Sneaking back in...

[MKaykes]

Belle, that's too bad they didn't do them both at once. Did they have you keep your bladder full for the transvaginal? That would be terrible, my full bladder was for the abdominal. Did they say anything about what they saw? They didn't see the polyp on mine until they did the saline to expand my uterus.

 

[BelleNuit]

MK they did a transabdominal-pelvic when bladder was full, and the transvaginal with empty bladder. But doc also wants an abdominal ultrasound which would show organs (like kidneys, spleen and gallbladder). I don't know why they want that for fertility testing!

That's good to keep in mind that the ultrasound won't catch everything. She didn't say anything about mine just that the doc would have results tomorrow

 

[BelleNuit]

Holy man, the fertility clinic called me back and we have an appt. August 17.... (Which would be my CD2 if I'm not pregnant). I wasn't really expecting to get in this quickly

I'm freaking out.

 

[MKaykes]

Wow Belle that is quick! All this testing and appts is a little nerve-racking!

DH's SA results are in. Sounds like everything was normal. I'll ask more questions at my next appt which is my preop also on Aug 17.

How's everyone else doing?

 

[BelleNuit]

MK so glad to hear the SA was good! Kinda funny we both have a pretty big appointment on the same day!

 

[MissDoc]

Hi Ladies! Belle, wowza that went quickly for you! Your fertility clinic appt is sooner even than mine, lol. Ours is the 23rd.

MK, glad to hear hubby's SA was good. That's reassuring a bet. One less thing to worry about.

8DPO (I think) here. I haven't temped in the past few days as I was out of town for a wedding. I am ready for this cycle to be over. I just feel like everything has worked against me this cycle. No positive OPK ever, some uncertainty about O date, less than stellar intercourse timing, plus did some drinking and some somewhat aggressive/enthusiastic bding over the weekend which probably wasn't super promoting of implantation. Annnnd I feel like I might be getting a little infection as I'm having some soreness/discomfort. Overall, I just feel out already. If this happens to be the cycle I get a positive HPT it would be hilarious due to everything being out of whack. I did have a pregnancy dream though that I found out at my appt that there was a fertilized embryo in there that hadn't yet implanted (not that that can happen in real life given my appt timing which will be before my next ovulation, lol), and we were watching it implant on the ultrasound screen (WTF?) and were so excited. So funny.

 

[MKaykes]

Ha ha Doc, I doubt "enthusiastic bding" would harm any chances of implantation 😀. Good luck this cycle! I hate pregnancy dreams during the TWW, I always want them to mean something, like it is some kind of intuition when in reality I think it is just because it is all we are thinking about, of course it will make its way into our dreams!

 

[MissDoc]

I know, I didn't think so either (with intercourse interfering with things), but read this study that suggests sex around implantation time affects things. I swear everything affects TTC.

https://www.ahcmedia.com/articles/1...plantation-confers-lower-chance-of-conception

 

[BelleNuit]

Missdoc I've also read that semen can be good for implantation and early cell division!

I also have pregnancy dreams in the TWW, just wish fulfillment. But they feel so darn good till you wake up!

 

[MissDoc]

Aargh, temp dropped today and mild cramps starting, signaling the end of this cycle is near. I probably o'd a bit earlier than FF thinks. Either way, my period can't come soon enough. I just really want to be on to the next cycle to try again. Feeling a little sorry for myself today.

 

[MKaykes]

Sorry you are feeling out Doc 🙁. You've got your appt scheduled so you're making progress!

 

[BelleNuit]

Sorry to hear AF may be on its way doc. You're one step closer to your appointment though!

 

[Pleasance]

Sorry I've been gone so long. I had to work all weekend and my grandma just came off the breathing tubes two days ago. She was starting to wake up yesterday so that's good. Hoping to go back to check on her after work tonight. My husband starts his new job Thursday so once we get new insurance cards I'll start being able to make appointments.

I'm 8dpo today, temps are steady (now that I've got the AC down) and I'm having no signs or symptoms. Seeing as how this month has been crazy, I'm not even the slightest bit hopeful.

Doc - Did test results come back in? Forgive me if I'm too early on this question. My days are all confused.

 

[MissDoc]

Pleasance, Yeah the CD 3 tests revealed diminished ovarian reserve (normal is 1.5 to 11ish, mine is .60, so in the low category) and the sono revealed a small polyp (wasn't clear if it was the cervical canal or uterus). Polyp likely not that big of a deal, but the DOR is pretty bad. My obgyn referred me to fertility clinic and my appt with the RE is 8/23. Ready to figure out what we need to do to make this happen!

More cramps today and mild pink spotting, so I suspect AF will be here before the weekend hits. Took an HPT just because and of course, bfn.

I am trying to focus on healthy habits mostly, and I'm going to be optimistic about this next cycle darnit, no matter what. Just need this one to wrap up quickly!

 

[BelleNuit]

Pleasance, it's so good to hear that your grandma is starting to wake up! My brother was in ICU for pneumonia a few years ago, he was sedated and on a breathing tube. It was so scary for me when they took him off the breathing tube! It was like I didn't trust he could breath on his own anymore lol. I hope you are doing okay with everything. It can be pretty shocking to a person when a family member is recovering from something serious! : hugs:

Your temps are looking nice and steady today

Well 8 dpo today and going for my CD 21 blood work tonight

 

[Pleasance]

Ah ok! I knew I had something mixed up. I knew one of you was going to get bloods drawn and somehow I managed to get Doc and Belle confused. It probably had something to do with the fact that I was trying to read and type before 8am. Ha!

This morning my husband informed me that one of couple friends is expecting again. It was kind of hard news for some reason even though we think the world of them. It's a mix of being happy for them, envious, but also sadness and self admonishing for having negative thoughts all in one bubble. I think it was on my mind a solid few hours of the day. I feel like we are being left behind by all our friends in progressing to the next stage of life. Sorry I'm feeling super pity party for myself this week. Also stopped at hospital and gma was not as in good of state as I was hoping. She barely opened her eyes for 30 secs and don't think she had any idea who I was. I had one of those moments where I wondered if I will have a baby in time for her to meet them...the reality of her situation is starting to kick in.

 

[MKaykes]

Pleasance, sorry to hear your gmas's recovery is a bit slow. How old is she? I am an RN student and volunteer at a hospital, everyone we meet with is 70+ and I'm always amazed at how much variance there is in people's overall state at that point. I've visited 95 year olds that I would have pegged for 75 and 72 year olds who seemed 90. Hope she gets well soon.

I totally hear you on the mixed feelings when friends turn up pregnant. I have 2 friends, one who started trying around the sane time as me, the other who casually was going to see what happened. Their babies are almost 4 months old 🙁. I love the little girlies, but visiting them right after they were born was really hard, thinking I should be holding my own baby!

Perfect place here on BnB for a pity party every month! It's always been the perfect excuse for me to have a drink!

 

[BelleNuit]

LOL, MK I definitely share the sentiment of throwing yourself a pity party when AF shows. I find it very hard to see my pregnant friends. We got invited over to dinner by a couple we are friends with, who got pregnant after their first month trying.... and we started trying before them. She is almost due, and invited us over for a visit before their baby is born. I couldn't reasonably say no, but I feel completely gutted knowing it's coming. It will be next Friday.... where I'll either be pregnant or will have gone to our first fertility appointment Talk about bad timing.

I'm starting to feel tired and irritable.... acne has been bad this entire TWW. I think the irritability is a sign of PMS and that AF is coming. I'm feeling really low today... my mood always tanks before AF. Ugh.

 

[2ducks]

Hi girls, I just wanted to pop over and let you know how much I miss you. The first tri board is a little dull compared to this board. Everyone over there is super nice but it is mostly just postings about early symptoms and then a couple times a week we lose someone to miscarriage which is super sad. I'm doing fine, 6 weeks 4 days. My first appointment is scheduled for 10 weeks.

I miss you all and I hope and pray to see you on the pregnancy forums soon!!!

Pleasance- So sorry to hear about your grandmother. I hope things turn out good for her and your family.

 

[BelleNuit]

2ducks it's really good to hear from you again! The first tri board sounds kinda scary :s I think that would have me right freaked out!

Only a month until your first appointment, that's great news!!

Well I'm 10 dpo, temps seem to have smoothed out again. I'm not going to get myself all worked up about LP temps this cycle. I guess what will be will be!