thank you little - your words mean the world to me. That's exactly how I roll, and DH does too. You can't focus on the 'why me', I tend to think 'why not me'. If it's going to happen, it's going to happen. There are things I can do to try to prevent certain things from happening in my life but ultimately, something like this is what it is.
I'm trying to take a little control back in this situation - I went out for a run yesterday, first time in about 8 weeks. B/c of that, I certainly didn't run the whole time, but it was nice to get the blood flowing a bit quicker. I'm going out for a walk today - I want to keep that oxygenated blood flowing a little quicker to the bean, maybe that'll help. And I bought some fruit smoothies, tons of veggies, going to have an egg/day, etc. Again, I know that if it's going to happen, there's nothing I can do to stop it. The embryo is just not developing right. But if it is just a slow-starter, then maybe I can kick it into gear.
That being said, I'm still not experiencing many symptoms at all - boobs aren't as excruciatingly sore as before, no nausea, no super exhaustion. Today I'm 8 weeks and I'd think I'd be feeling at least one of those since the baby would be taking up a lot of my physical energy and if there were a lot of hormones, I'd probably at least feel a little nauseous. So I have hope, yes. But basically all signs are pointing to no, so it's easy to be realistic. However, no major cramping or even spotting at all yet. So maybe it'll prove us all wrong!
and yes, I'd have ripped someone's face off if they weren't as apologetic as they were. They apologized probably about 10 times total so I had to give them that.