MORGAN! So happy to hear that it isn't 100% ectopic. I agree with the second doctor, with numbers that high, it seems slim that it would be ectopic. Fingers are crossed that your numbers are higher tomorrow and you have no bleeding until then!
Sonia, I agree! Sometimes I wish I could text one of you to check on how you're doing, etc! ha.
Another BFN today, more dirty looking CM.
I decided to use an OPK thinking that maybe getting a strong positive would help me feel better about getting BFNs on the preg tests.
I got the weakest result ever - the test line was almost not even there.
There is something really messed up inside me and I can't handle this anymore. I thought that when I got my thyroid sorted out then everything else would follow.
"Oh you'll get pregnant like that!*snaps fingers*" said the doctor who performed my termination.
Yeah? Well f*ck you you jerk, I can't and I'm not and I wish I'd never come to you for the termination because life would have been so different.
I'm a mess. I feel fat and disgusting. I've been "happy eating" and not really exercising thinking that I was still maybe pregnant.
Would you mind sharing why you terminated your previous pregnancy? Of course you don't have to share. I terminated a pregnancy a few years ago (wrong time, wrong situation) and I constantly have to remind myself that I made the right decision for me at the time. I can look back on it now and wonder why I had done that given how hard it has been to get pregnant now, but I didn't know that then. I didn't know that we would have to go through this struggle. Please don't beat yourself up over this. You will get pregnant, and you will have a beautiful, healthy baby!
AFM- DH is debating his salary for the job today... he sooo nervous. I hope he does well. Cant wait to find out and can't wait til he signs the paperwork!!
Also- on a side note (sorry to say this, but Im excited and need to share), we got a 20% off one item from baby r us coupon yesterday in the mail. They are also doing a "spend over $150 and get a free video monitor". So Friday we are going to babys r us and buying our crib for 20% off and getting a free video monitor. I am getting excited!
woohoo! I love those coupons.
update
Well, I want to be excited about this but I'm still nervous. I got two very faint BFPs today (on cheapies) at 13DPO. Don't want to get too excited given that my last two BFPs didn't end well. Some things that are different this time around: this time I got my BFP later in my cycle. The last two times they were at 8 and 10 DPO and they gradually got lighter over time. This cycle I am also using the NPC. My BFP were lighter this time so I will test again tomorrow (hubby's birthday) and hope to see a darker line.
Praying this is it.
Pictures! So excited for you!
Ash, I see a faint shadow on your test! Your symptoms are sooo hopeful. I do remember you getting a bfp a bit later last time too, so testing this early could still be a bust!
AFM, going to cave and pick up a pack of FRER's on my way home.
Not sure when I am going to use
them, and im sure they will be
negative, but Im having a HUGE
urge to POAS. Boobs are sore, still
a little bit crampy, and i am
exhausted.
We will all have our turns.
Took an ic test this morning to satisfy my need to poas. 
but I was expecting that. I have a 3 pack of frers that I am going to start using on my birthday which is 11dpo.
