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[Pleasance]

Doc that's great news! I'm glad that you got some positive news from these tests. A few more tests and you'll be done with that part. I've looked up my insurance benefits since my husband started a new job, and it states absolutely no coverage for anything infertility related. Makes me wonder about if the diagnosis tests will be covered at all. Today is my first day I will have a chance to call doctors to see if they are accepting new patients and if they take my insurance etc. Hopefully I can get some stuff going. Turned 35 this week and it was the most depressing birthday of all times. I always thought I'd have a baby or be pregnant by this time, so I think that made it hard. I'm not normally so gloom and doom about life but here lately I can't get out of that mood. Maybe if I can call and get an appt that will get me thinking more positive.

I mentioned taking a break from TTC to my husband and he was not on board. He said he doesn't want to take any break as he doesn't want to miss any chances. I think he feels that way especially since our insurance won't cover anything. Our insurance covers 100% of almost all types of birth control though. Including sterilization. Makes it kind of aggravating. Why should they cover making your body do something not natural but not getting it to function properly? That seems so backwards to me.

 

[MKaykes]

As far as insurance goes, it comes down to how they code it. Obviously Clomid/Femara, iui and IVF are clearly infertility. My Dr is a OBGYN who specializes in infertility. All of my tests have been covered under medical benefits, my surgery is being sent over just as the polyp, so all the tests have been related to that.

Fortunately I do have coverage for infertility treatments up to a lifetime max of $25,000. So far haven't dipped in to that at all. If I do go the iui route, there is only one clinic I can use in my area, which means we'd seriously consider switching doctors at that point.

 

[Pleasance]

Well I called around yesterday and managed to get an Obgyn appt for sept 22 for a yearly checkup. I'll talk to the doctor then about everything and see how things go. I also made an appt for a wellness check for the following week and a dentist appt for the week after. I'm going ahead and getting it all out of the way.
Mk that's really awesome that you have some fertility coverage! That's the way it should be!

 

[MissDoc]

Thanks MK and Pleasance. I feel hopeful. At least I don't feel like I'm just spinning my wheels trying. We have a plan for exactly when and how to move forward through the fertility steps as needed.

MK, hope you're enjoying your peace and quiet in the house. That should help the crankiness! So good that you have such great insurance, that is really awesome. I agree with Pleasance about that being how it should be!

Pleasance, it's great that you've got your appts lined up! I'm sorry it's been a gloomy period recently, I so know the feeling. But you've got a plan for movement and progress, and if you need help, you'll get it in the near future!


AFM, I should be o'ing today. OPKs positive yesterday, and still fairly dark today. BDing has been timed well this cycle too. So I'm feeling good. In 3 days I'll be impatient and whiny again. lol.

 

[Pleasance]

Well ladies, it's been a rough day. My grandma has passed today. She was doing better for a while and then she wasn't.

You have been very supportive and I'm so very thankful for that. I know that this is a pregnancy board, but it's also been a life board. Hopefully we can get a few more BFPs and step into our next phases of life. Hugs and baby dust to you all!!!

 

[BelleNuit]

Pleasance, I am very sorry to hear about your grandma. Hold on tight to your family during this time!

 

[MKaykes]

Pleasance, so sorry for your loss! Grandmas are so special, I'm sure this is a difficult time for you.

 

[MissDoc]

Pleasance, I'm so sorry. I hope for peace and comfort for you and your family during this grieving time. I know your grandmother was a major "glue" in your family and has a very special place in your heart. Take care of yourself hon.

 

[MissDoc]

For a little comedic relief... Have you ladies read this funny TWW article? It's so spot on.

https://www.babble.com/pregnancy/the-8-stages-of-the-two-week-wait/


I'm 3dpo and cycling through all of those stages. Even though I'm deeply impatient this (and every) cycle, I do feel hopeful at least!

 

[MKaykes]

Doc, that article was great! It's so comforting to know we all go through this! I laughed at the Google BFF part, I do it every cycle, like something changed in the last 4 weeks?

I'm at CD30, AF should be here today or tomorrow. I'm really excited to get on to this cycle. Feels like a new beginning, it is with renewed sense of hope that we could actually get pregnant this month (though doc says unlikely so soon after surgery)!

 

[MKaykes]

Ugh...just found out a couple friend of ours is expecting! I hate that it is so hard to be happy for them! I had no idea they were trying, so for all I know they've been trying for years and just didn't talk about it (they've been married long before I met them 4 years ago). It just makes me sad that I'm not 😢

 

[Pleasance]

Doc - I enjoyed that article too! My cycle being "normal" is all messed up due to extra stress, and it's messing with my head. I normally ovulate so late that the tww is more like 12 days if I'm lucky.

Mk- even though it may seem unlikely after surgery, it doesn't hurt to try. We have all experienced that feeling of sadness when a friend gets pregnant. It sucks, but we want or are happy for them.

Afm - I'm on cd15. I can only assume stress pushed something out of whack because I got a positive opk yesterday along with ewcm and this morning, not so much. I'll try smu before I leave for work to see if an opk looks any better. We BD last two nights so I think we'd be covered just in case.
Have you guys ever done that in high stress situations? Almost like fake ovulate? My temp was still low this morning so maybe this is annovulatory cycle....

 

[MissDoc]

MK, I know exactly how that feels. I know it's not fair, but I don't find it hard to be happy for people when I know they've had to "work for it" (have been trying for a while or needed intervention), but I'm fairly bitter toward everyone I know just winding up pregnant so quickly and easily. I'm sure once all of us are pregnant, life will be different and we won't be such resentful hags anymore, LOL.

Pleasance, I haven't had quite that exact thing happen, but very often I get conflicting signs. The past two months the scan thought I would o that day or the next day (around day 12), but OPKs didn't turn positive until later, and temps didn't look positive until later. So I think my body "tries" to o around day 12, but doesn't actually o until 14-17 sometimes. I am certain stress can mess things up though, and you have had your fair share of it this month, that's for sure.


AFM, I am in the no man's land of the TWW (Days 4-9) where it's too early to symptom spot and there's zero point in peeing on any sticks. 4DPO now.

I think I am setting myself for a big let down this month. I'm really very hopeful and find myself convincing myself that this is it, I'm going to be pregnant. Normally I'm more pessimistic, but I can't help my optimism this go round, and I know it will be one of those crushing month's if AF arrives. I found myself looking at likely due dates and nursery furniture. Seriously. So setting myself up.

 

[MKaykes]

Pleasance, when I was using OPKs and temping, I'd sometimes get + test for 2 days then 3 days later the temp rise. My doctor pretty much told me to not bother with either anymore. I'm wasn't great at tracking CM to compare (now it is pretty much all I use, but only watching for EWCM).

Doc, I hope your positivity pays off! It does make it harder if this isn't your month, but it gets draining being so darn pessimistic all the time, doesn't it?

Still waiting on AF, if I O'd at day 16 like last month when they did US, I'm late, but I had loads of EWCM on day 18, so I'm thinking this is just a long cycle. My longest has been 33 days. Is just annoying, I've been wearing a pad the last 3 days as I don't want to get stuck at school and not be able to get to the bathroom if AF shows up, so trying to be prepared!

 

[MKaykes]

Still twiddling my thumbs waiting for AF. So unusual to be this late, was going to wait for the weekend to POAS because the likelihood of a BFP is pretty impossible if I recall BDing correctly. But, of course couldn't wait and sure enough BFN. Not sure what is going on, but I'm getting impatient.

 

[MissDoc]

MK, I know the bd timing feels impossible, but it seems like that story is so common-- the thought we were totally out and there was no possible way we could be pregnant, but then my period was late and we're pregnant! So, I'm really hoping for you that this narrative is YOURS soon. I'll keep my fingers crossed that you just happened to get really really lucky!

AFM, I'm only 7dpo and POAS today because I'm just that impatient. It was (obviously) BFN, but it did get some of my impatient energy out and bring me back to earth a bit, so no harm no foul. I am just finding this one of the hardest month's to wait, because I'm actually hopeful and anxious. Yesterday I had some crampy twinges, nothing today. Creamy CM, but I think I typically get that around this time. Nothing telling to speak of, so symptom spotting is pretty boring without symptoms. LOL.

 

[MissDoc]

So today is 8 DPO and I got a squinter on two Wondfos with FMU. So I tested with a FRER second morning urine and light positive... Not a squinter. Holy crap. My first ever positive pregnancy test! Tried a digi too but it was BFN.

I sort of wish I hadn't tested this early, because the chance it sticks is just so low and that makes me nervous. Like mega scared. But I am thrilled to finally learn what a positive looks like from my own experience! I cried. This pursuit of pregnancy has just been so hard! Please stick, little ball of cells! Please oh please oh please!

 

[Pleasance]

Throwing some sticky baby dust your way!!! Maybe some super glue too.

 

[MissDoc]

Ooh yes, super glue! I like that. Lol. Thanks so much, Pleasance.

 

[BelleNuit]

Congratulations MissDoc, very exciting