Shaking off the bad ju-ju - 3DPO, late O ...hey! ho!

[malinko]

Major temp drop this morning. Feeling out already. I guess it could be an implantation dip but I'm doubtful. Guess we will see what temps do tomorrow....

 

[Wish2BMom]

Hi!! boy, busy morning so far, this is my first breather. Got in at about 11:45 last night after a bit of a delay, but everything else was fine. I met a woman who was heading to Turkey to teach Entrepreneurship for 10 days - SO interesting!!

I need to go look at your chart again but temp dip?? boooo - but i do hope it's implantation. All we can do is hope. The rest of your temps have been so good, I don't want this to let you down!

vaca - yes! this is the trip we're going out west. I can't wait - new places and things to see, traveling with some of DH's family whom I love. Should be a good time. Then straight back to Pitt again from Denver, then finally home by the 15th.

Sounds like you have a great weekend lined up! little bit of fun, little bit of relaxation! Hopefully no AF...
The bday party we're going to is actually for our friends' 2-yr old, but they are using it as an excuse to have folks over to their new house. So should be somewhat fun but yes, everyone will be ooh'ing and ahhh'ing over the preg couple, as will I, I'm sure. Yep, this is the couple that announced on FB a couple of weeks ago. That said, I will DEF have a glass for you! My fave wines are red in color and 'interesting' in flavor - typically red zins, cabs and blends - bold, spicy, somewhat fruity, NOT oakey (tastes like feet to me, so when I taste 'feet', I know it's oakey). One of my faves is called 7 Deadly Zins. Do you like wine? what's your fave kind?

and oh gosh, I don't think I deserve your admiration!! Super sweet of you to say, though!! the race on Sunday is just a 5k, nothing big. I don't even know if I can make it to the end w/o stopping to walk a bit, that's how out of it I've been lately. Glad I got a run in at the hotel the other day, though, just to bridge that gap a bit more from the last time I ran. We'll see, I think it's going to be in the 50's, so that's a great temp for running. Maybe I will last! It's a hilly course, though, and I HATE hills. All of my friends are running the 10k, to which I said 'hell no', so I'll be hanging with my friend's 20 month old for an hour or so while they do that.

how are you feeling today? any new aches or pains? I totally understand about 'not feeling it' - that's how I started to feel this Tuesday. Just didn't feel any different, though I know some women don't and they are surprised by no AF. So try not to discount your lack of feeling anything new! And if you're just implanting today, you won't feel anything new for like 3 days, right?

 

[Wish2BMom]

I have to say, I really kinda want to stop temping and OPKs too. I have an idea of when I O now, and the stress of waking up and immediately thinking about what time it is, how much to move around, taking the temp under the covers so it doesn't beep too loudly - it's annoying. I have a few months of data to bring to the docs, I know I have a short LP - I think those tools have done their job. The daily analysis of temp dips and spikes is killing me too.
What do you think?
though I guess I paid for 3 months of VIP on FF, I should use it.

and looking at my schedule, I think we'll only have 1 day together around the time that I'll O this next month, before I head to Pitt that week. ugh. So I am kinda already counting May out, which might be better for my sanity anyway.

 

[malinko]

I've had a dull headache off and on today but nothing big. I had some major cramping that woke me up around 4am but it's not pregnancy related. I've been seen in the past by the doctor for them as they are very random and very painful. He thinks it's endometriosis but I've not accepted it. The cramping is very infrequent and never know when it'll happen. Still very bloated today and back is aching a little. Both happen pre-af.

I'm thinking I will still do opks and temping but will stop temping after ovulation is confirmed. I don't like reading into all the post o temps.

I love a good cabernet! Probably one of my favorites. Especially with some dark chocolate! I've never heard of 7 Deadly Zins. I'll have to look for it and give it a try.

Have a great weekend. Depending on what temps do tomorrow and Sunday, I MAY test Sunday morning. Good luck at your race...let me know how it goes!!!

 

[malinko]

Ummm....so just had some stretchy cm that had a light brown tint to it with the smallest speck of red when I wiped.......not sure if I should be excited or upset......

 

[malinko]

Forgot to put something..... I have had this before but only the day or or day before af showing......

 

[Wish2BMom]

oooooooh!!! tinted cm is good! I hope anyway! my spotting is usually just spotting, no cm mixed in.

oh wow, i'm so sorry about your cramping - that sucks. Sounds painful!! I'm beginning to think there aren't a whole lot of positive things that have to do with the uterus except housing and feeding a baby for 9 months!!

You still seem down - STAHP THAT! Unless I'm just reading into something that's not there. What did the doc say are the next steps if this isn't your month?

I hope that you have a wonderful night with friends tonight - have a glass of wine! take the edge off
Keep me updated on any early testing results!!! FX'ed!

 

[malinko]

You are Sooo good! Yes , I'm still down. I hate this part of the tww. It consumes me. Especially after seeing that smallest hint of red and weird stretchy cm. I went back and had a small speck one time 3 days before, same thing the next day, small red speck one time, next day brown tint cm, and then followed by cycle. Ugh! I was getting so hopeful. Our next step is to have dh tested. Will probably try one more month though.

I would love a glass of wine but would feel guilty by that "what IF". I'm guessing af will be here Monday if not sooner. I guess before getting to ooh down, I need to see tomorrow's temp. Hurry up dinner time! I just want to have something take my mind off this!

 

[malinko]

So...my best friend just found out she's pregnant. Probably one of the only few who could get pregnant right now and me be excited for. This will be baby number 2. She had problems getting pregnant with the first and was put on clomid as she wasn't ovulating. Figured they'd probably have problems this time around so went ahead and started trying. First month....wasn't temping, no opks, nothing. Had sex twice. Boom. Pregnant. I really am happy for them. Just wish I could get pregnant.

 

[Wish2BMom]

Oh man. I'm so sorry. I know you're happy for her, but I'm sad for you. I get it. I totally do. We just watched Grownups 2 - awful, FYI. But the last 5 mins got me - stupid (but I love him cuz he's a local) Adam Sandler talking to his unborn, unexpected baby in stupid Salma Hayeks tummy. I HATE YOU ALL!!! Lol sorry. I almost cried! I had to look away!! Ughhhh it'll be our time soon. Just have to think that it's not now for some reason.

 

[Phoenix82]

So...my best friend just found out she's pregnant. Probably one of the only few who could get pregnant right now and me be excited for. This will be baby number 2. She had problems getting pregnant with the first and was put on clomid as she wasn't ovulating. Figured they'd probably have problems this time around so went ahead and started trying. First month....wasn't temping, no opks, nothing. Had sex twice. Boom. Pregnant. I really am happy for them. Just wish I could get pregnant.

Hey ladies

Hard times!! Sorry another person you know is preggo - although I know you're pleased for them, but it still sucks for us. I totally agree!!!

It really should be our time now!
Well I booked my holiday and if this cycle doesn't work out we are not trying in June and I have a referral when I get back so we shall see.
Cd8 today last cycle I ovulated cd21 plenty of time to kill!!

Big hugs xx

 

[Wish2BMom]

Nice temp spike today and I see you're still mixed spotting. Thinking of you!! Hang in there!!

 

[malinko]

Thanks. I really appreciate your support. I lost it this morning and just started bawling. The temp "spike" is just like it was last cycle. Have considered getting a test just so I can see that it is negative and move on but I know already it'll be negative...so no need to waste the money. Probably won't be on for a few days unless something good happens. I'm just emotionally drained.

 

[Wish2BMom]

No prob - understood.

I wish I could make you feel better!!

That party today wasn't so terrible, basically bc I love the couple that is preggo. But babies babies everywhere. 2 preggo bellies and 8 kiddos, all 4 and under. Us with 0. But I could have wine.

 

[malinko]

Glad to hear the party wasn't too bad.

Doing a little better today. I still get a little emotional when talking to dh. It's hard not to be jealous when everyone around us is getting pregnant. Dh knows the next step is to have him checked so we will see about doing that. I was somewhat hopeful as yesterday morning when I went to the bathroom, I had two small spots of watery pink when I wiped and then some brownish cm. Still no af yet, but losing hope with this mornings temp. Guessing af will be here tomorrow.

 

[Wish2BMom]

I'm still hoping for you!! Couple more hours!

Yeah we talked a bit too - going to make a doc apt soon. I should actually call tomorrow, I guess. Do I call a doc first or fertility specialist? So many questions already!

 

[Phoenix82]

Hey ladies

Malinko there's still hope if AF isn't here your still in xx

Wish I'd call your doc first have a chat and then go down the fertility route.

I have to say I've almost given up hoping for my turn, I'm cd10 today and waiting to ovulate. I kinda feel like I'll never get preggo.

I was actually watching breaking bad yesterday and one of the main characters is preggo, in the episode I watched she had a scan and I cried because I feel like that will never be me - mental right!!!!! This last 11 months has been sooooo tough xxx

 

[Wish2BMom]

Phoenix - either it's not mental or it is and I'm so there with you. 7 months here, I guess, and am learning that I might have an LP defect (looks to be 9 days long). But who knows if the sperm are meeting the egg before they can even implant? The issue could be sooner than that! I've definitely been more sensitive to every pregnancy storyline on TV/movies. Who the heck knew that this was such a popular one until now? I never paid too close of attention! It's like when you get a new car, you see that particular model everywhere. Or when you broke up with your boyfriend in high school, you swear EVERY song on the radio is pointed at you and your misery!! Hang in there, though - there has to be a reason that it hasn't happened for us yet. It'll come at the right time.

malinko - holding strong above the coverline! I'm thinking about you, girl. I knowwwww you're frustrated b/c it's not a spike and you're still spotting. I hope you're doing ok - hopefully work will take your mind off of things a little bit. I hope you were able to have a fun and/or relaxing weekend too!
I'm so terrible in times like this b/c I know how you're feeling and I know not much said or done will make you (or would make me) feel better or more positive. I would just hug you!

 

[malinko]

Hey girls!

Doing better. I'm bummed...as AF still has yet to make her full appearance. Last month she didn't make her appearance until the evening hours. I continue to spot (although it's only when checking my cervix....nothing is making it to the toilet paper since I had that pink spotting on Saturday morning.) So, I have FINALLY accepted that she is coming. DH asked me this morning if I had started my period yet and I again told him "not yet...but it will be here today." I finally had enough strength to talk about it without crying (I don't know why....but I feel that I need to be the "strong guy" right now. He's not upset, but I just am not ready for him to see me so upset about it all.) Anyway, so this morning I asked him if he was sad that it didn't work out this month. He admitted that he was and I of course told him that I too was sad about it.

I don't know what all we will do this month. I will probably use up the last of my opks and temp until ovulation is confirmed and then stop. Not sure if we will do SMEP again or just do every other day. I've clearly got some time to think about it though!

I spent most of the entire weekend working (and maybe going to the bathroom every hour to see if I had started yet! haha!) so nothing too exciting. Going to have a glass of wine tonight and just "try" to relax.

Thanks girls so much for your support. It really means so much to have people like you who KNOW what it is that I am going through. I'm frustrated with myself that I left myself get so upset. Wish, I'm like you though. Gosh darn it...I did every possible thing I could do so I should have "won!" Oh well, month 8, here we come!

 

[Wish2BMom]

yes!!! dang it, we SHOULD have won our nugget prizes!!

glass of wine tonight sounds perfect for you. I had a few myself this weekend.

I've definitely determined that I'm not temping or OPK'ing this month. I love having the data but it weighs on my mind too much, I want to race through the day to get to the next morning to see what my temps are, etc. I really think it was messing with my sleep too - eyes popping open at 1am made me nervous b/c I'd start calculating how many hours of deep sleep I could get until the 5am temp time then that calculating process would keep me up longer. Endless cycle!

so - I'm taking chart stalking away from you, which I know is so fun!! I'm sorry!! haha

I'm just going to BD for fun and be on the lookout for ewcm, then BD as much as possible until it's gone or we're around cd20. I should have O'ed by then, so then I'll just be on the lookout for symptoms. But again, with a short LP, until that is fixed, I'm not really looking into much.