulu- Im so sorry, when that exact thing happened to me (except I didnt have the D&C=bad idea) I hid from the world for a long time. I didnt want to see or talk to anyone. My mom would come check on me a lot. I hope you feel better, and I hope you get your baby SOON! Lots of love to you

 

[barbie72]

Hey CKH, thanks for the positive thoughts. I had bleeding back at 6 weeks or so. It was bright red but went away very quickly. I woke up with it when I went to the bathroom. Just took the day easy and was fine after that. I got to have an early scan and they confirmed that everything was going fine so far. Then Monday it was brownish and very light spotting. The nurse asked if we had done the "sexy time" and I said "ummm god no!"...poor hubby. The dr. decided that since it resolved itself everything was probably ok. But I had the brownish bleeding with my first pregnancy that we lost and it just hit too close to home. I was told it was completely normal but I just can't settle down. I have heard that usually the brownish is older blood from the cervix since it can get too full of blood. Then when you have sex it will generally come out. So I think you are fine but mine came out of no where both times! So frustrating. Sorry you can't get to the dr. I would pull all my hair out, lol. As for my belly I am not certain what I am looking for honestly! I mean it is not hard or anything but I definitely have grown a lot larger than just gaining fat in my belly. My tummy just looks different. Any thoughts on what it is suppose to feel/look like this early?

 

[shelleney]

CKH, I had some brown spotting for a couple of days at 7 weeks. But it was nothing, and I havent had anymore since (FXd).
Also, I have the yellow discharge and have been told its normal, and not to worry unless it starts to smell, then it could be an infection. Hope that helps
xx

 

[hippylittlej]

I am sorry for what you are going through Lulu

A weeks holiday was just what I needed. I now have my scan a week on Monday and I am now the most pregnant I have been which is great. I am hoping that the scan shows everything is ok and we can start to tell everyone

My friend bled all the way through the first 12 weeks and had a healthy little boy back in August, so bleeding isn't always a problem. Hope things are ok barbie.

 

[Rebaby]

So sorry to hear what you're going through lulu

And barbie, i;m sure you must be stressed out of your mind, but like so many ladies have said already, sometimes bleeding just happens and everything carries on ok

I'm sorry i haven't been around much ladies, i am currently the most tired i have ever been in my life so spending most of my time in work or in bed or trying to prevent our toddler from destroying the house!

I also haven't been feeling very positive, and for no real reason either really, i'm just finding it hard to believe that this pregnancy is for real and i haven't really wanted to get people down with my negativity when i can't even explain it myself. I mean, both our scans so far have been good, and i still have pregnancy symptoms (mainly the tiredness now though tbh!) but i am struggling to really believe that come October there'll be a new addition to our family

We have decided we're definitely getting another private scan between now and our 20 week anomaly scan on the nhs. OH wanted us to get it at around 14-15 weeks but i don't think i can wait that long so we might book something sooner.

 

[barbie72]

Thanks for the votes of confidence everyone. I don't know why but today I woke up and I feel really excellent. Still sick mind you but just very happy. I think I am just so excited to FINALLY know what is going on. I view this scan today as an end to worry either way. If everything is well then obviously I will be thrilled and happy. If everything is not ok then at least I will finally know and get to start feeling better. I will be happy to get back to being myself whatever happens. I think it was all the waiting that was killing me. Just 5 more hours and I will have relief! Yay!!

 

[hippylittlej]

Good luck Barbie, the waiting game is not fun at all.

 

[Aquarius24]

Good luck barbie I had scan today too. Bubba is doing well n they put me back 2 days. Mrs wells can u pls change my Edd to 4 oct.

Rebaby I think we all feel like that on here. I only had a scan last Monday n still was so worried about going in for the scan today. Try to think positive and yes I would defo
Need to book another scan if I was u xxx

 

[jcg0506]

Rebaby, I feel the same way; especially with the terrible nausea and just the normal fears of being PAL, I've had a hard time being very positive or excited about this pregnancy. And then I get worried that I feel too detached and won't be a good mother.
Also, I think you can get an NT scan at 11-13 weeks; I'm not from the UK so I don't know what NHS covers, but this is a pretty standard test (early test for Down's and other problems). I had mine last week and I got to see the baby, hear the heartbeat, got a picture, and of course they measure the fold on the back of the baby's neck. They also take some blood for testing. I'd be surprised if it wasn't covered and then you wouldn't have to pay for a private scan.

 

[Rebaby]

Rebaby, I feel the same way; especially with the terrible nausea and just the normal fears of being PAL, I've had a hard time being very positive or excited about this pregnancy. And then I get worried that I feel too detached and won't be a good mother.
Also, I think you can get an NT scan at 11-13 weeks; I'm not from the UK so I don't know what NHS covers, but this is a pretty standard test (early test for Down's and other problems). I had mine last week and I got to see the baby, hear the heartbeat, got a picture, and of course they measure the fold on the back of the baby's neck. They also take some blood for testing. I'd be surprised if it wasn't covered and then you wouldn't have to pay for a private scan.

Thanks we declined the down's screening so just got a regular dating scan at 8+5 to check for heartbeat and growth and get an EDD, hence the super-long wait now until our 20 week scan

 

[hippylittlej]

I am going to go for a private scan I think between the 12 and 20 week mark as we also declined the downs screening. Having said that it depends on how I feel after the first scan.

 

[barbie72]

Doctor's appointment went great!!! We got to hear the baby's heart beat (which I did not get to hear last pregnancy). Doctor said (of course no guarantees) but our chances of another MC are down to 3%. Thankfully I am blissfully naive to the rest of pregnancy and the mishaps that can happen. So I am feeling quite cheerful. I think celebrating milestones is the only way you make it through these things anyhow. Honestly, I am quite shocked. I think it just hit me that, God willing, we are having a baby . Thanks everyone for helping me through all my negativity! i think I can relax just a little now.