PAL Fall 2011 ***26 Healthy Babies***

[Mommy's Angel]

wow - i've been here for almost 4 years and we never, ever get that much snow - at least not unless you're in the mountains! sounds like you guys get what we used to back in Minnesota!

Allie, glad you had a day off!!

We get our share of snow and cold but thankfully NOTHING like my bil in Minnesota! I think what gets me in our winters is the longer, darker days. Thank goodness it's changed but I get seasonal depression and have a vitamin D deficiency. We've even found a study that shows our area along with MN to have high rates of Multiple Sclerosis that they think is because we don't have enough sunlight in the winters.

Anyways, praise God that spring is coming. I'm waiting patiently for snow to clear again! If only I could find a place with sunlight in the 70's all the time that doesn't have tornado's or other storms. Oh and doesn't have ugly bugs and venemous snakes. I seem to be in a dreamland.

 

[Aquarius24]

oooh horrid snow, well for a change it is nice an sunny here in England, quite warm too!! Yey for Spring and yey for only another season till autumn!!

Thanks for the well wishes ladies xx

 

[barbie72]

Our whole city shuts down when it snows. Clearly it never snows here! We even have to borrow snow plows from neighboring cities to clear the streets, lol. I must say I enjoy a snow day when we get one!

 

[srm0421]

Sorry I have been MIA but my due date has been changed to 11-10 which is what I thought it was based on my O date. I had my scan on Tuesday and there seems to be a problem with the baby's attachment. The scan showed a dark spot around the sac that shouldn't be there so I am waiting 3 weeks for another scan hoping that spot closes. Then I get to wait another 1-3 weeks to hear if the top part of the spine is complete, then another 2-3 weeks to check more of the spine, and so on and so forth until I am about 6 months to check the heart. So all in all it is just one giant waiting game.

 

[barbie72]

Has anyone heard from Lulu83 recently? She hasn't posted in a while and she has a ticker that says 2 weeks since we said goodbye. I was hoping it was some sort of error but now I am concerned. I would not blame her for not posting if everything is not well. Anyone know?

 

[Mommy's Angel]

srm, so sorry darlin for what your going through. Praying the dark spot disappears and that they find the spine and anything else is forming just fine.

I don't know Lulu but I pray also for her. Sadly I know the heartbreak and pray for strength and healing.

 

[andella95]

I don't know lulu, but it doesn't sound good.

Haven't been posting much in here...I really should as you are a wonderful group!

Anyway, after my scan on monday showed that it was not ectopic and there was a small gestational sac, my doctor said that he would have his nurse schedule me another ultrasound for next week and they'd call me back, but they haven't called.

Still poasing once in a while though, but just with $tree tests. A bit concerned that the test line never got darker than the control line though. My last beta was last Friday the 18th and it was 741 (one before that was 201 on the 15th). I'm trying not to worry about it, but it's so hard not to!

With my MMC, I never got a positive HPT until almost 8 weeks, and then found out the baby died when I should've been nearly 13 weeks. With my last mc, I never really did get real dark lines, so the fact that baby seems to be sticking still is a pretty good sign to me.

I'm not totally sure how far along I am, but I imagine that my ticker is correct.

Have a great day everyone~!

 

[Mrs.Wells]

I feel as though I am at the point where the nausea gets better. I was prescribed meds to help prevent me from vomiting so much and even with them I have been vomiting this week. I can't help but wonder what I would be like without them!! Anyway, it will be like that one day and the next I feel great and have more energy than I have had in days! So here's to hoping I am rounding the corner.

On another note, for those who have lost another precious bean, do we want to keep them on the main post but under a different heading or simply delete them when they ask? I want to support them, but also not make them feel badly if their name is still connect to this thread too. What do you all think?

 

[barbie72]

Sorry about the morning sickness Mrs. Wells! I am having a terrible time with it. I seem to have developed a really bad case of acid reflux as well. It keeps making me sick up my food and it is painful. I feel bad for the people who have it as a natural part of life!

As for the people who have lost their little beans, I thought it was sweet the way they did it on the other season lists like this one. They have a separate section and say something nice and then list the ones who have had another loss. That is how I personally would want it....but I cannot speak for everyone else.

 

[Allie84]

I hope Lulu is okay.

Andella, your numbers sound great so I would not worry about POAS at this point as your HCG is bound to in the thousands. I know it's hard not to, though.

fides, where in Minnesota are you from? It's funny because I'm FROM Colorado Springs but live in Fargo (on the ND/MN border). Small world!

AFM, I'm at 5 weeks which is where I lost my bean last time, and I'm feeling pretty good so feel really relieved to get past this milestone.

 

[Mommy's Angel]

I'm also nauseated. I am taking meds and it's barely covering the nausea too. I'm a bit witchy right now and VERY tired. Not fun to be around. It doesn't help that I'm on edge until our second opinion next Wed. We also have an appointment with our Dula we hired which is on Tuesday. Hopefully after a second opinion, I'll be able to relax a bit. I'm REALLY on edge. I pray that the next trimester flies by with no drama, no infections and no hitches. I'm absolutely TERRIFIED going into my second trimester. I'd like to feel that relief once I pass 22wks but I also know that I'll be freaked out until it's safe at 36 wks.

We tell our family next weekend and I'm SO nervous about it. My husband is excited and won't let ANYONE including me burst his bubble! I on the otherhand would be happy to wait until 36 weeks to tell everyone. It's unrealistic though as I'm sure they'd figure it out.

How do you all deal with it? Are you separating yourselves from your prior losses? I'm having a hard time because in the back of my head I remember what happened last time so I'm not only on edge but questioning EVERYTHING. My husband is a saint and I'm not sure where he's getting the patience to deal with me.

 

[barbie72]

Sorry Mommy's Angel that you are so stressed! I think most men folk handle it pretty well. My hubby is much more mellow about life than me lol. The only thing he worries about is seeing me in pain again. He really had a hard time with that last time. However, he seems to be alright with being able to get through another MC if it happens. He is a very "go with the flow" kind of person.

As far as how I deal with it...hmmm. I think poorly? I try not to think about any of it and pretend it isn't even a thing that is happening. So I guess denial is the name of the game. I am certainly not excited and I have finally stopped being scared. I just am waiting now to find out if everything is ok at the next scan. I used to look for things that were different from the first time around and panic at the thought of going to the bathroom and finding blood. Now it is just a day at a time. I can't force this baby to be ok and I can't change the outcome of this pregnancy. I don't know if any of this is helpful or not. I just think that things are going to be what they will be. Nothing I can do.

 

[lulu83]

Has anyone heard from Lulu83 recently? She hasn't posted in a while and she has a ticker that says 2 weeks since we said goodbye. I was hoping it was some sort of error but now I am concerned. I would not blame her for not posting if everything is not well. Anyone know?

Thanks hun. The ticker is right...or so we think. i just posted this in ttcal today bc im so confused. i thought it was over over, but after bleeding my hcgs back up higher than it was...so now im confused. heres what i wrote on ttcal in case anyone has any thoughts. its going to be a long weekend of wondering:

"So this would be M/C #2 for me. 1st was in december.
my lmp was 2-1-11. I got a BFP on 2-28.
on 3-2 my hcg was 212.
on 3-7 i started bleeding. HCG was 1700 on 3-7.
bleeding continued. had an ultrasound on 3-10. they didnt see anything. Hcg came back in the 900s.
i went for a follow up yesterday. The bleeding stopped tuesday, 3-22. My Dr was hoping that HCG wouldve totally dropped so he could do some blood work and whatnot to test. Hopefully to find out if theres a reason for 2 mc in a row.
I called today for HCG results, bc they wanted me to come back in a few days for another one. The nurse was shocked when she saw that my HCG is now up to 4533. My dr is out of the office so she talked to another one of the drs. They are having me go to the hospital on sunday for another HCG quant test and an ultrasound monday morning at 8:30.

im so confused! The nurse told me it could be a few things. it could be retained product and id need another d&c (but whyd the #s go up AFTER i bled for 2 wks...???) or it could be that i am still pregnant. I find that hard to believe bc there was a drop in HCG a few wks ago, and 2 wks of light to moderate bleeding. She sd they arent too concerned about it being ectopic, bc they hadnt seen anthing in the U/S. Ive read about a vanishing twin? anyone know anything about this?

any feedback would be awesome....since i have to wait til monday to find anything out. I was just starting to really try to get back to normal after this 2nd mc, but the roller coaster ride continues. im so confused.

thoughts? "


thanks for the concern ladies and i wish you guys H&H pregnancies

 

[andella95]

A girl I work with thought she had a miscarriage (and so did her doctor) but she really was pregnant with twins and just lost one of them. She had a healthy baby girl about three weeks ago. It was very tricky because they thought she was 1 month behind where she actually was.

Also, in regards to ectopic - they are usually diagnosed not based on actually seeing them but on your beta levels + not seeing anything in the uterus.

I know what an emotional rollercoaster it is. We're here if you need anything!

 

[Mommy's Angel]

Lulu, oh hunny I'm so sorry for all this stress your going through. I have no answers as I'm really unaware of anything like this. Please let us know what you find. I'm praying somehow you find a little miracle. I can imagine this is SO confusing.

 

[Aquarius24]

So sorry lulu. Hope u get answers soon x

 

[fides]

lulu, i'm so sorry that you're going through this right now - i can't imagine how terrifying it all must be for you.

srm, sorry things are tough for you right now - i hope the waiting goes by quickly and you have wonderful scans!

Allie, I'm actually not originally from MN - just lived there for a while, but we were in the middle of nowhere - a place called Sandstone, and i would imagine Fargo is like some sort of booming metropolis compared to that tiny little place! That's neat you're from C/S - i figured you went to school in Boulder or something, with your avvy. Glad you're passing the point you lost your last baby.

mommy's, you asked about separating ourselves from previous losses - i'm finding that extremely difficult to do, and i keep comparing every little nuance and difference, hoping that each thing that's different is some sign that this one's going to turn out better - kind of silly, but that's how i'm dealing with it. So glad you have such a supportive husband - i do too, and that's making things go a lot better than they would otherwise, but i think he's more worried than he's wanting me to see.

 

[shelleney]

So sorry Lulu. Hope you get some answers soon. Praying for you

As for your question Mommy's Angel, I am in a strange place right now. My previous loss was due to an ectopic pregnancy at 7 weeks. So in this pregnancy, I had a scan at 6 weeks to ensure this baby was growing in the right place. And it is! So, I have completely seperated this pregnancy from the last one, as I know I wont have the same experience this time. However, I am now worried about miscarriage. And I dont have anything to relate it to, coz Ive never experienced it before. I dont know if certain pains or twinges are symptoms of miscarriage, etc. So I just hope and pray, and take each day as it comes.
Hope that you aren't stressing out too much (easier said than done) Thinking of you

xx

 

[jcg0506]

Lulu, I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through. I know it must feel terrible being in limbo right now. Maybe it is the vanishing twin and you still have one healthy baby there; we will hope.

I had my NT test on Monday and while I haven't gotten the blood results back, the ultrasound measurements of baby's neck looked good. This has been so reassuring to me. In addition to all of my fears about another mc, I have also been terrified of having a baby with Down's or other chromosonal problems. Although I know my fears won't all subside until I hold that baby in my arms, I am feeling a little less fearful. Also, they have bumped up my due date by a few days, from Oct 9 to Oct. 5. That means I'm nearing the end of the first trimester. I really hope that means the ms will subside soon. Its been terrible and actually getting worse in the last week rather than better. I'm really hoping I can start to enjoy this pregnancy more. I have felt so detached, between the fears and the constant sickness.

 

[barbie72]

Sorry to hear eveything that has been going on Lulu! I have never heard of hcg levels rising after a mc so I am still holding out hope for you. I'm praying that everything is going well this morning at your appointment.

As for myself, this Thursday I have an ultra sound. Unfortunately, I woke up this morning with bleeding. It is really light and no cramping but I am terrified again. This is the second time I have bled this pregnancy. I am waiting for the dr. to call me back. I am hoping they can squeeze me in today and I won't have to wait. I'm worn so thin at this point I'm not certain I can handle waiting until Thursday. I don't understand why this all has to be so hard.