September loss thread, TTC our rainbow babies

[StillPraying]

Oh no myshel I'm so sorry. I hope you're wrong

 

[MorgansMom09]

Oh myshell i hope you are wrong! Lots of love!

 

[StillPraying]

Thinking of you Myshel, I hope you're doing okay

 

[MorgansMom09]

So so far this cycle the opk worked however 2 out of the 3 good days hubby was not in the mood. Needless to say I was devasted. So now im moody and only slightly feel bad about it.
How's everything going Myshelsong?

 

[Myshelsong]

It is so annoying when ovulation and moods don't come together. Feels so frustrating and I use to get so angry about it. Hope you are relaxing during your tww.

So we lost the pregnancy. My numbers have come down drastically and obviously I had a lot of bleeding and other things happen. Feeling ok I guess, heartbroken, dissapointed and upset about the timing of it, but ok. We just passed Blues due date and this week has been pretty emotional and numb. The worst is I know we cannot conceive naturally no I have to wait for doctors appointments, and other things before we can even attempt another cycle. I am just hoping that there are no other complications and we can get approved for another FET and that that one works so that I don't have to do another full IVF cycle.
My life sucks

 

[StillPraying]

Myshel I know it's hard but don't let this define you or your life. How soon will they do another FET?

 

[Myshelsong]

I am trying to stay positive, just such a crappy week honestly.
I can do it as soon as the next cycle, but hubs and I are talking about taking a one cycle break to recover after the bad timing and loss.
Doing much better so far today emotionally, it is just hard to comprehend we were suppose to be parents a week ago and bam all gone. It just kind of all hit home at the same time.

Anyways, how is everyone else doing?

 

[StillPraying]

Myshel taking a break for at least a cycle makes sense. Give yourself a second to catch your breathe.

Thursday is Luke's due date and we got a bunch of bad news today that DH wasn't selected for promotion and they are canceling our move to Virginia. We're really upset about it

 

[Myshelsong]

Oh that isn't great. I am so sorry that he didn't get the promotion, how did it fall through?
Did you guys already sell or end the lease where you are currently living?

So I got my negative hcg from my last blood test. So we are got the ok to do FET next cycle. We are still talking about timing, when we want to do what. We haven't quite made up our minds yet. I am really torn emotionally. I don't want the same due date as I did with blue, but if we keep pushing this and I am lucky enough to get pregnant I might. I guess that is thinking positively actually, the idea that I might actually get pregnant and substain a pregnancy...

How are you doing Morgan?

 

[StillPraying]

Myshel glad you got the go ahead. I also understand not wanting the same due date as before. I think you just have to get completely relaxed and then asked yourself are you ready to try right now or do you still need more time. It's okay to take a break, and it's just as okay to jump right in. It only matters where your mind is at.

The promotion thing is hard to explain, but the guy they picked really didn't deserve it over the others so that's frustrating. Fortunately our lease is good to October and it's easy to renew, it's just hard because we were very excited about moving and being close to family.

 

[MorgansMom09]

Popping in for a quick update. I hate just about everyone and everything right now. Anger and bitterness is getting me bad this month. On the bright side I get to start a new job March 1st. That's about all I have the energy to type. I'm so sorry for your loss Myshelsong and I hope next time works out for you.

 

[Myshelsong]

Thanks Morgan. I hear you on the anger and bitterness, you are not alone in this.
Big hugs Hun. Hope you have a better rest of the month.

 

[MorgansMom09]

Ok so I need some opinions. I took a hPT yesterday and this morning and both times got faint positiveso, I'm 5 days late. My docs office opens tomorrow and I'm thinking of making an appointment. Should I call or wait a couple days. Ughhh the debate is killing me.

 

[Myshelsong]

Call tomorrow if af hasn't arrived and you are still getting faint positives.
Good luck Hun, I really hope this is a rainbow for you!

 

[StillPraying]

I would definitely call Morgan! What brand are you getting the faint positives on? Fx for you!

 

[MorgansMom09]

I'm getting positives on the off brand frer. But the @home test I got one faint positive on that one, and thenetflix one negative followed by a positive from the frer type one.

 

[StillPraying]

I don't trust frers at all. Have you tried clearblue? I was getting obvious positives on Clearblue where frer was barely there if at all. If you take tests throughput the day you'll get varied answers based on your urine concentration.

 

[MorgansMom09]

I dont trust any tests really lol but another faint line on the cheapo this morning so I'll be calling before work.

 

[StillPraying]

Fx for you Morgan!

 

[Myshelsong]

Hope this is it for you Hun!