so something kinda whacked me in the head a couple of hours ago - I don't know if I want to go see the RE just yet. If nothing is wrong with me and DH's motility is the only thing that's off and is still 'fair' (and has one more test to see if that stays the same or improves), then why not keep just trying the way we are? Having been only REALLY trying since Jan, which I mean by getting to know the O days through temping/OPKs - I can't really count last Oct-Dec. So 8 months of trying isn't really terrible, right?
I'm not nervous about it, per se - I guess I just don't want to force it just yet. Maybe I feel that we haven't given it enough time.
You're going to think that I'm super silly but I've also been told now by 2 different spiritualists/mediums to relax, stop focusing on it and stop TRYING and it will happen naturally - the latest 'message' being from my deceased MiL, like specifically telling my FiL, "tell them to stop trying - it'll happen, just relax! They'll be the first to give grandbabies and then it'll be the 2nd son (my DH's brother)" and my FiL didn't know the efforts that we've been going through like trying/plotting/charting/setting up appointments, etc. I just listened to the CD of his session with the medium and it was kinda nuts.
On one hand, how can you not try to get the right timing every month to be successful? and on the other hand, why sign up for IUI just yet? I know I'm getting older and time's running out but....I dunno.
I'm going to talk to DH about it tonight. We did end up getting a new car the other day (2014 Jeep Grand Cherokee Limited!! I love it!!) so that's a new payment. We also just started the construction on the house to add the new sunroom and bathroom for my FiL's side of the house. And we have a TON going on over the next 2 months as far as plans. I set the RE appt up for 9/18 so I feel like we're just pushing it in where it might not fit, just b/c I'm like a bulldozer when I set my mind to something. No harm in calling it off for a few months, right?
thanks for letting me talk this out. I feel pretty compelled by these feelings now. I actually feel like a wave of relaxation has come over me...