Please help!

[clownfish]

Hi guys. Please help me.

I'm 4w+5 and thought I was doing well. My temps have stayed really high, boobs really sore and I got a BFP Reading from 11 dpo using the cheapy Internet tests.

I took the proper test on 14dpo and got an instant positive.

I've been struggling as I had a MC before so have been using the cheap Internet tests every other day since and it's been great, as the li e gets darker and darker and it comes up instantly now.

Did one yesterday morning and instant dark line, pretty much as dark as the control. Temp 36.7 All good.

Wiped last night and there was blood.

no blood today but light brown residue. Temp 36.8!!! test line just as dark as before.

No cramping but a dull ache down, heavy feeling down there.


I'm going out of my mind. Can't believe thus is happening again! How can it be when my test result is so strong and my temp is still so high???? Boobs are still sore but can't tell if they are less sore than usual....

Feel like I'm just waiting to be got now,

 

[hb1]

If this is stressing you out I would ask your dr to do quantative hcg tests - considering your history.

There's probably nothing to worry about - but getting a definate answer that the hcg is going up as it should might help you?

hope all is well

hx

 

[babydancing]

I am in the same boat as you...
all we can do it wait it out. spotting can be normal, so just hang in there and be positive! i wish you all the best!! keep us posted on how you are doing and if you need to vent, thats what we are all here for!!

 

[bernina]

Hang in there clownfish . I do suggest at least ringing your dr's office to see if they would like to get some blood work done or scedule you for an earlier scan. I know nothing can really ease your mind but please know that many have experienced this and went on to have healthy babies. The dull ache and heavy feeling you mention always indicated early pregnancy to me, so I think that's a wonderful sign honey!!!

Best of luck to you also babydancing. Thinking of you!!

 

[kafs78]

PLEASE DONT WORRY - i had brown stuff (twice now), and i got a 9wk scan and all is 100% perfect!!

crampy feelings are part of early preg - so dont be alarmed....

See your DR or MW and try and get a scan about 6 weeks.....

 

[clownfish]

Hey guys, well it all stopped after the Friday evening, a little brown on sat but not much, then nothing on Sunday all day, then last night, dark brown again... slightly heavier...

i died. Decided it was over, told OH so... lots of tears.

Today we are back to barely nothing again.


Went to Dr, he didnt want to do anything but i 'persuaded him' to let me have a quantative HCG... got the first one done today, next one is on Wednesday...

Midwife says to book a scan for Monday but i'm not sure i'll get there as my boobs are definitely less sore today then before..

yesterday they seemed to have no sensitivity at all, but today its come back... but i'm sure they are not as sore as usual.

But again, POAS today, a proper one... the last proper one i did was at 14DPO and the line was there, but not that strong...

today i did the other one in the pack and the line was instant and very strong...

my temp was also 36.7 at 5am ... so would have been 36.8 or 9 at 7am... still super high.

My period temp is around 36.2 @ 7am... 35.9 @ 5am..


so i dunno. I wont find out til Monday with the bloods or the scan... unless i start the MC properly before then.


Nothing i can do, but cant really stand this.

Sorry for being defeatest, its just SO damn hard.

 

[bernina]

 

[fluffyblue]

firstly i wouldnt worry about temperatures, I got so wound up about this after getting my BFP it made me paranoid. Lot of things affect temps - you have got a BFP try and keep that thought positive for now.

Also I had a slight bleed at between 4/5 weeks again this was small but my specialist said it was probably implantation bleeding. Again symptoms come and go throughout the entire pregnancy my boobs are sore one min then nothing for days just like my MS disappeared for days then came back !!

Hope the HCG tests reveal some positive news for you xxxx

 

[clownfish]

Thanks for the support guys.

I've pretty much lost hope now, as i'm bleeding on and off... certainly not heavily, but sometimes brown, occasionally red.

but its OK now. Means that i've accepted that what will be will be...

which is an easier state of mind to be in tbh.


I've checked my work health insurance and it covers 'infertility' investigations, so rang them today and i am covered, so i'm off to see the Dr on Wednesday to get referred.

Least i know i can have lots of tests done to see if its just 'one of those things' again, or if maybe there is something amiss, thoughts are thyroid function and diabetes... but i look forward to talking to a consultant who might be able to suggest options.

At least that way i have a path, as after the last one, noone would help me.. this time if the worst happens, i can get help.


Sick you have to go through this multiple times before anyone will help though.... doesnt seem right does it.


Guess the next few days will confirm what is happening, but i've resigned myself to it right now.

I'll be back though, thats a promise.

 

[bernina]

sweetheart and please know that we are all here for you. I know nothing can make this better on you, but if you need to talk, there is always someone here to listen. PM me anytime, even if you just want to vent or chat about non pregnancy things.

I'm very glad that you'll be able to see a specialist. After my 2nd mc my regular ob/gyn ran some of the standard tests but it wasn't until after we found a private FS that we started getting answers. Turned out I had a uterine septum.

If you have any questions about seeing a specialist just let me know. I also wrote about all of the tests and visits with the FS in my TTC journal if that helps at all.

and thinking of you.

 

[clownfish]

Thanks Bernina, i'll go and read your thread.

Brown CM today... very light.

Did a cheapy test and super strong test line, strongest ever i think, but hard to tell with the others having evaporated now...

boobs there, but not roaring.

Temp still high....

what a mess. Its hard to keep my head with this, if its over, it should just get on with it, if its not, it should stop and give me my big symptoms back...

Nothing i can do, think i shall go and build our new flatpack wardrobe that arrived yesterday, take my mind off it.

 

[bernina]

A nice dark test line sounds like a really good sign to me!!

I know it's just so frustrating sitting and waiting. I'm afraid the entire pregnancy could be like this, but really hope I can relax after I get out of the first tri.

Yesterday I realized what an impact this is having on DH. He came home from work and he just looked off. Told me he was mentally exhausted worrying if this will stick or not and worrying if I'm sad and what it will do to me. I was a bit of a drama queen and pessimist on Sunday and I really think that scared him. I have to remember that so far I have no reason to believe this pregnancy won't work out. Until then, I'm trying my hardest to enjoy and relax.

My new goal to focus on is eating healthy for this baby. I know the first several weeks are so so important and I've been eating nothing but restaurant and convenience food. Just haven't been in the mood to cook and we recently got back from a long vacation so house is completely out of food.

Have fun putting together the wardrobe, I think an activity is a great thing to help put your mind at ease.

 

[clownfish]

I know my husband is struggling too.. he said with tears in his eyes that he hates all this bad stuff happening to me. Made me cry all over again.

He thinks i've miscarried because i assumed once i'd started bleeding it would get heavier and heavier like last time and told him it was all over again, i've not said anything more about it really, cos i dont want to mess with his head even more than i have already...

i wasnt lying to him, i thought it was over, now my head is a mess because i have this tiny doubt that maybe it isnt...

its stupid isnt it, small cramping and i thought it was all over, now i have no cramping and i think that means its died and is all over.... i cant win!

Monday will confirm one way or the other as my HCG results will be in, and my midwife wants to book a scan anyways.... assuming i haven't confirmed it by bleeding heavily before then....

torn between being active and getting on with things, and just lying in bed hoping for the best...

this is so much worse than last time, least last time the game was up quickly, light bleeding to full heavy painful cramping bleeding within 24 hours...


this started Fri eve and has come and gone since then... thats 5 days but no progression to heavy bleeding, just a little to wipe, and then a heavy wipe, and then nothing, and then the same again once every 24 hours.

Sigh..


Sorry for warbling on, and sorry if this makes anyone else bad, just feels like proper purgitory.

 

[bernina]

You are not alone, trust me and this is exactly what this forum is for because so many of us are going through the exact same thing.

I haven't had any spotting but am still a right mess (oh no, I'm starting to sound British from all you lovely ladies on here!).

I actually found an empty conference room at work and started to ring my fertility dr and ask for another blood test (I've only had one so have no idea if my hCG is on track or not). I hung up before they answered because I decided it could potentially cause me more harm than good.

Chances are I'd get some ambigious result that would stress me out until my appt next Friday. So I'm just going to roll with it and try to enjoy the next week and a half.

I understand why you don't want to tell DH that there may still be a chance. After seeing everything I put mine through yesterday I would probably do the same.

My gut tells me that you are definitely still in the running. Spotting is no fun and can be a bad sign, but it can also mean nothing at all and that strong positive preg test really has me thinking you could pull through this!

I also hear you on the bed thing, when I get home I just want to curl up and stay in bed all night because I feel like it's healthiest for the baby. But I'm going to force myself to go on a nice walk with DH and do some mild activity. We went for several 8 mile hikes when we were on vacation last week (before I knew we were preg) and it clearly didn't do any harm.

Try to remain as positive as possible, but also don't beat yourself up if you feel a bit blue, it's completely normal, especially given our history.

I'm here anytime you need to chat.

 

[clownfish]

ha, ha... sorry for making you go 'all british' ..

Benina, you are being so much help its untrue, you are a real angel.


Well, update for today, first HCG test back... 8000 @ 5w ... seems OK from what i can tell... but know its less about the number and more about the rise... had second bloods taken today, so results Friday if i'm lucky, or Monday... if i've held out that long that is.


Colour of choice today is brown, and light.... some none at all... have had red wipe once a day so far, maybe today will be the day of no red....

NO RED PLEASE!!!


Also, feel really weird last night and today...

started yesterday evening, spent most of the day asleep but whenever i was up and about i kept feeling really odd and dizzy... put it down to spending the day horizontal, but even getting up from horizontal on the sofa was sending my head funny.

and today i feel like i have no energy, even walking from the Dr to to blood lab i felt like a total space cadet, so weary and aching all over, as if i'd just trekked 10 miles and wasnt going to make it to 11, not at all like i'd just walked 5 minutes from one building to the next...


hoping these are good signs and not signs that my insides are poisoning me.

Back off to bed now, feel like i've done 10 rounds in a boxing ring. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz





Hope everything is OK with your sticky today...

 

[bernina]

8000 sounds like a great number at 5 weeks! I was 199 at 4 weeks and was told that was a good number. Just so hard to believe the numbers can jump so quickly in a week! I hope you get your blood results back before the weekend, that would help to reassure you.

Your symptoms today of tiredness, exhaustion, dizziness, all sound so promising!! I was actually excited last night when I felt totally sick to my stomach before eating dinner.

Had a bit of a scare early this morning when I woke after having a bad dream about blood in the toilet. Was really scared the first few times I went to the bathroom today but so far so good.

Just feel a bit off today, bladder feels funny (almost like UTI but it's not) and I feel what I can only describe as mild cramps although I'm not actually feeling cramps, just more of a sensation.

I hope the red blood stays away for you!

 

[Pippasdvision]

Hi guys, Sorry to interupt. I would not worry about your symptoms they will come and go. If you are getting positive HPT that is a good sign, but remember u are still early on which means you neeed to test in the morning and not try other times as you will get fluctuating results even fmp will vary with strength of urine. A little bit of bleeding is quite normal in early pregnancy especially brownish wipes.the times to worry is when you have cramps as well as red bleeding after a brownish bleed and if you start loosing clots. Clots are to be worried about. I know it is easy to say even I have only come back from hospital this morning after filling two pads in three hours last night. Still spotting now but all is fine with a good heartbeat etc. Try not to worry as it will only make your symptoms worse. Hugs to you all

 

[bernina]

Thanks for the reassurance Pippasdvision and congratulations on your pregnancy!

Sorry you're having to deal with the bleeding but so happy that everything is looking great with the little one! Just goes to show you how very common bleeding and spotting can be.

 

[Pippasdvision]

Yea my sonographer said that 30% of sucsessful pregnancies have a bleed at somepoint in the first 3 months

 

[clownfish]

Hi pippa, please don't apologise for interrupting! I appreciate any advice I can get!

It's just SO hard cos if what happened last time.

I have loo fear big time.

Glad it was just a dream Berni, hope your bleeding stops Pippa.


Its funny isn't it, my mum always threatened me when I was younger that all I had to do was look at a boy and I'd get pregnant and wind up pushing a pram. Never thought it'd be the hardest thing to do in reality!!!